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John Gabriel Nermal Jun 2022

What is this sense of denial?
Why can’t I just admit it?
Or maybe a sense of betrayal?
With these emotions that exist.

Thought it was nothing,
but grew farther as it goes.
Hearing it continuously beating,
That is always lingering up close.

Knowing things can be *******
That built this current friendship.
Feelings that I can’t withdraw
For this current relationship.

After occurring out of the blue,
Pretending as if nothing happened
So this might be the harsh truth,
Some things are better left unsaid.

#love #friendship #friend

John Gabriel Nermal Jun 2022

Celeste

I, who is staring at the night sky,
Wondering if everything will be fine.
Beautiful stars made the evening bright,
Will never be the same without the light.

The beauty that caught my attention,
Feeling of emotional connection.
I wanted to give it my affection,
And relieving the ferocious corrosion.

Shining bright as the quasar,
Can be seen, even though it is so far.
Having the uniqueness of a pulsar,
No one will ever be on par.

Things that remained unknown.
The universe that which has grown.
More mysteries that are yet to be known,
Like the history of the pre-historic bones.

You, who are zooming like a shooting star,
Started the throbbing of my heart.
You are turning into a neutron star,
Pulling me closer like a magnetar.

The world that has no reverse.
Started changing after the converse.
One's known as the universe,
Has now split into a multiverse.

#space #love #astronomical #time #cosmos

John Gabriel Nermal Oct 2021

Happiness That I am after

I have thought about something
Rather I have been contemplating.

Discovering there is no difference
Between the racket at sunlight
That will come to silence at twilight ,
And hearing the tranquility at night
Suddenly filled with voices in my mind.

Being sick and tired everyday
Having a desire to stop time,
And just keep it that way.

Stuck in a room with my everything,
Going out will make me return crying.

Sitting in a corner

Staring...

Wondering...

Feeling...

Waiting...

Am I wrong to just enjoy?
Doing things with a smile?
But other wants it to be spoiled .
Pressure that stretched for miles.

Falling down to the ground
Thoughts that keeps going round and round,
Until the day I have broken down
In despair for who knows long.

The time has come to rise
Without telling myself lies.
I want to be with them!
They helped me to be open minded,
They are like my family.
My one and only.

Longing to leave home
That gives no hope,
Torment that I must suffer
Just to get the happiness
That I am after.

John Gabriel Nermal Sep 2020

Overthink

I've been waiting for you to arrive,
Thinking if everything will be alright,
Feeling I will be an outcast in the vibe
Being left out is like a gloomy night,

I tried to clear my mind,
But this feeling keeps bugging me
Endless, stomach filled with butterflies.
Making me shiver and go flee,

Five minutes of waiting,
Feels like years of torment
And you come and start saying,
"Hey, can you wait for a moment?"

Overthinking like a madman
But in reality, he is planning.
For a surprise that went fine,
Feeling happy and stupid for doubting.

John Gabriel Nermal Aug 2020

Everything for You

Ever since the day that I met you,
I will do anything just to protect you,
Even if I **** everyone but you.

John Gabriel Nermal Jul 2020

The Greatest Moment

The day that we had wander,
Time we have spent together,
Happiness that I have gathered
Will always remain with me forever.

We saw a wonderful view,
For me, the most beautiful is you.
The sky is bright and blue,
That moment, I didn't have a clue,

That moment suddenly happening,
I thought that I was dreaming.
I couldn't believe what I'm seeing,
Every second that I'm always enjoying.

I walked right into the past,
Seeing the happiness that last.
Remembering how time is so fast,
That will soon be a piece of dust.

The future that I am told,
Will never become so bold.
The feelings that I hold
Hope to be never be that cold.

The sea that is crystal clear,
Heartbeat that I could hear,
It never felt so real.
The greatest start of the year.

John Gabriel Nermal Feb 2020

My Biggest Regret

Oh my, oh my
I am full of regret,
It is a fine lady
That I will never get,

I saw her last night
Walking outside,
But she turn right
To his man, to get a ride,

I remember the old memories
Our life is full of happiness,
Some gave me worries
When i can't her forgiveness,

I know I made a mistake
On her darkest day,
It is something I can't retake
Like a needle dropped in a hay,

She is the diamond that I got
She made our lives indestructible,
But she is the diamond that I lost
The day I made it possible