my dad loves me when i go to the gym

says i need to get skinnier

gets me weight loss vitamins

he doesn't understand

i try to be understanding of his lack of understanding

instead i stop eating and say it is the gym

i see him proud when i lose weight

i only see myself getting fatter

He's the wind,
I'm a dust.
Maybe I might as well
learn how to accept...

We weren't supposed
to breathe
the same air.

I hate “you’re really sad over 1 person when there’s billions??”
Yes. Yes I am.
I hate that I gave them so much of myself and that I would do it again in a heartbeat.
We wish things were so simple.

but that handle was made for his hand
hand - handle
handle - hand

the fingers would close
around it to never let go
It had to have flesh around it
at all times
But the blade...
the blade was still naked. He couldn't let
the blade naked
It wasn't fair

"So that's why you stabbed your
mommy then?" the psychiatrist asked him.

"Yes," he said.

"The knife is more important
to you than mommy?"

"The knife listens. Mommy doesn't."