I understand I am broken, not why I am punished for it

If this is what you came to do
hurry,
The sooner you break a heart the sooner it heals

I fell in love with the night sky
the first time I ever saw it
So falling in love with him was fluid
For his words were luminous like the stars
And there was a vast mystery behind his eyes
Yet he looked at me as if I, the sun
For I gave light to the dark crevices of his soul
But we were such fools
For the night sky and the sun are in the same galaxy
But are in a different universe

As if I couldn't already see all my faults, you hand me lenses daily

baby, you have no idea what you’ve just done
I’ve always had abnormal depth even as a little girl
but looking in the mirror seeing your kiss marks
closing my eyes and seeing your laugh replay miserably in my mind
torments me
now when I try to display my depth you are splattered on these tears stained pages
baby, you started an earthquake inside of my bones
and now you must suffer the consequences of the tsunami of ink in my pen

“He's the only fire I've ever regretted getting close to, not because I was burned but because burns leave the most stubborn scars”

Let us put sunshine in jars so we are ready when the night comes,
Flowers in vases to make winters seem shorter,
And magnifing glasses in our pockets so we can find the scattered pieces of our broken hearts

In the end, I'll never know if she missed me as much as I missed her.

How can I not be jealous of your romance when I am still wondering why God did not let mine live?