ThatWolfgirl13

ThatWolfgirl13 Feb 2019

Music

Music
It drowns out the world
Music
It drowns out my life
Music
It drowns out my sadness
Music
Just close my eyes
Music
Turn up the volume
Music
Forget life
Music
Forget my struggles
Music
In a empty world
Music
With nothing but the rhythm
Music
Then I open my eyes
Music
and remember
Music
I have to eat
Music
I have to clean
Music
I have to leave my safe place
Music
I have to turn off the music
Empty

I want to drown out my sadness with music but every time I try I have to do something, why cant I just sit in a corner while in my own world of happiness and never move

#music #depression

ThatWolfgirl13 Feb 2019

Thank you

Sorry this isnt a poem
I had a dream where I went through with it, I killed myself and the last thing I did before dieing was write a poem saying goodbye and I had specifically mentioned invisible, arrowbird fallenangel and especially wolf, and how you guys felt like friends to me and youre all so nice, now that I look at it I could have just said all my followers but I guess dream me didnt want to think of you as followers but as individual people who listen to me and help me, sorry about posting on a poetry site and it not even being a poem, but I just wanted to thank you

ThatWolfgirl13 Feb 2019

Scary things

I see scary things
Demons and shadows everywhere
Some have wings
Way scarier then a bear
am I crazy?
What's wrong with me
Sharp teeth and darkness is what I see
They're all crystal clear
They seem so real
But they cant be
No one else can see them
How can this be
Whats wrong with me
Can anyone answer
I'm scared
I cant sleep
I feel like this thing Thats not real
Could **** me
I never turn off the lights
Maybe if i ignore it
It'll go away
How can I ignore something
thats so terrifying

ThatWolfgirl13 Feb 2019

Why?

why
I cant remember what happiness is
Why
If I could have one wish
Why
It'd be happiness
Why
Hidden behind my mask
There's a tear in my eye
I wish someone would ask
Why
I want the courage to say
IM NOT OK

I wrote this today when I wasn't feeling good, and I just kept asking myself, why, why do i have to deal with this, why me, those type questions, and I want to tell my friends so badly but I cant gather enough courage to do so

#depression #sadness #why

Feb 2019

Ruheen

Falling

"I haven't fallen yet."
Is what I would say
If I was still flying.
Now, I'm just wondering
How badly I'll get hurt
When I land.

Oh well, only time will tell.