you were supposed to show me the way in life,
to protect me
show me how I am supposed to be loved by a man correctly
to help me with my homework to make sure I reached my full potential.
you and mum then divorced
your actions then on in were only detrimental
to my future, messed with my emotions
When mum got really ill, I reached out to you
but you rejected me ,really disrespected me
Your daughter, flesh and blood once was the apple of your eye
Thought you would take care of me but all you did was make me cry
U turned you back on me
but im supposed to be your family
But wait you met someone new.. she already had 2 kids
ready made family for you
You let me go through the government system that they call foster care
You came and visited me through the holidays maybe here and there
You tell me you didnt have the money to take care of me
but wait
you had money to feed your other family
your blood does not run through their veins
You Mr Should be ashamed
****** , mental, physical abuse and foster care
where were u I needed you there
You left me to suffer but want me to call you dad
That is one thing I can say from the age of 8 I never really had.
We have now come to a cross road
I've adressed you about your actions
was never expecting that explosion , your reactions
Grow up she says.
you dont know how hard it was you said.
Your mum made it difficult you said
Excuse excuse excuse.
The men that want to be a dad fight with every breath they have.
I gave you an opportunity to put things right
I thought we could have a relationship I thought it was in site.
You slammed the door in my face, rejecting me once again.
Now at the age of 30 all I have are memories, anger and pain