Only few know she even exists.

She keeps to herself, in fear
I hear
She dares only to give a tear
when she's filled with beer.
I hear

I don't know what she looks like
I don't know what she likes to do
I don't know what she stands for
Or
If she has ever walked out that door.

...why is she called that, I wonder
What left her?
A friend?
A loved one?
Happines?
Mental health?
I couldn't tell you, I barely know that girl.

   Is she wrong, right or left
                            What is left?
For the Leftbehind Girl
What is behind her? Or ahead?
Maybe she's just already dead.
Who cares if she is wrong
Who cares if she is right?

Inside the backwards- places
of her broken mind?

I had a horrible nightmare
            that She was dying.

Alone and so /so/ scared.
I can do nothing to
                                       help
I wake up. She is not dying.
She is already dead.

And I couldn't be happier.

I had a dream about
             the ocean.
A beautiful sunset.
My feet in the sand, then water.

       I go for a swim, to taste the salt

But suddenly it's all dark, I
can't see
the shore anymore.
I'm scared, lost in the darkness.
Water is deep and black, I can't survive this.

Waves keep hitting my face.
I'm drowning
                                    And so lost.

A ladybug came to visit me, originally red but turning green.
Size of a coin, yet more precious.
So lonely I have been.

Why do you shrink away from my touch, o beetle?
I know I won't hurt you
I know I won't
Please don't fly away, friend or I shall feel blue.
You wouldn't do that to me, would you?
Would you?
WOULD YOU.

I'll pluck off your legs, friend. One by one, all six of them.
Say farewell to your antennae. You don't need them anymore, my gem.
Do you love me yet?
Do you love me yet?

Hush now and remember: I won't hurt you
My sweet, my pet.
No use crying about your wings
long lost to the cruel winds
Love, can't you see how safe you are?
                         With me
                         Only me.

I wanted to show you
my favorite movie
I was really looking forward to it.

We were supposed to see it together

All of my favorite parts, the ones that would make my heart beat faster...

The music
The colour
The beauty
Once more

All those feelings I wanted to share, but you were so tired and

so bare.

You couldn't hold on
Before I knew it

You were already gone
I had to watch my story alone.