So many walk through life

Blind to the sinking sand they walk on

They don't realize their life will end at dawn

So open your eyes

Step out of the sand

And walk into the ocean of grace

Don't give in to those thoughts

Those thoughts of hopelessness

Depression

Anxiety

Suicide

When You think you have nothing more to live for

Get up and fight

Tell the devil he can't have you

He can't have what you see as worthless and Jesus see's as precious

Cry out to Christ

When you don't feel his love

When you can't hear his voice

Don't stop crying out

Praise the name of the God who created you

He will open your eyes to show you all he's done

Sometimes to forge your heart

It takes a little fire

Be still and wait

Wait for the water of the Holy Spirit to wash over you

To cool you down

Don't let the fire melt you

Get up and fight

God doesn't create the fire

He might allow it because it serves his purpose

But never forget he loved you so  much he broke the laws of death for you

God sacrificed his only son for you

He didn't force Jesus into submission

Jesus loved you enough to be the sacrifice

When I can't get back up
When I'm drowning and I can't see the surface
When I'm broken
When I'm beaten
When I don't know why
When I can't see past the day
When I can't see past the knife
God please put me on my knees
Show me your peace
Show me your love
Father open my eyes to your grace
When I'm at my weakest screaming for help
Put me on my knees
Raise my hands
Fold my fingers
Push them to my forehead
Remind me to pray

Dear Son

I hear you scream out of desperation

I see the pain you're going through

I hear your cries of terror

I know the suffering you went through

I watched as your father hit you

I watched as the bullies humiliated you

I saw knew your suffering the day you were left an orphan

I felt your tears run down your cheeks

Did you see?

Did you know?

Did you hear?

Did you watch?

Did you feel?

Did you hear the voice of the mother I gave you who comforted you?

Did you know the bullies stopped because I sent a friend to stand up for you?

Did you watch when I gave you son-ship in a loving home?

Did you feel the son-ship I granted you in my family?

Did you see the healing I provided?

Why then do you cry to me?

Why do you ask for what I already gave you?

I gave you my son?

What more could I have given to prove that I love you?

Be still

Look around at the blessings you have

Don't look at what you don't have

Be still

And know

That I am God

Dear Daughter

I saw the beatings you took

I watched as you were crying on the floor of your room

I saw them scream at you and abuse you

I heard you call my name

I felt the depression and brokenness you felt

I felt the pain you felt of a family who scorned you and treated you like a dog

Did you watch?

Did you see?

Did you hear?

Did you feel?

Did you watch as I sent the neighbor to come check on you?

Did you watch as she took you in and cared for you?

Did you see healing I provided through the comfort of your friends?

Did you hear the uncle who cried with you and tried to be the father he couldn't?

Did you feel the grace and mercy I gave you?

Did you feel my love?

You called and I came

I love you

All this I did for you

Open your eyes to what you have

Count your blessings

Be still

And know

That I am God

What is your dream?

What do you want to do for your life?

Living

Going day to day

The same old same old

Living like a paper airplane that was never folded

When I don't talk

I lose track

I fall out of tune

It's hard to talk sometimes

When I don't know what I'm feeling

I do know

It's hard to live

Without a word

It's so easy for me

To sit down at this screen and talk about faith

To talk about doing great things

Believing that God can do anything

But sometimes it's not easy for me to believe

When I don't hear the voice of God I can get sad

I might feel like I've done something wrong

Or when I lose a loved one

I may not feel joy

But it's at these times I have to cling to faith

In the hard times I have to still believe

I know God will remain faithful even when it's hard

But I can't give up on the God who won me

And neither can anyone

We have to remain faithful to him because he is always faithful

When all I see is black

It's so dark I can't see my hand in front my face

It's so dark it makes me sick

There's no light in here

It makes me depressed

It makes me hopeless

The darkness is endless

The dark is so loud

All I hear is dread

Terror

Death

Brokenness

I hear that I'm unworthy

Worthless

Stupid

Unloved

Pain

The only way to come out of this darkness was to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger.....

Or so I thought.....

Or so many think

They see no hope

And all they feel is pain

We think we live in Hell

But what no one seems to get

Is that when you pull that trigger

There's no turning back

If you pull that trigger

You will be in Hell

You will experience loneliness

Darkness

Burning

Pain

Hurt

Brokenness

Sadness

A­ll you will hear

Are screams

There you will spend eternity

Burning in the lake of fire

I'm just waiting for the day when all humanity cries out for the light

When will we cry to Jesus

When will we let the light shine

I don't ever want to walk in darkness

I will let the light of love shine

There's no one else who can pull us out of this darkness

Jesus is the light

The light always beats the dark

Let him shine on you

Let his love overwhelm you

Put down your guns and let him in

Where is it found?

What defines it?

What is beauty?

Some say it's found in the outside

In appearances

Some say beauty is what is pleasing to the eye

But I say to you

Beauty isn't found in looks

In what's pleasing or pleasurable

Beauty is found on the inside

Beautiful people may have the looks

But not all people who have the looks are beautiful

Beauty is found in the inside

Beauty is found in love

Not conditional love but unconditional

Beauty is found in the heart

Every morning I wake up

Thinking what am I doing here

A past that haunts me

A God who already won me

So why do these demons taunt me

I only see now it's because I didn't give the fight to the one who already one

So now

I give it all to you God

My past

My pain

My hurt

My regret

My love

My peace

My chaos

My false gods

I give it all to you

I love you

Now I will take up my cross and follow you

I'm gonna shut up because this is a ***** sinner speaking

So I will shut up so you can listen to the God who made you

I give up the fight

To Christ

Where did it all start?

The shootings?

The riots?

The sky rocketing suicide rates?

People started living on anti depressants?

It started when the ten commandments were taken off school walls

It started when kids were told that their lives had no more value then that of gold fish

It started when we didn't give the God who loves us his proper praise

It started when we threw Christ out the door and said we can make it on our own

It started when people decided they wanted to live a life of their own

They decided to throw the way of life that protected us to the wind

Our lives became the worst they have ever been because we have abandoned God

There's a God who loves you who will carry you on his back

Jesus Died and fought for you

The devil wants you dead

If anything fight because he will win

I may not know your pain

But you have a life to live

If you read this and turn up dead

Others won't know how to live with the pain

Jesus loves you

You may not feel it

Why do we act on feeling on instinct

When at the end of the tunnel there is a God who gave everything for you

Call on the Holy spirit

Call on the name of Christ and you can beat this depression

If you believe in him He will fight for you

Give up fighting him

Don't pull the trigger

I've talked about this before

Staying up on those long nights

Looking at a knife that I wanted to put in my chest

I knew that I would go to heaven because I knew Christ

I also knew that I would hurt a lot of people

People I loved

I also knew my life was a gift and it wasn't mine to take

I remember the constant pain

Thinking I was worthless

So don't you dare put that gun to your head and pull the trigger

If you feel like doing this to yourself

Message me

I don't care who you are or where you've come from

If it means your not the next suicide that hear in the news tomorrow it's worth it

So don't you dare pull that trigger

No matter what you think there is always someone out there who loves you

I will stay up with you during those long nights

I don't care who you are I love you

Not with an American objectifying love

Or a conditional love

But with a brotherly love

The Love of Christ

If you pull the trigger

There's no going back

You were given a life

A purpose

Your life isn't yours to take

I once thought my sin was all there was to see in me

But you put a light in me

I ask you would break this heart of stone

And restore it with a heart of flesh

When I jumped into the ring

I dove in over my head

I thought I could fight for my King

But I realized my King fights for me

So I'll just stand on the side lines while my God puts the devil on the ground

And I will stand here and listen to the sound

The sound of your voice

The sound of victory

The sound of glory

There is a light at the end of the night

When I hear the whispers in my ear

I just want to duck in fear

Because I don't want to hear that sweet voice

When I listen to that call nothing feels more bitter then it's bite

So I'm just jumping into a fight

But the thought of giving up the fight and giving in

Makes my stomach feel like a flying kite

To hear the call of those ancient Gods

Maybe I didn't give them up

The apostle Paul said that the hearts of men walk astray

I just didn't realize how deep the roots of my evil heart had grown

So now its time for my heart to burn

Burn the roots of evil

It was written we were supposed to be Holy as he is Holy

Yet my heart is not

My heart yearns for things of the past I thought that I destroyed long ago

I give those gods up for good

Because the next fix that I get

Won't come from this world

But from the God of love

I had it all
The fancy car
The mansion
The late nights with pretty girls
When my voice hit the mic the world worshiped me
Crowds sang with me
I had all the money in the world
I went everywhere
Did everything
I did as I pleased
I was only told what I wanted to hear
I had the crowds
I was in the magazines
My name was known all over the world
I built the greatest economic empire in history
The sun never set on my empire
I had all I ever wanted
Yet it never satisfied
I ruled the world
Yet I still craved more
I needed more
And then one day you saw my name on a magazine
And all you thought was
Another star that committed suicide
What a waste

The Bible says in the gospels
The disciple Peter walked on water with the power of faith
When he lost sight of Christ he began to sink
The waves looked to high
Too big
Too intimidating
I wasn't called to walk
I was born to run
I was born to one day lead my wife
I was born to lead my future children
I was born to stand for whats right
Sometimes I lose sight of Christ
Sometimes I begin to sink
Then I remember
I was born to run
I was born to run on nothing but faith
I was born to run through the waves
Sometimes I begin to cave and it makes me sick
Then I remember that I am merely a tool
Sometimes I feel like one of the prophets
By all means I shouldn't be here
But I was born for more
And I wish it was something I did
But in fact I should be the last of God's choice
Why he decided to use me I don't know
When I meet him
I will ask out of wonder

What's the point?
To endure a consequence?
Where is the glory?
Where is the honor?
What do I have to boast of?
Every fire
Every pain
Every rage
Every stab
Was my fault
What was the point
Of trading water for sand
I found the point
I crucified my savior
And threw his grace to the wind
Then he crushed my pride and broke my hide
Yet my heart builds it back
Why won't this heart of stone crack?
Sometimes I think about the night
I considered putting a knife in my chest
Why did you save me?
When you picked me up and gave me life
You called me to do something so big
When I'm so small?

I will not fear the future

I will not fear what the future holds for me

Because I serve the God of the future

And He is in control

Whether it is pain, regret or loss

I will not fear

Because I serve the God who is in control

To those in despair

And ready to pull the trigger on life

I beg of you don't

If you face abuse, fear, guilt, regret or just straight up pain

Depression

Anger

Don't pull the trigger

Don't pull it

Let go of the wheel

Let go of control

Let God control your life

Don't try to drive it

You will crash and burn and the last thing we need

Is another loved one put a pull in their brain

And leave their family behind

Give your life to the God who is in control

I'm sick of it
I'm sick of a world who refuses forgiveness
I'm sick of a filthy world
I'm sick of Christians who believe they're somehow better then the world
I'm sick of myself because I struggle with love
I struggle with loving the way my father loves
I struggle to see the world through my fathers eyes
I'm tired of Legalistic people who think they've somehow got it figured out
That think that somehow they're righteous enough
I'm tired of fighting for the dying that I love
When they reject me
But
I will still love them
I will still fight for them
I will strive to love the way my father does
I will fight to give the compassion my father does
I will not bow to pride
I will not bow to lust
I will not bow to greed
I will not waste what I have
I will not give up
I'm tired of this world
And I'm tired of fighting
But I have been given the task of Jeremiah
I have been given the voice to speak
Although many will not listen
None of this is my work
I didn't do any of this
My Father did
He gave me his grace
All I ever did
Was say
Yes

I could take what this world has to offer
I could live for the late nights
And wake up throwing up with guilt
I could take this world
That feels so good
That looks so good
That tastes so good
Or I could be dead to this world
I could live for my creator
Even if I stand alone
I will stand for him
I am dead to this world and I am alive in him

I spent years running from you
Now I'm running to you
In the heat of the night you gave me hope
I remember that night
It was your grace that stayed my blade
It was your love that kept my heart beating
I was sick of what I had become
I felt so *****
I knew that if I ****** that blade that I would meet you
But that wasn't my time
I knew you had a purpose for me
You brought me through that fight
You calmed the storms
You taught me to keep my eyes on you and not on those waves
Those wives looked so big
You reminded me of the size of your grace
You reminded me of what I was born to do
I wanted to end it all so much
I didn't want to live
I didn't want your grace
Then you called me out
You offered me a place
You gave me a home
I felt so worthless
I felt so hopeless
And you stepped in and made me feel hopeful
Worthy
Something
You made me remember what it was like not to feel pain
You are my God
You are my King
And one day
I will meet you
Face to Face

So many describe my God as a God of peace
Or a God who was once a God of war
The truth is
My God is the greatest warrior this world will ever face
He fights for His people
He loves those who reject him
He gives his people a life worth living
He gives them hope in their desolation
He is the God of War

Here I am again
I come here on routine
To confess the things that I do
To confess what I have done wrong
What I need help with
I stand alone
I stand amazed
By the God
Who loves me
I stand unworthy
Before the Holy One
Although He is three in one
He is one
I stand here broken by what I have done to you
I failed you again
I stand here asking again
Why me?
You chose me to fight for you
Why?
I know you called me for something greater
Greater than the normal life
Why me?
There's nothing special about me
You didn't choose me for who I am
You know every failure I will ever make
Every second you have already lived
You gave me these gifts
I had no part of it
You made me who I am
One day
When I meet you
Face to Face
I will know

You put the seas in place
You parted the sea to give your people a way to freedom
You walked on the water
With one word
The seas bow to your will
You placed every creature
Every plant
Every microbe
In to place
We still have not discovered the mysteries
Of this creation
We know more about the stars than the seas
When you speak the waters change
When you breath
The Sea ripples
When you gaze upon the Seas they still
Just for you
You are The King of the Sea

I stepped out of what seemed like a dream

A life time of things past that have no meaning

As I stand here in a timeless gaze

Standing in awe through a haze

I stare at that timeless face

Angels sing

Trumpets blow

A city of gold stands behind him

People run to me

To welcome me home

But it all seems like a blur

As I feel the beautiful presence

The aroma of love

That seeps through the aura of his presence

He steps forward

His arms stretched out


And gives me a hug

And says

Welcome home my son

There will be a day
When the whole world will tremble
The whole world will fear
And flow with blood filled tears
Valleys will run red
Because the world turned away from you
You gave the world every chance
But we won't bow to you
You will send your two prophets who will be persecuted
Beaten and scorned
Through your chastisement
Your grace will run evermore
On that day chances will run out
You will come riding in from the sky
Your armies will make this world tremble
As it assembles
On that last battle
This world will fire every destructive force upon you
They will mean nothing
Not even touching your glorious robes
Everything this world has to fight
Will fall
Like a child trying to **** a mountain
This world will have been given every chance
Every grace of salvation
But when that day comes
You will finally release your righteous fury
And this world will fall
Sin must one day end
You love the souls of this world
You died for us
You give every warning
Every grace
Every possible chance to tell us of your coming day
You will take your children home
But those that refused you
Will be lost
In that last battle