TheSanguinary

TheSanguinary Oct 2019

dawn

I had hope that the sun will shine
I had hope that the dawn will come
I thought i had a chance
brighter days will come they say
I had faith that it was my time
But some how i lost it all in an instant

I never wanted to hurt
"If i had thought my wrds through "
My mind tells me
But once spilt, you cant recollect it
Cant take back wat i said
But it wasnt out of spite
I guess i get to exprience another dusk be4 a dawn

Im tired of being in the dark
Waitn for dawn so i can see wats in my head and wats real.
For my nightmares walk free in the dark
And my head filled with fantasies
I want it to come .....
My mind is falling apart
My heart losing heat
I feel cold
I just cant wait for dawn

Constantly seeking a place to hide
Trying to cover up my mistakes with more mistakes
I keep coming back to my past
Both in mind and matter
A pitch black maze
I'm failing to navigate
Doing this and doing that
A pain that pills and potions can't solve
A hole that alcohol and drugs can't fill
I need a new light
I need dawn.....
I wanna wake up tomorrow
And live a new day

Have u ever wanted something or someone so bad..... but you just cant reach

#newday #heartbreak #disappointed #newdawn

TheSanguinary Sep 2019

the coward

Im a coward
The thought of stating my feelings
Brings me to my knees
The thought of telling her how i feel
Makes my legs shake
And my heart skip a beat

Im a coward
Constantly running away from my heart
Waiting too long to state wats in my heart
Then live with regret for the rest of my my days

What pains isnt the fear
What breaks me
Is i hve made a home in my cage
I have started to feel comfortable in my fear
I have learnt to live with my regrets
Such a coward

I can only dream of my life without
I can't stand it
But thats who i am

I don't know if im the only one that feels this way..... but im pretty sure im not

TheSanguinary Aug 2019

heavean eater

I want the sky to nolonger blind my eyes
I want the earth to nolonger bury my heart
I want all beings to understand my mind
I want to devour all the gods
I want all mankind to disappear

#food

TheSanguinary Apr 2019

AMBER EYES

Gazing into the distant future,
Heart warming comfort,
A wild fire set ablaze;
All curved deep in her eyes.

Golden brown the colour of Gods;
With the light at the right angle you can see heaven,
An Angel amoung men;
Eyes of such beauty can melt the coldest of hearts;

Eyes that allow you to gaze into the stars;
they glow with such vibrancy;
My heart skipped a beat just looking into them;
Such a masterpiece,
The Lord took his time to create;

Do not close thy eyes my beloved;
For even a blink is a waste of such beauty;
Cast not thy eyes away from me,
I am afraid for the darkness to come ,
For your are the light of my heart;
stay by me always.

#eyes #love

TheSanguinary Apr 2019

it doesn't matter

It doesn't amount to anything
It doesn't matter what i do
It won't add up to anything
Like a drop in the ocean,
And a fish in the sea;
In the end it all amounts to nothing.

It's like chasing rainbows,
Trying hard to catch a ray of sunshine,
Which in the end won't amount to anything,
All i ever wanted was a reason to stay;
but all you ever did was push me away.

TheSanguinary Nov 2018

MY FEELINGS

You don't know what it's like
Do you?
It's like being sick without knowing what you are sick with
Feeling pain without knowing what's wrong or how to stop it
bleeding without an open wound
it's like having a problem you cant solve

No word can possibly describe the way I feel
My heart hurts..... It's killing me
And yet I don't know why
All the horrible feelings I can think of piled on one person
For a reason, no one knows

I'm drowning in sorrow
Yet no one is there to rescue
I cant't come up with a solution
A solution to an unknown problem
You really have no idea how it's like

You have no idea
Non at all!
To hate every second of your life
To hate every cell in your body
To hate your very existence
Now tell me!
Tell me if you think you know
Tell me it's not the end of the world
Tell me a brighter day will come
Because that's the advice everyone gives to people like me
Because that's the advice you all think we deserve

Yes I hate life
Because nothing good has come out of it
My personality changes with every heartbeat
Every breath I take I'm a different person
Tell me you know how it feels
Tell me it's all gonna be okay
Cause those are the lies everyone has told

I apologies if this poems comes as offensive to other people.... i simply wrote what i was feeling

#heartbroken #inmyfellings

TheSanguinary Nov 2018

why so early

I knew life wasn't a walk through the park
I knew I had to make something out of myself
I knew I had to work harder than anyone else
I knew I had to learn
I knew it wasn't gonna be easy

And the she came along
We both knew we had skeletons in our closets
We both knew we had demons no one else had
We knew it wasn't gonna be easy
But she gave the strength and courage
To man up, to stand up and know its gonna be okay
She gave me the strength to give my hand to her and have her walk besides me
Just when everything was going as we envisioned
Who knew the life still had a trick up its sleeves
Who knew i'd have to her all alone
Who knew she'd have to her cry
Without me there to wipe her tears
No one thought i'd have to die so soon

i had no idea what to call it so forgive the name if it doesn't do justice

#death