You're in my head and telling me
that I am not enough
You tell me that I'm ugly
and that I just don't have the stuff

I'm afraid to start a business
because I know that I will fail
all my fears come crushing
my dreams are coming stale

I'm not smart and i'm not good
nobody wants to be with me
I'm all alone forever
because of my past history

My brain it doesn't work right
it just spins out of control
I never finish anything
and that is your dark goal

I cry in bed and curl right up
and think that I can't move
I never want to go outside
and I don't believe in love

But then there is a whisper
telling me to raise my head
He speaks and I want to listen
He raises me from the dead

He gives me tools and insight
and shows me magic things
and now I can see clearly
with the confidence of kings

I don this mighty armor
and nothing works to pierce
for I'm a warrior of God
and now I'm something fierce

so the devil best start running
because I know he's done
I fight a winning battle
for God's already won.

I dished up plates as he walked by
greasy stringy dyed red streaks
guitars hanging on all sides
the smells of unwashed body reeks
tattooed fingers and a lip ring
soft smooth tenor from his soul
man can that pirate guy sing
but his street life takes it's toll
never smiles, furtive eyes
scared of those that steal for drugs
this pirate garb is his disguise
but offers homeless friends his hugs
he saunters off to write some songs
this strange man caught my writer's eye
making money to right some wrongs
I was compelled to write about this guy
the life of the homeless is a mystery
the tales they could tell us, wild
about their sordid history
I'm sure that it would not be mild
and now I pray that they can sleep
Jesus loves these poor souls too
and for their sins, He did weep
they're the same to Him as me and you

Hi, I'm Negative Nancy
It's nice to meet you
are you feeling happy?
Let me help you feel blue
are you doing well?
you ain't got a clue.

Hi, I'm Mopey Marla
and I'm here to stay
I hope you don't have plans
'cause everything's gray
so just stay in bed
'cause it's not a good day

Hi, I'm Fearful Freddy
here come with me
throw up some walls
don't trust any you see
all people are selfish
I know you agree

Hi, I'm Angry Alan
what did that guy do?
well get even with him!
what is wrong with you
provoke him a little
then you can sue

Hi, I'm Loving Lord
I can carry your load
I love you so much
that's truth, it's not code
I am always with you
on life's long hard road

Decisions are an interesting thing
you can sit and wait and wait
but nothing seems to be happening
while you hope for something great
but decisions are not wishes
a fanciful thing in your head
a full sea we'd have if wishes were fishes
they'll sit in your mind until you are dead
decisions are not easy to make
but once you do that's when it ignites
and that path you're on, ain't easy to break
and failures become all out fights
to get where you're going, that is your aim
and God will bring you the things you need
as you trust His path to win this game
if you believe in His love and timing and speed
once that decision has clicked in your brain
everything works to push you that way
if you fall you get up again and again
because you know you will get there someday

You used to be so huge, that I couldn't even picture you
but now that I have traveled I have a better clue
I thought there was one ocean and it went around the middle
but now that I have traveled, I have figured out your riddle
I thought you were even bigger, once I learned all of that
but now that I have traveled I know you're not that fat
I thought the other side was so very far away
but now that I have traveled I know it only takes one day
I thought that if I saw it all my dreams would come to be
But now that I have traveled I know I was trying to find me
I thought I'd find a place that's mine if I went out to roam
but now that I have traveled, I know where there's love its home

sitting watching they walk by
on balcony with a trained eye
I see the holes in some of them
where there is a missing gem
some holes are small, barely there
some are huge and everywhere
the more a person has in them
the more they're holding on to sin
when you are making grave mistakes
you don't know the toll it takes
people can feel when you are wrong
they hear your silent villain song
you may not know you have this hole
where once sat your shining soul
but rest assured, it can be filled
if it is only what you willed
so ask the Lord make you whole
and then you will not have this hole

Makes me do the things I hate to teach me what I need to know
Of all my friends in the world, she's always there when I am low
Thankfully she tells me how it is and what I need to hear
However life is tossing me, and when things aren't really clear
Everything she does for me is because of all of her great love
Remember to thank her for who she is, and thank the Lord above

I get nothing from you
you're mean as mean can be
but I want something FOR you
and it can set you free

I could love a sweet guy
who would give me everything
instead I look up to the sky
and lift you up unto my King

you're filled with nothingness
you're just an empty shell
but I pray for your forgiveness
so you don't end up in Hell

nothing's what you have for me
not one thing you can give
my love for you is still free
and I hope that you will live

Kindness goes a long long way
it helps to brighten someone's day
when your ear gets talked off by a friend
it means that they need help to mend
when it's always about them and never you
and sometimes they don't have a clue
listen and smile when you are there
and then go off and be somewhere
just let it go and shake it out
don't dwell on what it was all about
limit time with ******* souls
and try to focus on your goals
but try not to write them off for good
if you can help them, then you should
just take the time in between
to renew yourself out in the green
God said help the least of these
if you can't stand them, get on your knees
and someday when their ****'s together
and they've battled all that stormy weather
maybe it was your patience and care
when they were on a path going nowhere
you never know the effect you make
when you give instead of take

It's all about money and why do we care
little strip of paper, man with white hair
we struggle and cry like its all that we need
it causes pain and we work till we bleed
over paper and coin marriages break
makes people greedy, they take and they take
if you have none, some people won't date you
if you have too much then people will hate you
we put all of our effort into getting this stuff
but even with plenty it's never enough
we want it so people will like us a lot
they don't actually like us, just want what we got
so people will like them better instead
but they'll just want it as soon as you're dead
there's a secret that I am going to tell you
if you just like people, then they'll like you too
if you do what you want, with all of your heart
and put others first, right from the start
the money will magically fall in your lap
like a never ending money tree tap
the secret to more money is to care less
if you don't "love" money then there is no stress
if you're obsessed with a person then they will not stay
same goes for your money, you just chase it away
the most rewarding way you can get rich
is just do your best, and don't be a *****

crashing down a building on fire
running screaming mud soaked mire
the blood in the streets trickled like rain
girl in the street face twisted in pain
streaks run from black soot on her face
takes her hand tries to help her keep pace
his arm is missing from the elbow down
she stumbles on somebody's leg on the ground
his single hand holds her and lifts her along
where did everything start to go wrong?
booms cause the rubble cascading about
she watches his lips as he starts to shout
nodding along though she can't hear a thing
she buckles in pain at another sharp sting
gasping for air her lungs filling with smoke
he wraps her up in his tattered green cloak
he touches her face as he looks in her eyes
she's afraid that he is saying goodbye
she lifts up her hand and sees all the blood
suddenly fear comes at her like a flood
but the she looks in his eyes and there a strong gleam
he won't leave her, because they are a team
so they wrap their arms round and move ahead
there's no stopping them, not until they are dead
he picks up a sword and starts hacking away
he and his love, well they are here to stay
she throws a hatchet as hard as she can
killing a monster disguised as a man
they stumble and fight till they're finally free
and they lay down and gasp at the base of a tree
the moonlight is shining like nothing's amiss
the young man rolls over and plants a strong kiss
he takes her hand as he lays down by her side
if he'd met her before, he'd have made her his bride
now he could feel that her hand's growing cold
he tried not to imagine their life, growing old
her beautiful face, eyes stared up at the sky
he knew from the start that she was doomed to die
for beauty and innocence don't belong in this land
he'd set out to save her yes that was his plan
he hadn't even gotten to know her sweet name
she'd been such a badass in life's cruel little game
his tears streamed down as his breath left his chest
and then he gave in to that peaceful death rest

Running so fast and chasing so hard
trying to see if we can play the right card
he's just so perfect, everything I want
at night it's my very heart that he haunts

dazzling her, buying her presents and gifts
trying to break down her walls and mend rifts
if she will just talk to me give me some time
I know that I can make her mine all mine

why can't they just love us why can't they just see
who I am inside and just love you and me
if they would just give us the time of their day
then we know that we could show them the way

the way to true love and what all that includes
they could just feel the love we exude
we would make them feel safe with our warm embrace
and wipe away all their fears leaving no trace

what we are ignoring is we're working for love
when really love is a gift from above
and what we don't see is they work for it too
but they don't have to work for it from you

we never want what is freely given
because we don't trust that we're really forgiven
we feel guilt and shame and want to make amends
so we punish ourselves and follow these trends

so when you are loving and open in heart
be prepared to be torn up and broken apart
this world is unkind when you love from the core
don't you know that's what they killed Jesus for

but if you never give up and you truly believe
then God always has something up his sleeve
and He can turn fear and despair into hope
He will GIVE you love so you don't have to mope

the moral of this little story you see
you don't have to work for love, just let it be
go be yourself and do something you love
God will open His arms and pour gifts from above

So this one time I sat down to eat my salad
and she plopped into a chair to share her life's ballad
Of drunken crazies and dumb little nights
and of all sorts of berserk and ridiculous plights

Dancing on a table, just a little unstable
whoop! there's that white girl wasted label
Get up it's all right and dance into the night
got that guy's number in spite of her plight

she jumped in a cab didn't know where to go
had a suit case and just went with the flow
landing on crutches again and again
you have to play hard if you want to win

she met this musician, Aerosmith something
he was sitting on a beach wearing pirate bling
she walked up and said, "man I like what you're wearing."
had no clue about all of the people just staring

she sauntered through life on a breeze and a cloud
and only got scared when things were really loud
never a care it just falls into place
I wish I could remember that girl's pretty face

so this one time she told me things got really weird
but don't worry about it, "my name was cleared."
but she sang while in jail to cops in blue caps
and when she came out of her cell there were claps

now she turned with a grin and twinkle in her eye
and gave me advice as she bid me goodbye
"a ship in a harbor is boring as hell
crazy makes history, so go make it well"

Blessing abound in my poetry found
there's beautiful flowers all over the ground
the spring time is here and there goes the fear
the sun has come out to dry all our tears
God is so great and not full of hate
you can turn to Him now, it's never too late
spring is for birth and filling with mirth
as baby animals roam around all the earth
so go out and breath in or go for a swim
now is the time to let go of your sin
joy will find you in the vast ocean blue
and you can be free of what hold you back too
so let go of the sting of rejection that clings
go out and have courage and try that new thing
you can be free if you just want to be
limitless is how He created you and me

Rise to the top
cream of the crop
lied all the way
to get higher pay
little greased palm
exterior of calm
smile and a wink
champagne clink
smooth sailing
girls railing
******* up the nose
you know how it goes
smarter than the rest
gotta be the best
control is the key

but now let me tell you what he doesn't see
he doesn't see that his lies are a trap
smart people can see right through all his crap
he backstabs and ******* and always complains
he's happy sometimes but not when it rains
when the storms of life come he has no strength
to get that fleeting happy he'll chase any length
he pushes away and ignores those who love him
he's covered in sins and horrors so grim
he hurts people, uses them, with never a care
he won't think of the future, no he doesn't dare
if ever a slight to his precious ego comes
then he gets so upset that he's nearly undone
he's the weakest of the weak but thinks he is strong
he never admits at all when he's wrong
he brings out the worst in all those around
and his voice is always his favorite sound
makes you feel like you're worth nothing at all
takes a hard worker who's kind and makes them feel small

But God sees a heart
one so torn apart
a lost battle field
that needs His shield
this poor broken man
who thinks himself grand
is a shattered soul
without a good goal
so immersed in this earth
forgetting new birth
he wants to be free
and this he can see
he just doesn't know how
thinks he's chasing that now
only One that can save
this poor foolish slave

tiny little precious town
wearing a gorgeous pine tree gown
with hair of waves an ocean blue
not too many people, this is true
the sort of folks that you will find
are very friendly and super kind
they'll work for free to show they care
and when they charge it's always fair
when you're lost they'll show the way
and tell you that they hope you'll stay
pristine lakes and streams abound
around this awesome little town
it's easy to find some peace and quiet
and stick to that super healthy diet
so if you're feeling too much stress
and your life feels like a giant mess
then make your way to a small town
and you may find you'll lose the frown

I sat among the lupins
a sunny breezy day
my dog was rolling in the grass
I love to watch him play

I picked at little flowers
and watched the bugs fly by
I never get to enjoy the spring
and I will tell you why

usually I'm sneezing
my eyes are itching so
I can't even go outside at all
to watch the green stuff grow

today I soaked up sunshine
and loving every minute
I hope my allergies are gone
'cause I want to be out in it

So I sat among the lupins
till the sunshine went away
soaking up the good green earth
as I thanked God for this day

I saw an angel look at me
through your eyes I saw her
you're unaware of what I see
but you were open heart so pure
timid as we talked of things
subjects of shame and pain
excuses and fear often clings
but we're opening up again
a lightness came into your eyes
as we enjoyed our simple day
I saw in them reflected skies
we somehow both found our way
through space and time stayed
not knowing we were on a path
the stuff of friendship made
does not make sense in words or math
now here we are in spring
where hope is all around
this beautiful connected thing
true friends' words the sweetest sound

Spinning circles in my head
I never have been on the meds
I hear they're great and fix some stuff
but I just want to be enough
I don't want to be zombified
that just makes me mortified
so I will argue for our right
to just be different, that's our fight
so we have too much energy
and are lacking synchronicity
people can't keep up with us
some with Tourettes often cuss
wild ideas spinning out
enthusiastic scream and shout
and they just want to structure me
to fit me in their society
this is how it's supposed to be
well sorry dude, that just ain't me
I just want creativity
and redefining normalcy
that box just will not fit us all
sorry but it's just too small
we were made so limitless
it's time for us to be fearless
breaking out to be our own
we discover the unknown

Grinding out the pages for the classes I am in
I do not know my goal, what am I trying to win?
I work and slave away, gaining not a thing
and trying not to glance out at the greenery of spring
this work is never ending, but it's like a rocking chair
I may be doing something, but it doesn't get me anywhere
who am I trying to impress, is there one who even sees
I don't know what the point is, will someone tell me please?
I'm enrolled in this school, and working toward this end
but I'm also part of that school, can you see a trend?
I like to be in school, because I like to learn
good grades are so easy, please tell me it's my turn
work is so much harder, I just can't figure why
I am always reaching but the sky is just too high
what will I be when I grow up, I wish that I knew
but here I am at 30 and I still don't have a clue.
Some people just know, exactly where they're going
or are they really stuck, and it's not them they're showing
some content to work at jobs they hate, to make a buck
but I could never live like that, I want to give a "duck"
then there are those people with the dream jobs in their hand
ah what would life be like to have something just so grand
so here I am my brain in circles sitting in my room
I'll be pondering this till old and gray and rotting in my tomb

I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
is it more frustrating
this stupid one way hungering
to love a specific man
to have had him in your hand
and now he's gone away
and you wait for the day
when he will return
and you forget about the burn
or is it worse
does it feel more like a curse
to hunt and hunt and see
each new face could it be he
each time you're given eyes
is he the one to end your tries
no I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
if more strength is required
or which makes you more tired
to wait and wait and hope and hope
to try to believe and cling to that rope
or to search and look and try out the new
and hope that you'll find your one love true?
waiting and hoping
or searching and groping
looking for love is a frustrating thing
it's best to just stop, and see what God brings

One little thing, or a thousand, it's hard to know
can't organize it, put it in a box
like a trillion stars bursting in all directions but somehow making sense, intricate designs upon designs upon designs
chaotic and complex, but beautiful in our complexity
they try to make it all work, to put together the puzzle
order, organization, stability, rules
Fear. Fear brings everything into perspective for some
and nothing makes sense to others. Spurring to action or inaction. Not all action is visible though. Invisible action the more powerful of the two by far. The pen, for instance, ever mightier than the sword. Takes much more action to use effectively and powerfully.
Sometimes things don't make sense to some, but perfect sense to others. Boxes are made for the dead, not for the things that run around in your head.

true love's kiss a wishful thing
like the delicateness of a butterfly wing
you make me weak in my stupid knees
'cause you scare me as much as a horde of bees
my love for you is purest white
but when you draw near, I take flight
I timidly tried to give you my heart
but you sat and laughed as you tore it apart
the lesson I hope you all learn from my mess
Be brave! Have courage! True love is fearless!

Flower petals snowing down
covering the grassy ground
standing underneath the trees
the humming sound of happy bees
darting through the sunny skies
a thousand newborn butterflies
grassy windswept green cascades
like the tail fins of a million mermaids
fluffy shedding, startled deer
glance up as a dog draws near
the old tire swing in desolation
sparking the imagination
red-tail hawk takes sudden wing
God can be seen in everything

Pit of snakes, where does one start the other end
smiling and nodding it's all pretend
not what they think when they see my vacant stare
not stupid, my mind is just everywhere
door slams on one tiny thought
had it right in my hand, but now it's not
staring at the judgmental snowy page
it's like a zoo animal locked in a cage
waiting to wander about and set free
unfortunately that poor thing is waiting on me
flutters around like pretty butterflies
taunting you with lots of enticing lies
zeroed back in like a tiger that's tracking
ignoring the concentration you're lacking
oh look! Something shiny its right under there!
oh really? what is it? It went under where?
out of my seat like a running gazelle
man I hate homework. It must be from hell.
but I have to try harder, I really do care
and don't forget I made you say underwear. :-P

Oh teddy bear, just look at that stare
you sit on my bed with not a care
never complain when I squeeze to tight
don't steal the covers at all in the night
you're covered in lots of my salty tears
from heartbreak and pain throughout the years
you're not as soft as you were at the start
but I'm glad my mom put you in her shopping cart
thanks for your service but now that I'm 30
you're still a good bear but you're just a bit *****

Lost, lost, it comes with a cost
the more we are lost the more it will cost
we travel from this place to that place and more
never really knowing what we're looking for
we dabble in this and we dabble in that
sleep in a treehouse and get a new tat
we dress like a hippy and smoke lots of grass
and drive until we've run out of gas
then we try chasing the title and cash
and hoard all we can so we have a stash
when we are old we'll retire with ease
and do whatever the heck that we please
but then we realize we already were!
and then we go right back to acting unsure
around and around, we just do not know
whatever we plant we will reap what we sow
all of our choices seem totally wrong
stilettos and ties, or board-shorts and a thong
am I the type with my hair all in place
or am I the one with the paint on my face
trek through the mountains to find peace and quiet
or sit by the pool on the south beach diet
we look for something that cannot be found
so we just keep moving around and around
but if lost is the state you are in on this day
take heart and remember, it's not here to stay
even Lost has Found, they are good mates
none of us is alone, or in charge of our fates

old and gnarled like a little white oak
bending shifting creating some smoke
clad in plaid like an old country dad
before mom gets home, cleans up a tad
the wood catches fire, a beautiful blaze
he stands there proud as it catches his gaze
simply enjoying little things in life
peaceful right now but then in walks the wife
Like fire she's spirited, uncontrolled and wild
but not nearly as much as their firstborn child
he tinkers around on his little back porch
watching the wood burn as it starts to scorch
fire is burning all heated around
but he stands like an oak on his spot of ground

White. Solid white nothing else in sight
the glasses the little house wore awakening from night
the promise of a sun as the white grew very bright
stretching from a long nap the green giant finally reveals himself
laughing rumble of tumbling rocks as he wears the white a temporary mustache
a big yawn from lady lake sends the white upward with her morning breath
Bursting out in gloriousness the sun glares the sulking fog into submission
he slinks downward thinking to find solace near the gentle water reflecting his image back to himself
lady lake has other plans as she stares up at her true love high in the sky and chooses his image to reflect, warming her loving gaze with the heat of his as he stares down at her.
Their love finally warms to the point that Foggy Mcdougal can take it no longer and shrinks away with his nefarious plans for the next evenings delight

I don't miss the holding hands
while sitting watching some live band
I don't miss the hugs and kisses
hoping you'll make me your Mrs.
I don't miss the spooning cuddles
whispering when we're in our huddles
I don't miss the loving gazes
feelings twirling all in mazes
I miss the silences we shared
because we knew the other cared
I miss that we both got our space
and neither on the other's case
your needs were just the same as mine
to have your peace and take your time
people always want too much
your emotional energy and such
people always want to talk
even on a "quiet" walk
people always want attention
and other things I will not mention
no expectations came from you
and that is why I could be true
to tell you what was on my mind
and just let both of us unwind
nobody gets it, or very, very few
but that is why I'm missing you.

the lake like a mirror nestled between emerald mountains
frosting sits on the top of grandfather peaks
watching wise and ancient bearded in pines and hemlock
hopeless romantics gliding through peaceful waters
talking quietly to each other as mist rises with the sun

Hills of emeralds strewn about
the end of hell's torturous drought
calm and peaceful starry sky
storm clouds struggling slowly die
coyotes sound their distant calls
the deepest rumbling waterfalls
waves lap up on flattened sand
the tempest stilled at His command
earth shaking instability
peace and soft tranquility
raging fire hot and starving
flashing floods are canyon carving
mist rising from a morning pond
breeze blowing through a palm tree frond
peace and chaos intertwined
woven deep within our mind

Why won't he call?
I sit against the wall
why can't he just love me?
I sit under this tree
I dwell and I dwell
and I'm in circles of hell
my mind is so scattered
my heart is so shattered
all I do is think of him
when will our love begin?
Then there came light
at first it was slight
and I tried to fight
comfort in dark
alone in a park
isolation my home
curled up in my tomb
selfish desires sought
it was love so I thought
but that light it shined in
and it showed me my sin
wanting and wanting
my thoughts he was haunting
so I gave up my quest
and went after this test
love, what is this thing?
isn't it an engagement ring?
isn't it hugs and kisses?
and calling yourself Mrs?
the way he looks at you
cuddles when feeling blue?
friend at all times
partner in crimes?
but no, this voice said
that's all in your head
it's patient and kind
not him reading your mind
it lifts the other up high
even if it means saying goodbye
it's not in competition
humility is the mission
and when things go wrong
"I told you so's" not the song
the truth love cannot hide
nor push to be his bride
love is always protecting
not selfishness projecting
jealousy is not here
perfect love drives out fear
and hope never ends
and your way always bends
perseverance is committed
even if love is unrequited
For true love never dies
and it never tells lies
But there is no pain
when real love is the gain
so I gave up my heartache
for something most mistake
I gave up my crying
and all my dumb trying
fear and love aren't the same
with real love there's no game

I miss you so, though I put on a smile
it hasn't been long, not even awhile
but you're over there on the other side
and I'm over here, not trying to hide
you think I gave up, that I couldn't stay
but I'm working hard to prepare for the day
when I am your girl, and we are together
with a ring in your hand and words of forever
I'll conquer the world, just so you can see
That you are so very important to me
I love you with every beat of my heart
and I hate it that we are so far apart
head full of hope and a heart full of love
I left you in care of the One from above

Well, I rode into town with a stiff wooden knee
on my ship that was falling apart on the sea
an eye patch of black and beard to my knees
I laid down and stared up at the green palm trees

my crew was all mad and the food was all gone
but what can I say? I'm no Captain Ron
they chased me on deck until we ran aground
then I lied and said there was treasure to be found

I'm selfish and soiled, a pirate I be
I'm smarter and hotter than old Mr. Smee
now my crew's all drunk and they're eating some fish
staring up at the stars I am making a wish

I scratch at my eye patch and pull out my pen
trying to ignore the farting stinking men
they don't know I'm a girl and for me that works great
because if they knew then I would fear my fate

but I have a plan and they'll all fall in line
or they will be stranded 'cause that ship is mine
I'm meaner than them and I'm great with a sword
it's why they all hang on my every word

when tomorrow starts up a hangover morning
I will get their attention and give them a warning
If they chase me around the deck ever again
they will lose their reason to call themselves men!

But I realize I'm angry and that's just not fair
'cause when push comes to shove, well they all do their share
when there's towns to be pillaged and ships to attack
well these dog ***** scoundrels they all have my back

the creak of the ship and the waves on the sand
I really don't like it when I'm stuck on land
I'm Captain Fearless, and now that we've met
I know it is something you'll never forget.

Happy hopeful little words
like twitterpated little birds
skipping like a flattened stone
dripping like an ice cream cone
bubbles floating on the breeze
sparkling like the deep blue seas
fluffy soft with wagging tail
silent green of wooded trail
through the clouds in rays of sun
unsteady legs of life begun
windswept snowy mountain tops
spit of sand with palm tree copse
rushing river with rocky sides
holding tight on sand dune rides
soaring high on feathered wing
angels voices start to sing
beauty in things great and small
relief when I surrender all

Reflecting shimmering as I look at you
you're me I see, but somehow there are two
one of them's wild, and reckless, and free
one thinks too much, can't just let things be
the first one travels and jumps off of stuff
the second works hard so there is enough
there must be a balance but I don't know where
so torn between you I'm pulling out my hair
I want nice things and a beautiful home
but I don't want to be stuck and not free to roam
I want a good job that I love and is "me"
like writing a book in a house in a tree
but the other me wants to make some money
and actually be taken somewhat seriously
decisions decisions as I try to "grow up"
but I'm Peter Pan and I'm totally stuck
If I give up my fun side and go for the money
I might be trapped where it never gets sunny
but if I give up the cash and chase after the sun
might have to work till I'm 90, and that isn't fun
one of you's brains and one of you's heart
which one is right? I don't know where to start
my heart has lead me to adventures untold
but my brain wants to know what else can unfold
i've followed my heart and she's struggled so long
my brain wants to taunt her and say she was wrong
as they stare at each other like strange cats in a path
the heart full of love and the brain full of wrath
the heart's always won, should the brain get a turn?
if I do that i'm scared we will watch the world burn
but if its the heart that I follow this time
am I just doomed to repeat this dumb rhyme?
insanity's the same thing again and again
expecting that maybe this time I will win
so maybe it's time to change up this story
and go for the "****" and the guts and the glory
one day I know that the two will entwine
then I won't have to choose 'tween my heart and my mind

Long and intense though your week may be
You can’t give up, for don’t you see?
That God is always there through it all
Through the things we deal with big and small
Sometimes it seems we’re all alone
When bad things happen we moan and groan
But he is there through thick and thin
And in the end He’ll help us win
We can conquer all our problems
For He is with us and He can solve them
All He asks is that we trust and believe
'Cause He's got something up His sleeve
So lay down your fears and don’t give in
And step back from them and wait for Him

I thought i'd drown in sufferings
but you lifted me up and gave me wings
when I was broke, you gave me work
when I thought I needed a man
you gave me a ****
so I would know to rely fully on you
that nothing else would certainly do
you fill up your life with a good job and more
you've got it together, controlled to the core
then off like a hurricane everything's gone
you're left to wonder why it all went wrong
you had the house, the man, the career
you had the respect of all of your peers
now you're alone, afraid, and flat broke
all that you had just went up in smoke
it says right there on that green paper
"In God We Trust" 'cause it can vanish like vapor
when you come kneel at the foot of the throne
that's the moment when you know you have won
the battle you've been in was not for the money
stashing cash for rainy days while it's sunny
you've been at war for your very soul
having it all together was never the goal
now nothing is left that you thought that you need
but all of that was only driven by greed
now you have everything and so much more
and you can feel it right down to your very core
and once you have given it all up for God
then He gives it all back to you, isn't that odd?
He knows the plans that He has for you
plans to prosper not harm, to His word He'll be true.

Booming big and bold and loud
like a charging, stomping crowd
rolling bouncing off the hills
rain goes down the window sills

curled up cozy on the chair
sitting in our underwear
fire crackling popping lights
little sparks go up in flight

I snuggle in and feel your heart
your mouth is running something smart
you always have the words to say
challenging me every single day

my mind has not a chance to think
until you stop to take a drink
the wine is smooth but not like you
so charming girls don't have a clue

you spun them tails, told them lies
you preyed on the weak and dismissed their cries
but you are now a different man
no one sees it, but I can

I always knew what was inside
it's why I wanted to be your bride
I saw a heart that's sensitive
that wanted just to somehow live

to escape all of the suffering
the mood swings were so demanding
bipolar ups and downs are tough
but I knew that you had the stuff

the stuff that love is made of true
I saw the good inside of you
I saw the love and longing deep
the secrets that you couldn't keep

so now I sit here in your lap
I zoned out so you gave me a tap
I couldn't help but think of you
distracted by my love so true

and Jesus answered all my prayers
and I don't care about people's stares
they just don't understand this
but I don't care just what they miss

Because you're mine and I am yours
and I love that we are roasting s'mores
this cabin in the woods our dream
I knew we'd make an awesome team.

Coming down in torrents wild
screaming raging like a child
stormy winds they whip outside
matching storms within I cried
a broken heart when does it end
all that I want is for it to mend
nothing prepared me for this pain
so I sit here and listen to the rain
it's running down my window case
just like it's streaming down my face
heart is wrenched completely shattered
all the pieces wind blown scattered
whipped on breezes left behind
I watch them like I do not mind
the numbness starts to settle in
but then it all begins again
it's like a storm that never stops
I just miss the mountain tops
to peak above the gloom I feel
and see the hope and know it's real
I know that this will pass someday
so I will always stop and pray
for all who ask they will receive
a broken heart mends if you believe.