From morning till night so many steps we take
and so many filled with a fear of mistake
if I do this thing how will my future fare
but if I do that thing, will I ever get there
indecisiveness comes and steals all our breath
so frustrated and lost and scared half to death
to have enough energy snort lots of *******
then fill that xanax 'script again and again
gotta drink to relax and forget all the stress
hungover and frazzled, your life is a mess
what if I had done this and not that
did I make the right choice? wait, am I getting fat?
there's so much going on that you lack concentration
and everything's spiraling causing frustration
perfection perfection, if you can just reach that goal
then you can finally relax then, and deal with the toll
If you were to just take one day at a time
don't even think ahead to the end of this rhyme
just take each day step by step, hour by hour
because honestly, you don't have any more power
you cannot control what will happen tomorrow
whether you'll be filled up with joy or with sorrow
a soldier who ran 10 miles one bright morning
that night found himself with one leg without warning
A millionaire's yacht burned up in a fire
for all his hard work and right thinking to fill his desire
a guy with the perfect family life
suddenly finds he has a cheating wife
nothing is certain in this world we're in
except for the bad repercussions of sin
relax and enjoy the years of your prime
and just live your life, one day at a time

Bouncing happy can't contain
this beauty born from struggle and pain
I know I annoy those still in the dark
who eye me like a hungry shark

It's not that I am actually annoying
it's just that their misery is so cloying
it's needy and saps all of their strength
they go on and on about it at length

I want to hand them a bottled cure
but there's one thing that I'm very sure
that if they looked for help from God
they would not feel like dirt that trod

everybody trying to use them for stuff
taking and taking, it's never enough
nice to everyone so they won't be hated
but never feeling their appetites sated

So now I go on my merry way
and for these souls, I often pray
I sometimes see them start to change
but there's only so much in my range

So turn from your misery, turn to hope
the self-help obsessively saying don't mope!
Like, oh, well I'll just be happy then
this is not within the ability of men

You cannot do this all your own power
to sit at the top of some imaginary tower
You were built to rely on a loving Creator
Make that decision now! There may not be a later

I am your God, no God's before me
This was a command for you, don't you see?
For if you love Me more than any other
then you won't be needy or clingy or smother

You shall not make an idol to pray to
a thing you can look at that can't even hear you
it will make you believe that I am not real
make you frustrated and numb, so you cannot feel

You shall not take My name in vain
this I told you for your own gain
for when you throw my name about
and use it when you scream and shout
you forget that I am the God of all
and you make Me seem so very small
How can you trust me to handle a prayer
if you don't even really believe I am there?

Remember to keep the Sabbath day
now listen to what I have to say
you will burn out, hopelessness will set in
if you ignore this and turn to sin
work will become the most crucial thing
causing anxiety and sleepless suffering
you will be bored, short tempered and stressed
that's why I gifted you with this day of rest

Honor the parents that I gave to you
don't hate them no matter what they may do
they are human, they'll make a mistake
but listen to them, for your own sake
if you give them your love and respect
then here is what you can hope to expect
they will respect you right back, you will see
then you will all live more peacefully

You shall not ****** another with thought
this shouldn't be something that needs to be taught

You shall not sleep with another's husband or wife
this will cause all of you nothing but strife
pain of betrayal and despairing rejection
can spread faster than any other infection
it destroys our ability to perceive love
and that is our best gift, straight from above

You shall not take what doesn't belong to you
there will be consequences, this is true
you could end up in jail locked in a cage
filled with sadness, despair, and all sorts of rage
the person you stole from will feel violated
and you will be guilty, and loathed, and hated

You shall not be a false witness in court
to condemn someone to a life that is short
if you lie under oath you are hurting another
and God said you should love him like a brother

You shall not covet your neighbor's things
not their big house, fancy cars, or glittering rings
then you will think you never have enough
and you will be so caught up in just stuff

There are two commandments that often are said
thinking the 10 are long gone and dead
the first is love Me above no other
the second is love yourself and all others
These are a statement to encompass all
so listen to these commands, big and small
Love me above others is all the first four
the last 6 help you to love others forevermore

Love is the thing that makes all this make sense
so you can have a happy life from now, hence
so make sure you love in all that you do
and you will have a happy life too.

I lay on the hard tiles of my rooftop balcony
The city lights make the night sky like a dark day
billowy clouds roll by as only the strongest stars shine
wistfully, I pretend to wish upon the dim little lights
The lyrics to that old Disney song echoing childhood
my wishes take stronger form, as I beseech the Heavens
I don't care for the hopelessness and the doubts I feel
I fight them with every ounce of my willpower
but it is not enough, Divine help is the only hope
It always comes when I least expect it, but it always comes
The love that I feel, and the fear, the endless restlessness
a mind consumed by the misfiring synapses of ADHD
I want to stay, but I'm afraid that I will run away
Even though I love you, and I'm afraid you fear this too
If only your love would glue me to the ground
While God's love would heal our tattered minds
Then our hearts would be free of this fear at last
And we could share a spot while we stare at the stars

The bias in your heart creates an elusive lens
Complete and utter impartiality never to attain
You love somebody so, that you never can be friends
No matter how hard you try, it always is a strain

Regret is the flawed scourge that causes you the pain
And makes it impossible for you to let it go
So you dwell in what ifs and try and try again
But I will tell you something, that you may not know

Isolation is a stingy experiment, robbing you of hope
The scourge you beat yourself with and the bias in your heart
Are the devil's way of making it very difficult to cope
If you lock your heart away then you'll be torn apart

Open it up wide with the ability to love all mankind
It sounds emotionally exhausting but this is what you do
If you only try to please God, and love Him, you will find
That you suddenly have the energy to love everyone else too

To forgive the ******* that broke you and thought they got away
To love those who ridiculed you, when you were just a child
To open your heart in friendship and love each and every day
And even to forgive yourself for all the years that you were wild

Little is a lot when it is in God's hands
Just rely on Him, when there's too many demands
Perfection is exhausting and it'll make you cry
you think you're not enough, and you always wonder why
If you thank Him for the blessings you don't think you got
then He will give them to you, and you will have a lot
The things we think we want, like money and attention
are not what we want most, I just want to mention
we desire freedom, and love and some respect
we think the only ones with this are the rich and the elect
that is not the case, they're in prisons of their own
drinking habits, *** scandals, and feeling so alone
Ferraris and mansions have never caused us awe
jealousy and frustration, though they sometimes drop a jaw
we ridicule the rich for how they use their stuff
even those with way too much, never think it is enough
the things we really value are kindness and humility
but humans are innately wicked and we lack the ability
to see how these things gain us the things that we want most
friends, respect, love, and joy, so just ask the Holy Ghost
You matter, you're unique no matter what it is you do
not everyone that's nice only wants something from you
If you don't know what to do and all you got is a beating heart
Thank God for all of it, that is the best place to start

I came upon some poems that tugged upon my soul
of tortured people struggling lost without a goal
I came upon some stories of pain and desperation
longing for a thing in life that requires preparation
I came upon some stories of people who cut to feel
who just want to be heard and treated like they're real
this world is full of fakeness and people spitting lies
ignorant of silent and lonely hurting cries
for some it boils angry, until they shoot it out
for others it is suffered silent in a lonely pout
for more it's drowned out with alcohol and drugs
what all of this is covering, could be solved with hugs
before you laugh, and scoff, and roll your eyes
put away the ******* of that tough disguise
I am not a hugger, I pushed people away all the time
but that is why I felt like I had to share this rhyme
once I started to let others love me and see them trying
then I started to love them too, and it stopped my crying
not everyone is trying to use and manipulate you
most of them just want someone to love them too
see, I was once a cutter, and though I owned a gun
and never once thought of shooting at anyone
but I hurt myself in different ways as often as I could
I couldn't accept love, and thought I never would
I drank myself ******* on more than one occasion
I didn't realize that my body suffered an invasion
your joy is the prize in this battle for your soul
give it to the One who loves you, that should be your goal
I made mistakes and I have scars that never go away
but I'm standing here to tell you, that I'm happy now today

Passing smile polite little nod
on and on the people plod
you see the lonely in their eyes
and we turn and we despise
the weakness there is our fear
the darkness drawing very near
anxiety from lack of love
we forget to look above
so much selfish running round
till greed drives us into the ground
nobody understanding you
are they even trying to?
but they all want the same
this Jumanji hashtag game
we're tired of people everywhere
but we're looking for our perfect pair
want to be alone, but then we cry
and we complain and wonder why
share yourself just open wide
we all just need no longer hide

Love is unconditional and also unafraid
Love doesn't judge you and ask what you get paid
Love waits patiently for you to come around
Love does not stalk when you don't want to be found
Love does not assume that it knows who you are
Love waits for you to share when you come back from afar
Love does not seek its own and then plan out your life
Love is not upset when you don't want to be a wife
Love wants what is best for you and always prays it so
Love does not make you feel trapped, it always lets you go
Love makes you feel free at last when you accept it in
Love is what God has for us, regardless of our sin

Feminism is not really what you think
in the 20's girls wanted to vote and drink
and have the right to ***** like men
go after what we wanted again and again
It was having the choice to go after a career
and suing every guy who looks at our rear
Feminism was a cry for equality
for attention that was high quality
not to be traded like cows or goats
not seen as fragile ladies in castles with moats
we wanted to be known for our brains and smarts
and in so doing, did we give up our hearts?
Now all we want is a man who is real
honest and brave, not afraid to feel
they are too scared now because we are tough
now men never feel like they are enough
We used to rule men with our gentle love
they used to rule us with God's gifts from above
Equality we had, but we just didn't know
wherever we went, they would follow
by the power of female, we made them men
now they just want to feel that again
Love can help us not fight anymore
show them their worth, put a stop to this war

I went out into the country to go for a walk
I'd heard about this place with the beautiful view
but so many people had heard this talk
there were crowds of them not just a few

discouraged I got myself back in the car
I'd wanted to go and find peace outside
fortunately, I didn't have to go far
to find somewhere quiet where I could hide

I pulled down this road that said "dead end"
and I almost turned around and went back
but I didn't want to follow everyone's trend
and then I saw it, a little old track

so I hopped the fence and followed it down
green and lush with a white butterfly
followed the path to the river's sound
and there in the grass this little bridge lie

so covered in moss it blended right in
with logs for it's sides on railroad ties
and there I gave Jesus all of my sin
I told Him the truth and spared all my lies

I had the choice to follow the rest
to this view on a mountain up in the sun
but following God, leads to the best
they're all competing, but I felt like I'd won

I am free just like a bird
no filter on these lips
I must be heard
a few cuss word slips
no big deal
I do what I want
I'm keepin it real

I'm free to drink
and party all night
free to think
and I'm free to fight
I'll show you what
if you disrespect me
knife to the gut

Nobody rules me
I am my own
I'm totally free
'cause I'm full grown
I sleep with my choice
I drink when I want
always use my voice

addicted to the opinions of others
you come first, don't count on brothers
living in a cage of expectations
in this life there are no vacations
it's dog eat dog and you must win
don't realize your trapped by all that sin?
free to drink? or a slave to the bottle?
free to do drugs and drive at full throttle?
to impress some girl, who wants your money
you're not free, you're a slave to her, honey
a slave to what everyone wants you to give
but you are not free, you don't know how to live
to be free is to know exactly who you are
when you know that, then you can go far
you think you're exercising your right to decide
but what you are doing has trapped you inside
you're a scared little person that nobody knows
and neither do you, and you're afraid that it shows
so let go of the women, the money and *****
because you actually do get to choose
so choose to be free from the judgment of others
and join us, God's children, your sisters and brothers.

You are ******* up, but I am too
everybody tells me not to love you
I see myself reflected in your blue eyes
I hear myself speaking in all of your lies
I feel myself connected to your heart
even when we're on oceans far apart
I see the anger and hurt in your soul
girls want to change you that is their goal
to fix you because you're so broken inside
then to run off and be somebody else's bride
You are not a damaged project to me
you're just the guy that I love, can't you see?
I feel like we are so much the same
so it baffles me why we're still playing this game
with me I know you can be totally free
and with you I just want to also be me

Politics politics all over the place
it's everywhere all up in your face
we talk about it when we don't know squat
everyone with opinions it happens a lot
humans presented like bright colored birds
puffed up flinging around lots of big words
you must vote for me 'cause I am the best
you'll make lots of money with plenty of rest
the government will solve all of your strife
and give you everything you want out of life
don't vote for that guy, he is just dumb
vote for me so you can carry your gun
don't vote for him, or you must keep that baby
you were ***** and he'll be a drug dealer maybe
if you vote for one then you have a choice
but only the choices that each came to voice
the sad thing is, they're all somewhat wrong
democracy lasts a few years then it's gone
we all came to listen to them taunt
freedom is the thing we all really want
freedom from fear and our financial woe
freedom to go wherever we want to go
freedom won't come from voting just right
from your perfect candidate winning the fight
freedom comes from God up above
freedom comes from accepting His love
freedom is inside you in all circumstances
so vote for Jesus, and you don't have to take chances

how does it feel up there alone?
no regret, no remorse no drive to atone
watching the world revolve around
speak lots of words to hear the sound
they all leave, one after another
driven away, just like every other
why do they go when you push away
why can't they just put up and stay
push them away so they don't get close
especially the ones you love the most
don't think you deserve the attention they give
so you do you and they'll just have to live
violently strike out in temper so bright
always equipped and ready to fight
if they accuse, judge and frustrate
then you feel fine with all of your hate
you want to be loved but lash out in fear
nobody sees that but to me its quite clear
Jesus is there and He'll take all your pain
He never gives up, loves again and again
so go on ahead, and let go and cry
He won't give up, and neither will I.

Just a republican girl
living in a liberal world
took the 4Runner going anywhere
Just a democrat boy
living in a conservative world
took the white Prius going anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
the marijuana's like perfume
for a puff they can share the night
it goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
the traffic on the 5's insane
the endless cars stretch through the night
streetlights, people
there's no escaping anywhere
hide me somewhere in the night

too many beards and beer
there are "rainbows" everywhere
politics are in your face
all the time
some will win, some will lose
there are only reds or blues
the fighting never ends
it goes on and on and on and on

Strangers, waiting
the traffic on the 5's insane
the endless cars stretch through the night
streetlights, people
there's no escaping anywhere
hide me somewhere in the night

don't stop believing
that you can escape the city
street lights, people
don't care at allllll

don't stop believing
that you can escape the city
street lights, people
don't care at allllll

don't stop believing
that you can escape the city
street lights, people
don't care at allllll

He loves me, he loves me not
he don't love me, though he ought
but I don't believe that I deserve
and so I know i've lost the nerve
when you don't think that you are right
you've already lost that fight
though love, it really isn't war
we treat it as such, more and more
love exists in mind, not heart
and that is why we're still apart
If I could make my mind believe
then your love, I would receive

I want you so much I can't breathe
she runs and hides from his desire
chasing after her love true
who chases after yet another
She is running after love
he skips and dances from her arms
falling on the lips of a beauty
too exotic and wild to be tamed
running along with all the males
as they chase this maiden fair
she skips and laughs at their attention
seriousness coming over her as she sites him
the one she loves just up ahead, who runs alone
she follows at his heals awhile, watching waiting
time to pounce, and as she does, another girl
from out of nowhere and off he goes
round and round they chase and chase
never catching what they want
trying to fill that empty place
till finally, two, run side by side
they may still look away sometimes
at long last, they realize that the other is still there
it's time to stay, the hunt is done the race is...won?
yes for some.

So many! Covering the entire expanse, barely space between
little dots of hope, wishes afar, glittering and answering
some bright with promise, a heart of faith, believing
some dim, doubtful, but still glimmering, shyly
scattered designs, untold, mysterious and majestic
love, spelled out above in angelic linguistics
a rushing sound nearby, not anxious as with humans
desiring nothing, hurrying nowhere, just pressing on
languid, endless, steadiness of a river, speaking perseverance.
a melody of croaking, rustling, and high pitched "singing"
peering into blackest forest, heart pounding, hands shaking
enveloped in the earth's night symphony of excitement
a troubled soul, laying in the deserted road, seeking
the songs of love, the vast power...at last, takes heart.

One day of heartbreak deepest dark
breath upon my neck, cold and stark
tears fell down like icy rain
and I cried out to you, not in vain
sobs so harsh they scraped my throat
walls up so high like a fiery moat
into my life no one could break
I was afraid they'd only take
take my friendship and use me
take my heart and abuse me
prison of my own making
human contact forsaking
I looked up and prayed to You
and my prayers, they were not few
dried up like a desert from all the tears
and I couldn't fight off all my fears
but You picked me up right off the dock
You are my God my shelter my rock
On the worst day I ever faced
I felt your love as You embraced
I felt the joy and it was mine
through me I could feel You shine
I can't explain just what it was
It's never happened but because
I went through these darkest times
You gave me the urge to write these rhymes
To help some broken hearted soul
and tell them that You are the goal
If you want to feel fearless and free
then I hope that you will listen to me
He can shine His POWER through you
and then you'll be the best of YOU

It simmers inside like a *** set to boil, this roiling bubbling never ending restlessness. Like a rabbit in the forest, seeming content for a time, yet never letting down the guard. Always alert, always watching, always ready to run. Fight or flight a way of life, there is no life without this strife. Content to be and sit and relax, claw my eyes out like angry cats. Punching holes in walls with fists, and screaming into pillow fits. Drinking drowning all it out, for false release and sultry pout. Use them up and toss them out, not what you were talking about. You knew you needed something there, to make this life seem somewhat fair. Nothing going right at all, this anger eating feed it’s call. growing green monstrosity threatening lives all around me with negativity. Bringing darkness to the light the shadowed soul of fight or flight. The angry red and growing pain is searing every dried up vein. Till nothing left but this monster, blinded slave to all it’s incurred. Anger never served it's master, turns the tables shackles of disaster, and satisfaction never gained by feeding what it thirsts in vain this rain of destruction all around never makes a life abound. The monster growing stronger still will hunger more and never filled and feed it though you might and try it will never ends until you die.

Unless you take a sword of light and fight it with nobility and tell it truth and peace and love and right it with humility. It can be beat, it can be killed, it does not have to win. Surrender anger to the Lord, and turn back from your sin.

I traveled down a winding road not sure where to go
I let the wind just push me around landing here or there
Sometimes a path would seem alight with a certain glow
but when I followed them they didn't lead me anywhere

a dead end here a dead end there, sometimes its so frustrating
so I got back on the winding road and I went on my way
and then it straightened out a bit which was so exciting
there was a road alongside mine and it felt like a new day

the fog had finally lifted and the dead ends were no more
all those winding paths that crossed, nowhere to be seen
I felt a clarity and light, I could feel it to my core
the foggy gray path I'd traveled now full of life and green

this path that followed next to mine, was straight and clear
it veered when mine veered, and it curved with mine
I started to worry that it would leave and gave in to my fear
that is when I saw it, bright yellow and foreboding sign

"Rocks Ahead!" It said, trying to warn me of my danger
and then I saw the path was no longer clear before me
a giant boulder stood ahead making our two paths a stranger
but as roads continue on, that is not the end of the story

a tunnel here and tons of rocks, the sign did not justify
the difficult path these roads did take before they met again
mine went through a tunnel, dark and heavy but I can testify
I don't know how dark the other road got but it was not the end

these roads still run at parallels and see each other once in a while
in beautiful green meadows and dangerous cliffs that are not tame
and traveling along it has made me cry, and scream and smile
but I know the roads will someday merge and they will be the same