So tired of thinking i
m not good enough
So tired of thing im better off somewhere else
so tired of thinking people will never understand me
So tired of being used
So tired of wanting to be expected
but as i say thing that girl got tired and she became something she do not think would happen she became a warrior

Happy Anniversary to my husband
Happy Anniversary
My hero
My lover
My soulmate
My lifeline
My world
My everything
My problem solver
I love you more then you know
I love you more the yesterday
I love you more then the other day
I love you more then Fridays
My partner in crime
My ride or die
My Clyde to my Bonnie
My shoulder to cry on
My shoulder to talk to
My massager when I’m in pain
I love you
Happy Anniversary
Here’s to 3 yrs and many many many many more
Love your wife Tina

Emeny do not fear me
Emeny do not talk of me
Emeny do not fight with me
Emeny do not rebuild friendship
Emeny do not love me
Emeny do not hate me
Emeny do not knock me down
Emeny do not speak of words
Emeny do not explain differences
Emeny do not touch me
Emeny just go away

While the town is a sleep
You stay awake at night
Not knowing why
You try to think
You try to sleep
Nothing working
Counting sheep
Please let me sleep
Talkin to you might help me sleep
You ask the sandman for his help
Hes trys but you  still cant sleep
Laying playing the waiting game
Try counting sheep again
This time your half a sleep
Time goes by
By and by
Its daylight
You finally getting your  some sleep
Now the town is a wake

Eat your heart out  boys
They look but cant not touch
They want
They dream
They talk
They stare
They whine
They try
They can all they want but will never happen
They may pray
But eat heart your out boys
I'm his

you know what hurts

You know what hurts feeling forgotten in a world full moons and stars
You know what hurts feeling like sun only shines on the ones who see it but not need it
You know what hurts crying waiting for a reason why an takes you days to figure out why
You know what hurts waiting to talk but dont want to make people think
You know what hurts walking and crying and running until you cant breathe
You know what hurts laying in bed wishing
You know what hurts when you can't tell if your feeling anymore or just want to cry
Days
Nights go by
You know what hurts I do

walking bam im there  
talking bam i'm there
standing bam im there
sitting bam im there
laying bam i'm there
sleeping bam i'm there
these are the things  i will be there for when you need me
dark hours bam im there
drinking bam im there
crying bam i'm there
i need you bam im there
theses are the things i will be there for when you need me
love bam i'm there
crying bam im there
theses are the things  i will be there for when you need me
bam

Tears of love ones gone
Tears of death
Tears of sadness
Tears of heart break over and over again
Tears of crying in the rain
Tears of secret's upon your lips
Tears of broken dreams
Tears of unspoken words
Tears of silence
Tears of blame
Tears of for a smile
Tears of pain
Tears of hopeful
Tears of love
Tears of happiness

The mask you wear said a lot about you
It can say
im scared to show you the real me for you may not like what you see
The mask can hide your feeling for people who  do not understand
The mask can help to find yourself while looking for yourself
When you find someone wearing a mask let them take it off and show you the person they are  the world is full of fakes and snakes
so take off your mask

A Burning Flame
A woman met a man
they seem to drawn to each other
it seem as if their insance energy would long for naked love
Not knowing where they were going they decided to shut the box of feelings
resting themselves for hurt
A man met the same woman
now it seems like everything is going but would society keep all this and that underneath
their bones are shattering not knowing
river keep flowing
frogs keep crocing
colour  keep changing
wait until my next poem to see if they held on for sparks to burn

hidden but i return
got caught in the game
shadows following telling stories of long ago
chose to distance myself
but desire caught me
and now  won't let it  go

I am me
There is no other like me
Why would there be
I sometimes cry
I sometimes laugh
I sometimes can be loveable
I sometimes can be caring
I m sometimes  even sleepy
At some point can be cranky
I’m sometimes not a morning person
Oh who I’m kidding
I’m not a morning person
I have diabetes anxiety and depression
I’m a mother , wife , daughter , aunt and a best friend
I have haters jealousy and greed
I love pink , purple and blue
I love summer and sometimes spring
I hate winter and even fall
I love horror , comedy ,  mystery and Jesus too
With all of this makes me BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT
I am me

Angel on my shoulder I'm here
Devil on my shoukder I'm here
Angel on my shoulder I love you
Devil on my shoulder I love you
Angel on my shoulder cry if need to
Devil on my shoulder cry cry cry no one cares
Angel on my shoulder u mean the world to me
Devil on my shoulder dont believe that crap
Angel on my shoulder I do care that's why I'm here
Devil on my shoulder jump
Angel on my shoulder noooo
Devil on my shoulder yes
Angle on my shoulder let me hold u dear
Devil on my shoulder there never here
Angle on my shoulder I will not leave you
Devil on my shoulder I will not leave you
Angel on my shoulder I need you
Devil on my shoulder I need you.

The prefect couple
We were lonley
We were hurting
We were dreaming
We were thinking
We were talking
We were hoping
We were laughing
Then one day God said they would make the prefect couple so he made things happen so we would meet
And we were hanging out
And we were talking
And we were laughing
And we are happy
We are in love with each other
We do anything for each other
People want to say stuff cause they are jealous
We are bonnie and Clyde

Iam the girl who's there for people
Iam also the girl who faces many things alone
Iam the girl who needs you but there's no one to be found
Iam the girl who wants to talk but no one around
Iam the girl who wants to be free but never could be
Iam the girl who loves to sleep for it only thing that doesn't leave
Iam the girl who wants to break free from this world
Iam the girl who demons are in her closet
Iam the girl who sit alone
Iam the girl who's lonely
Lonely girl Iam

Poem by me
When
When you talk
When you walk
When you sleep
When you cry
When you hold me
When you dance
When you smile
When you write
When you read
When you look at me I feel all warm insdie
You make me feel there's nothing I cant do and that makes me happy I'll never want to cry

Shy girl

Hiding behide a smile
Thinking of what to say
Not sounding like a fool
Finding time to run a hide
Doesnt know what to say
Doesnt know what to think
Doesnt know what to do
Feeling down
Feeling used
Crying insdie
Why cant you see
What cant you make time
Driving insane
Virtually world
Dreaming of you
Caring
Loving
Shy girl hi

Dark night
Dark out
Cold wind
Snowing
Moon out
Stars out
Silence
Only hearing my foot steps
Seeing nothing
But only my breathe
Roads are long way home
Cold dark nights
Tina lombardo

i use to feel happy
i use to feel sad
i use to feel altogether
i use to feel  all alone
i use to feel loved
i use to feel lonely
i use to feel here
i use to feel there
i use to feel gone
i use to feel forgotten
i use to feel aloud
i use feel quite
i use to feel safe
i use to feel everything now
i feel nothing

I close my eyes to the world for no one wants to understand me
I close my eyes to the world  for no one wants me around
I close my eyes to the world for no one want needs me
I close my eyes to the world for no one see me laying down looking up at the moon and the stars
i close my eyes to the world for on one takes time to say what needs to be said
I close my eyes to the world for no one has tame me
I close my eyes to the world  for no one can take down my wall
I close my eyes to the world for no one can hurt me
I close my eyes to the world for no one will ever be true
I close my eyes to the world

girl sitting alone on a bench thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl crying alone on a bench thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl walking alone thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl standing having a smoking and thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl feeling nothing but pain
girl seeing nothing but hurt
girl seeing nothing but tears
but she didn't know that she wasn't alone
she had her angel beside her whispering beautiful things in her ear

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU
THREE YEARS TOGETHER
I LOVE YOU
SEVEN MONTHS MARRIED
I LOVE YOU
ON SAD DAYS
I LOVE YOU
EVERY MORNING ,NOON AND NIGHT
I LOVE YOU

love is fear
love felt
love is in the air
love desires
love saves
love warms the heart  
love changes
love  is hidden
love choose
love forever

BUNCH OF RANDOM WORDS

PEN TO WRITE POETRY
HISTORY TO LEARN
HISTORY TO KNOW
CANLANDER TO DATE
CANLANDER TO TIME
TV TO WATCH
TV TO WASTE TIME
CHAIR TO RELAX
CHAIR TO UNREWIND
MONEY TO SPEND
MONEY TO HIDE
MONEY TO HOLD
PINK IS FAVORITE
PINK TO BE SPECIAL
BED TO SLEEP
BED TO MAKE LOVE
BED TO CRY
MAKE UP TO WEAR
MAKE UP TO HIDE
MASK TO COVER UP
MASK TO HIDE YOUR EYES
BLUE TO CRY

Word of mind

I have alot of words running through my mind
They wait to be heard
They wait to be listened
They wait to be loved
They wait to be sad
They wait to be angry
They wait for something to happen
What esel can  I say
Need to make room for new ones
My mind is full

LIFE
YOUR BORN
MEET YOUR FAMILY
BECOME FRIENDS
TO HAVE CHILDREN
WORK FOR MONEY
LOVE MARRIAGE
FEEL HEARTACE
SAD SOMETIMES
ALWAYS HAPPY
STURGGLE TO HATE
DEATH IN TIME

I dont wanna feel

I dont wanna feel it
I dont wanna see it
I dont wanna know it
I dont wanna talk it
I dont wanna say it
Just wanna sleep
Just wanna sleep
Just wanna sleep
Numbs it for a while
Maybe numb it for good
Days and nights
I dont want feelings
I wanna be nothing

barely breathing
barely smiling
barely sleeping
barely feeling
barely talking
barely thinking
barely eating
barely holding on
but when i see you
i'm skanking with butterflies
i'm nervous
i feel  like crying
lord help me prove
unervial help me prove
nature help me prove
how dumb are you
why cant you see
this time your barely

Dear Teddy
I thank you for always being there for me
Dear Teddy
At first you didn't like me but i won your heart with beef jerky
Dear Teddy
You seen me crying
You licked my tears away
You saw me sad
You help me through bad times
You saw me happy
Everytime i see you wailing your tail and happy to see me always made me happy
Dear Teddy
I will remember all the good times
Dear Teddy
I will remember you as my sweet little teddy bear
Dear Teddy
I cry for you
Dear Teddy
I miss you
Dear Teddy
I know you're with me every day
Dear Teddy
Just know you mean the world to me
My weird little best friend
Rip king ted
Rip teddy bear
Rip buddy
Rip Theodore
Rip tedchiekins

FAT
YOUR UGLY
YOUR BEAUTIFUL
YOUR CRYING
YOUR SMILING
YOUR SAD
YOUR HAPPY
YOUR DEPRESSED YOUR PAIN
YOUR NME CALLING BULLY
YOURHIDING TO STAY INSIDE
YOUR BREAKE UP
YOUR REALSHIP
YOUR ANXIETY
YOUR PILLS TO HIDE

The stars shine so bright for everyone to see
The stars are so small but yet everyone can see
the stars always there listening ing as you talk
The stars see what you do when no one else is watching  and he tells the moon
The moon shines so bright when it wants to give light
The moon knows all your secrets
The moon and the stars share a bond that no one understands
The moon can help when you are lost or need a friend
The moon is alway watching and following you as you walk down a path
The moon gives light when darkness wants to stay around
so when the moon and the stars are out give thanks for they know all your secrets and will never tell them at night .

I felt pain everyday
Lost is what it is
I thought  I would be great
Keep trying why ?
Remember when I felt great
I free my time
Stay dark at night
Happy what is that
Fear what I can not control
Sweet loving pie

Pain
No one know this
No one own this
No one loves it
No one wants it
No one sees it
But everyone wants to share it
But everyone wants to talk about it
Sad
Happy.
Crying
There a comes a time when you have to let it go
All of the above.

I m like caged animal  wanted to be free like the rest of my people but i can not cause i dont have the key so i sit here waiting for the day the zoo keeper forgets to lock my cage door and then i can run away and free as the birds seem to be.

Tears in heaven

I cried when I found out
You cried when you found out
I wonder why when I found out
You wonder why when I found out
I think of you every day
You think of me every day
I try to hold myself together
You tried to hold yourself together
I know your never far as always near
You know I'm never far I'm always near
I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye
You couldn't bring yourself to say goodbye
I wish you were here
You wish I was here
I Cry sometimes
You cry sometimes
But together we r alive

i find myself thinking of you
i find myself dreaming of you
i find myself talking to you
i find myself crying for you
i find myself wishing of you
i find myself wondering about you
i find myself going crazy over you
why why why
do i feel this way i never wanted to
i don't want to feel anything but i do
i know  you don't about me but a girl can wish
i wish you cared
i wish you would
i wish you lay next to me
i wish you look at the moon with me and the stars too

Do not know this

I walk with you
I talk with you
I hold with you
But you do not know this
I cry with you
I sit with you
I stand with you
But you do not know this
I lay with you
I sit with you
I'm here or there with you
But you know do not know this
I do not let you know this for you will cry if you ever knew
But I'm here watching you .

Words mean nothing
Words are lies to hide
Words go from time to time
Words can only go so far before they die
So why we do cry
We try and we try  to believe at that time
Vribes when you are around dont lie
They dont hide
They stay around from time to time
Never having questioning it
will never die
Vribes know each other even when you dont want to
Engery is everything
Engery is what two people have
can lie all you want it will not hide.

MEMORIES

PICTURES
TIME
LOVE
HATE
PAIN
EMOTIONS
HAPPY
SAD
ANGERY
­SPENDING
SLIENCE
DANCE
HOME
FAMILY
FRIENDS
WEDDING
FURNAL
BIRTH
D­EATH

i accept you for you
accept what you do
i accept holding you
i don't want to lose you
but do you know
sad
mad
sad
mad
sad
miss talking to you
trusting isn't so easily to do
wondering why you changed your mind
i think you are perfect all the time
i think your fine
i think .....

iam happy
iam fine
im ok
bad lair
i got you
i have you
i feel you
bad liar
i hope
i wish
i pray
bad liar
i hold you
i love
i care
bad liar
i sleep
i cry
i walk
bad lair.

Red coats
First one personal
Second one coincidental
Third one
Fourth one
Fifth one
Sixth one
Seventh one
Eighth one
Nineth one
Tenth one
Seeing red coats everywhere
Red coats are taking over
When will the pink ones start

Doesnt matter
The size you wear
The size you are
The colour of your skin
The colour of your hair
The colour of your eyes
The way you talk
The way you walk
The way you hear
The way you see
The way you love
The way you cry
The way you sleep
They way you live
They way you are sick
How much money you have
Or even they way you died
Only thing different is that when we bleed the blood is one colour red.

change your face
change your attitude
change your style
change your type
change your heart
change your hair
change your feelings
change it all
maybe once you do time will change to
people will understand why
could not take a long time
be patient to rise
crying is not a crime
holding on
go a head post it
go all out or chill out
nothing you do is a crime
cant stand it
then change it
and effect it all

When I get lonely
When  I get happy
When I can sleep
When I am a wake
When I get sad
When I cry
When I get short of breathe
When i walk
When I run
When I sit
When I stand
When I talk
When I'm quite
I think of you

Ready
I'm feeling short
I'm hoping
For no weak heart
I rise from darkness
I share my scars
Breezing above
Looking for comfort
Gold is my name
Book my time?

I'm always Right

I'm never wrong im always right
every time i speak its like i know
days go by and finding out
im never wrong i'm  always right
i speak few listen and wishing that they did
i'm never wrong im always right
tattooed it proudly
days or nights
i 'm never wrong i'm always right

my heart loses hours
for pretty desires
i long for a pretty soul
was inside my head wants to shine higher than the clouds
met the right soul was is ending
only for us to love forever
and dying at peace because for there is no more war

you know your connected to someone when you feel them when they are not around
you know your connected to someone when you can tell how they are feeling without knowing
you know your connected to someone when you can dream bout them
you know your connected to someone when you can think of them on any random day
you know your connected to someone when you can think of them on any random night
you know your connected to someone when you have a gut feeling that it's true
you know your connected to someone when well you just know

Don't let the darkness take you to far learn to control your demons before your demons learn to control you