"Dear God,
Why am I alive?
And why is it that I hate myself so,
So, much?
And my mom,
Does she even love me?"

Poor little girl,
Stuck trying to figure out,
An answer she'll never get.

Little girl,
With so much attitude,
But she hates it.
"I can't get rid of my attitude,
No matter how hard I try."

The tough girl,
With so much pride,
Can cry more tears than a baby would,
For a whole year,
She could cry more in a minute.

Silently screaming, crying, laughing,
.
At how pitiful she is.

How her every thought was,
"Why am I here?
What would life be like, if I was never born?"
And in every thought,
Tears would come gushing out,
Along with the sharp pain she felt, deep in her heart.

The little girl with daddy issues, and very unstable bond with her mom, she waits silently for her rose red beating heart to come
To a full complete stop .

It's been fourteen years since the fire in my eyes started to ignite.
Everyday is a different battles that I have to fight.
Words are the guns that would **** me if used right.

'Lil ol me would never put up a fight.
So of a sand bag taking punches,
Every punch being taken rips the bag , letting presious sand flow out.

Being a new solider in war where veterans surround and judge your every move,
will constantly break you down.
Pushed around for not knowing better.
To be used until your no longer useful.

Sooner or later the fire burning in my eyes, will die out.
My will is what keeps it alive, but once it runs out
You'll never hear a sound escape from my mouth.

My love for you
It's hideous
You are an angel from above
I'm the devil from below

You never would've notice me
And probably never should
But you see I'm as greedy as the devil
I will want more than given

You who are the light
Is bright for me in the dark
I wish for you to love me
And be able to be your equal

But I should have never crossed your path
I dirtied the light
Something like me should've never touched

You screamed to my face yelling
Go away
Maybe if I died will that soothe your pain?

I should grant your wish
Maybe then you will think of me more
I just hope you know that I love you
And that I'm a disgrace
I took your wings and bounded you

I know for a fact that it will heal
You beautiful wings will once again appear
Don't worry I'm nothing compared to you
My death will be nothing but a lullaby to you
I wish you good luck with life and all
I love you so much that I will fall for your part
You can fly once again that's all that matters
I would give my life to see yours fly higher

I love you so much and that does not matter
As long as you succeed in life is all that matters
So I bid you goodbye forever
Now I will forever be nothing but a forgotten memory.

I love dancing with the summer breeze.
It makes me feel free.
Every step I take,
Is like flying through skies on a sunny day.
also the sand loves to ****** my feet.
They never seem to want to leave.
The sun hugs me constantly,
While surrounding me with warmth.

I can't resist you,
So how could I forget you?
I'm a devoted women
and I'm saving myself for you.
I feel so good even ecstasy can't compare when I met you.
I can't take this wait, so please
hurry up and come fetch me.

An enteral melody,
Putting many to sleep.
Those who hear it never wake up.
A melody so lovely,
It will put all your stress to rest.
The melody is so beautiful,
most people rush to hear it.
It can be heard anywhere, anytime, no matter
what your statuse in life.
A melody so graceful,
It puts you to an enteral sleep.

Born into life,
I automatically become a soldier.
I'm foreced to fight both everyone including myself.
No one wanted join this fight,
But we must continue what we started.
Although it means going to hell,
We still fight in wars when all it could take
Is a peaceful treaty to untie the whole world.

"We" are aging.
"We" are slowly losing everything
That we hold dear to us.
"We" love people who "We" cannot reach.
"We" make the wrong choices,
But "We" don't stop taking
The wrong path.
Sooner or later "We" will regret the
choices "We" made.
"We" never pay attention to what's really important.
"We" will soon pay the price of the debt "We"
Need to repay.

Piano music all through the air,
Like a cool summer breeze from the ocean shore.
In front of your eyes is a girl,
She dances gracefully and silently.
Joining in,
You grab her hand.
Dancing through,
The feeling is unimaginable.
You feel like you're flying with her,
Soaring through the sky.
She leaves you speechless.
Like magician she vanishes in thin air.
In your heart,
You're secretly begging for more.

Rocking around and Tripping on,
Broken glass.
Laughing gas spreading all around,
Everyone laughing to death.
Clowns showing their final trick,
Turning themselves into flames
Buring the whole house down.
Nothing left except laughter
All through the air.

Under,
the mirror.
I am flying.
Under,
The mirror
I am shining.
Under,
The mirror
I am dead and blind.
Everything's a slur.
I love feeling the mirror,
But only if I hold my breath
Will I see it again.

There are so many people
Who are lost and hurt.
Most of them choose the wrong choices.
And choose the wrong road.
They can't see the truth for what it is.
They can only see the lies that are to be said.
They only see depression everywhere they go.
They see no light of hope,
But sometimes one of them will wind up
Go back to trace their steps
They'll go back to see the day they made the wrong choice.
To see what they've did wrong.
They walk back up the road they'll
Take a total turn on the life and the mistakes
They'll try to accomplish
What they would've been able to achieve.

The cross is lined up.
You need to take a shot.
This is the moment,
So muster up.
Everything's dies.
We're all
In the crosshairs of
Times gun.
Death waits till
they pull the trigger.
It doesn't matter when,
Now or tomorrow.
Time and death
Will hunt you down.

You're so loveless,
Yet you're so loveable.
You're so unattainable,
But you're still reachable.
You never make sense,
But you can be understanding.
You said "I'll never love another,"
Yet here we are loving each other.

"I love you"     "I hate you"
      "Stay"     "Leave"
   "Help me"    "Ignore me"
"Reach out"   "Keep to yourself"
           "I'm fine"    "I'm dying"
   "I've never lied"  "I'm lying right now"
The words that never come out.

She's my guardian angel
,but she's also the devil.

She's my knight in shining armor
,but also the evil sorcerer.

She is the sun for she keeps me warm
,but she is also the moon that's cold in the dark

She says she loves me
,but sometimes she hates me

She makes life easier
,but also quite hard

But she is my mother
So I guess I'll stick around
Just for a little while.

You've been living for years,
but for all those year you couldn't see
You see neither the world nor me
This world is so beautiful
So wild and untamed,
but you're to blind to see

After all those years you've been living
Still you couldn't see
The beauty of this world
How it was the birth
of wildness and the free

Yet you still say it was born
Only for our use and our orders
So you call me blind
For not seeing what it's worth,
but the worth of this world is priceless
If you can't see then how
Am I the blind man
When the only person who's
truly blind is you.

I've been stuck here on my own
Break me out
I hate being alone
I wish I could be more friendly
But my pride holds me down
So please break me out
Before I break down
No one should ever have to fight on their own so please help me
Escape from my cage of pride and doubt.

Is it fun to watch me break down
You see me but you won't help me
You see me beg you for help
But you turn your back
You let me down
When you should've lifted me up

My heart has suffered enough
So why do you make it
Suffer more than it needs to be?

I'm insecure and I know you can see that, but you pretend you don't
I always comfort you,
But when it comes down to it
I was only chosen by you until someone else needed you
Then you would toss me away

Instead of saying I'm breaking
I guess you could say I've been
Broken.

Not a sound can be heard,
but whispers of lost children
their cries and moan
you could also hear as
the moon sheds tears
and hear the sky
cry as the dark takes over
the world is so still
so quiet that your
thoughts could be heard.

I hear their screams
I can feel their pain
I killed innocent people
You plead to me
To save your child
But I was ordered to ****
I'm sorry for the lost
But I've lost more
I've lost my humanity and maybe more.

We are fish
Trapped in a tank
Filled with our own filth
We are the cause
for our own deaths

We are searching for an answer
Maybe we are in one
We just have to break the tank
And revert back to the ocean
'Cause the ocean is the answer
We'll ever need.

I'm falling from the heavens
I fell and am half way to hell
The fall is scary
I'm seeing so many monsters
I can even see one in myself

The Angels fly by
But they don't see me
They can only see the
Monster I'm fated to be

But I'm still falling and you can still save me so why,
Why, why, why
Why won't they catch me?