Sophia

Sophia Jan 2022

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i walked the feeling
reaching the end of the path
i wasn't ready to let it go
i could drown in the pits of hell
if it meant i could wallow
in your calm sea for a while
but these are words you'll never hear
not from me
how can i live not knowing
your touch?

Sophia Jan 2022

self-sabotage

i can't ignore, the way it makes me feel
the cut of a thousand stars
soaring, fragmenting
falling into tiny pieces
i left you
wanting more
but all that remains
is a casket of ruins
for a forgotten love
when everything is easy
i'll stand in my own way
like a villain in my own story
the harshness of me
burning against the softness of you
this fleeting feeling
is so temporary
alone at last
but it is not
where i want to be.

#selfsabotage #sabotage #sad

Sophia Jan 2022

midnight blue

here in this moment
i hear him sing
the midnight moon
midnight blue
paints the mood
here
in this hour
stuck on you
winding roads
leading to nowhere
i call to the trees
mimicking his stance
like he's here with me
but he is towering
over someone else
somewhere else

#blue #sad #love

Sophia Jan 2022

january, 7th

weary eyes
sinking deeper
into sheets that are so heavy
these pillows suffocating
and holding onto every drawn out breath
a pillow for my shattered bones
lay to rest
i break delicately
falling slowly
in and out of all that i know
and all that seems to be
a woeful slumber
my darkest dreams
meandering
through sunken hills
the feeling lingers
and then it is lost

#blues #sadness #misery

Sophia Jan 2021

running back

mostly i think about
all the different ways
i could undress your mind
every feeling laid out on the table
words leave your mouth
and land in mine
i watch as your lips curl
while your eyes blink
wrapping me up
in colours reflecting you
even in my dreams
i'm always running back
to you.

#love #dreaming

Sophia Nov 2020

exit wounds

i watch as you pass me by
silent by no means; loud in the uncertainty
you walk this earth
knowing the dull ache
which life sometimes brings
accustomed to the serene scenes
that would quickly be overcome
as the bandage slips off
submerged in water; drowning.

wearing the exit wounds
revealing the gaping gashes
inflicted by the ones
you claimed to love
but these fair-weathered entities
never seemed to keep their promises.

they never cared to change
why would they?
they're not like you and i
they're just a candle in the wind
slowly burning out
we're just getting brighter.

#life #love #sad

Sophia Nov 2020

For V.

a raincloud sits above my head
from time to time
i find it hard to brave these dismal skies.

but then you come along,
as you do.

with a light behind your eyes
a fire in your soul
and you build me up
so much so,
i no longer feel small.

my greatest friend,
that is why
when the going gets tough
and the world caves in
you come along,
as you do
and then i remember
what it means to feel loved.

#love #friendship #support #happy #bestfriend