Depression is not beautiful
And you let me know
Trying so hard to let go.
I thought it was getting better
Until you gave me that harsh lecture
Destroying my self worth
I still though you were heaven on earth.
Tearing me down day by day
Convincing me I needed you to stay
You didn't know the real me was fading away.
I thought you loved me
I thought you cared
But what happened next wasn't fair
You took my soul
And threw it in your black hole
Begging you to love me
I thought you'd never leave
But you did, and you took a piece of me.

I will be the one that got away
and you'll hate yourself everyday
because my love for you now is decayed
but often times i wondered what would have happened if you stayed

Walk into a room filled with wisdom and pride,
The love you projected never lied,
Always there to give me a guide,
Making sure my heads on right.
Being in your presence was pure joy
Filled with laughter and chuckles,
But you were as stubborn as brass knuckles.
You found god and for that I'm thankful
Because now he has the most perfect angel.

When I write, it’s normally sappy, but then I saw you and knew I could write happy.

They say home is where the heart is
well what happens when your home is under massive destruction?
I didn't understand why it went under construction
until I looked into your hazel eyes and saw corruption
and realized my home was in disruption
because you couldn't resist a broken home seduction.

I can not touch you
I can not see
That you were always there for me
guiding me with your light
always making me put up a fight
never losing sight
my heart is now right.

Black and blue until I can't move
The very hands that protected me are looking brand new
Crashing into me with no destination
I look up with hesitation
Every inch of me hurts
And I know it could be worse
I know I was out of line
But I thought I would've been fine
Gasping for air
Then you pull my hair
Praying to God this ends
But he never sends
Evil fills your eyes
Can't help but feel high
Please let me go
I fall to my knees
I'm not strong enough to leave
Black and blue fills the room
Does this mean im doomed
Black and blue until I can't move
God save me this once, I'm begging you.
-Yvonne Cutlip