wait for me please,
wait till my strength is back & my heart is dark,
wait till i make them pay
for treating you like an object
for toying with your feeling
as if you were a game or something to be tamed
wait for me till i can face you again
tell you i have hurt each one of them
and made their generations pay for it
and made it sink into their bones and hearts
that you are the euphoria of my very existence
that you are not to be dominated for laughs
wait till i can make their voices quiver
till they beg to worship the floors you walk on
and finally mend your heart of all the pain
tender to all lies and blames you've been forced to endure
just wait for me till you love again

I write these poems,
i write about the what ifs
i write them feeling nothing but uncertainty
I write them to understand what love is
I write them to unburden my heart
I write them to let my demons loose
I write them to feel a little sane
I write them knowing i'm still burdened
I write them knowing no one might read them
I write them knowing happy endings hardly happen
I write them knowing that i feel relieved when I do
I write them because it's my escape from boredom
I write them because why can't i write to my heart's content
I write them about you, me and our experiences
I write them about my thoughts that i can't comprehend
I write them for you, for sanity, for understanding, for everyone

Then you will cry,
you will feel my darkness
as i lay my cold hands on your filthy body
and you'll wonder if i planned for your demise
but the look in my eyes will answer it all
you will feel pain but won't be able to talk
or shout it to anybody as your soul fades
you won't be able to author or mutter words
as your lung collapse, as you save everybit of air,
you will pray for a miracle to happen at that moment
but God will turn a deaf ear and the demons will laugh
and as you fade into the abyss of torment
my face will be the only beautiful sight and
my face will be the only thing you see
and you will cry, you will struggle with all your energy left
but nothing will change, nobody will be your messiah
and as your story comes to an end
you will remember me for who i really am
your beginning and your end
the one who made you insignificant.

I'm here if you need anything
you're here but you never saw I needed you?
you're here but you never saw I needed your time?
honestly are you ever here?
do you think i'll always act okay?
do you know how it feels to act like everything's alright?
do you know you never meant your words?

I'm here if you want to talk
i don't think anybody really means this
i don't think you can handle all my words
do you know how badly i've wanted to talk?
do you know how i need you to just listen?
i want you to understand;
how I'm affected mentally and emotionally!
i want you to mean your words!

My love for you is is like the sun
shines bright and radiates everywhere
My love for you is like eternity
for it will last for forever
My love for you is like a garden
filled with so many colours and flowers
My love for you is like an aurora
for it is rare and beautiful

With You.

as cliche as it sounds roses are darling red around you,violets are sky line blue and everything feels perfect with you

as cliche as it sounds I want to call you perfect but its more than that you're beautiful, smart and strong and I'll be perfect when I'm with you

as cliche as it sounds you're the first person i think of, you're also the only person i think of at nights because every moment with you
feels like heaven

as cliche as it sounds i want you, not for your face or body, i simply want warmth and a safe haven and I find both when I'm with you

Never tell me you'll love me if you just end up disappearing on me
Never tell me all the pain you've faced if we couldn't face them together
Never tell me you won't hurt me if you'll leave me regretting everything
Never tell me you're here for me when you hardly see what I'm saying with my eyes
Never tell me to keep my promises if all you do is break every promise you made
Never tell me to love you unconditionally if you give conditions to your love
Never tell me you'll be my sun if you're the darkness that has no ending
Never tell me you're sorry if you keep doing everything you apologize for time after time
Never tell me you are my everything if all you do is take everything precious to me
Never tell me you're complicated if you think all i do is complicate things
Never tell me you feel alone if all you do is push me farther and farther
Never tell me you know me when you don't know the conversations i have in the dark
Never tell me all you did for me if all you did was make hate the time i wasted
Never tell me you tried your best if your best meant doing nothing
Never tell me you'll the fix the pieces if all you did was make smaller pieces
Never tell me anything ..Never tell me lies