I cant cope with this void in my soul
you know the one that I should control.
Its something I just cant seem to fix
does any know if that makes me sick.

There's nothing I can do to soothe this pain
keep feelin these feelings again and again.
I heard the fix comes from deep within
but its like a battle I just cant seem to win..

Docs just want to give you some pills
but the side effects they make you ill.
They just dont ease that mental pain
that keeps stabbing my heart again and again.

I battle with myself on a daily basis
please god take me to that oasis.
But the pain that my family will feel
I will cause them pain they cannot heal.

The guilt of the thoughts tear my heart in two
I can't find a way, don't know what to do.
Should I be selfish or should I be kind
I don't want to destroy those I leave behind.