I cant cope with this void in my soul
you know the one that I should control.
Its something I just cant seem to fix
does any know if that makes me sick.

There's nothing I can do to soothe this pain
keep feelin these feelings again and again.
I heard the fix comes from deep within
but its like a battle I just cant seem to win..

Docs just want to give you some pills
but the side effects they make you ill.
They just dont ease that mental pain
that keeps stabbing my heart again and again.

I battle with myself on a daily basis
please god take me to that oasis.
But the pain that my family will feel
I will cause them pain they cannot heal.

The guilt of the thoughts tear my heart in two
I can't find a way, don't know what to do.
Should I be selfish or should I be kind
I don't want to destroy those I leave behind.

When I look up to the heavens
My heart sits heavy in my chest
I know its where you have to be
Cos God chose you to finally rest

When I look up to the heavens
I wish I had one more day
Just one last conversation
But god said you had to go away

When Iook up to the havens
Its your face I see
I know youre watching over us
We're just not prepared for you to leave

When I look up to the heavens
I know thats where youll stay
But I know if given the chance
You'd come take this pain away

When I look up to the heavens
Its clear god only takes the best
I wish you were still here with us
But god chose you to finally rest

So this dating game where do I start
It’s scary being out there offering my heart

My heart rules my head
My head answers back

If I fall for them will they be true
I am the last of the old generation

Online dating what happened to face to face
I cannot keep up with the swipes or the pace

What happened to good old fashion communication

Will I have to rely on technology and apps to find my man

As I make I make my final steps of this chapter
I look forward to what is to come

I’ve been broken and bruised and back again
But I’m moving forward I’m my number one!

As I prepare for Malta I dream
Of Sunnier climates and family galore

Who needs a man for a happy ever after
My family is what my soul craves more

The unconditional love that knows no boundaries
No fake I loves just heart felt vibes

Once there was a time I had fallen but this
Is the time that I rise

When you feel like your not enough for the world
But more importantly yourself

What route do you go what road do you take
How do you fill the void you feel within

How do you fill up the emptiness within your heart
Can you inject the filling to help me ease the pain

Is this a condition is there a cure
Does anyone know cos I have no clue

When you don’t know how to love yourself what are you to do

Can you see me in the cold light of day,Do I look pretty
Can you see me in the cold light of day, Do I look look unhappy
Can you see me in the cold light of day, Do I look broken on the floor

Yes you can see me
I am beautiful
I am happy
I am repaired from your touch

You are lost
You are unhappy
You are broken

Reactions caused by your own actions

Learn from your regret and take time to reflect
Grow and develop be a better version of you

When you meet that special person give them them someone new and improved

It dawned on me your getting old
What if my feelings were never told

What if we were both wrong and strong
What if I allowed this to carry on

My heart told me to reach out to you
To see if we could start a new

To rebuild new foundations
To build upon with new relations

So here we are a brand new chapter
Me and my dad may get the happy ever after

I cannot wait for the day
Cannot wait for 5th May

Me and my dad together again
Putting our feud to an end