my heart loses hours
for pretty desires
i long for a pretty soul
was inside my head wants to shine higher than the clouds
met the right soul was is ending
only for us to love forever
and dying at peace because for there is no more war

here
here
never far
Which makes me good
You use
You lie
You probably even steal
Take for granted all that does
run with the wind
Hide from the rain
Walked the streets with low self support
An wonder why no one cares
Take a deep breath
And go your own way
Time will tell what you need to hear
But no one will be there or near.

Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone
Wall painted with colours
Wall wants to come down but won't
Wall needs new wall
Wall runs for miles with out stopping for air
Wall not what you want but what you get to feel safe
Wall time heals from scars
Wall can be beautiful when need be
Wall can come down when the time is right
Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone .

how do i say this without sounding foolish
how do i do this without sounding foolish
how do i know without sounding foolish
how ?
i know i can say
i know i can do it
i know i can
but how ?
your like a tree looking for water
your like the birds looking for shelter
your like rain when it comes down
your the sun
your the moon
but again how?
i will sit here thinking until it drives nuts
but i'll sleep and maybe i won't
show me the way so ill know how

My love for you has no eyes to cry
My love for you has dreams
My love for you has joy
My love for you has no secrets
My love for you  never fades away
My love for you holds key to my heart
My love for you will never died
My love for you kisses ours souls
My love for you is aware of time
My love for you reached the clouds
My love for you will live on even when I died

Ready
I'm feeling short
I'm hoping
For no weak heart
I rise from darkness
I share my scars
Breezing above
Looking for comfort
Gold is my name
Book my time?

I'm always Right

I'm never wrong im always right
every time i speak its like i know
days go by and finding out
im never wrong i'm  always right
i speak few listen and wishing that they did
i'm never wrong im always right
tattooed it proudly
days or nights
i 'm never wrong i'm always right

Fall
Poem by me
Face so cold
Best to stay inside for the moment
Beath Deeply
Realizeing the days are longer
The nights are shorter
Watch as it rains
Finally a reason for all this waiting with every full touch and red blood boiling
Reality seeking in
That fall is soon over

time has no dated
a kiss holds love
a cry speaks
eyes tell stories
clouds make rain
joy brings laughter
love brings happiness
souls bring married
a mirror faces many masks
mind hold the key to hearts
secrets ruin lives
a mess is what you fix
emotions is what you have
history is what makes you
a key holds a dream
a heart holds love, and pain
someday things will happen with in your control or not
faded is what happens when people forget you over time
aware of your feeling
dull can't be helped
chains can be broken
silences is just silence but can break you down

Christmas

Joyful
Sadful
Spirts vist
A time to come together
Love ones near and far
Lights are shining
Tree's are present
Food is cooking
now time for presents
Dont believe that is just for presents
This is your life and hope of dozens
The Grinch is watching
waiting to make his move but never touching so with that said Merry Christmas

Right now someone crying
Right now someone laughing
Right now someone sad
Right now someone happy
Right now someone dieing
Right now someone giving birth
Right now someone homeless
Right now someone working
Right now someone hungry
Right now someone eating
Right now someone sleeping
Right now someone a wake
Right now someone dealt
Right now someone on the phone
Right now someone driving
Right now someone losing time
Right now someone making memories
Right now someone lonely
Right now someone celebrate a birthday
Right now someone thinking
Right now someone talking
Right now someone...

girl sitting on bench by herself
girl sleeping by herself
girl walking by herself
girl talking by herself
girl laying by herself
girl watching herself
girl looking by herself
girl thinking by herself
girl loving by herself
girl dieing by herself

Charles Lee Ray is finally dead...
don't need him as a handle anymore...
it was always in my head....
I am not scared anymore...
I don't need a ****** to protect me from the monsters...
under my bed...
when I am really scared...
there is a near by shed...
where I am just as welcome...
as my brother Ted.

i was born in 1982
i was lonely childhood
i was lonely high school years
i was lonely child
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was in loved with the wrong one
i was lonely
i was a mother
i was called names
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was in loved again
i was beaten
i was lonely
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was happy
i was sad
i was angry
i was happy again
i was sad again
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982
i was happy yet again
i was sad so sad again
can't seem to get out of it i just wanna died
i was happy again
i was sader again
i was lost so lost
i was happy happy happy
now im ..........
i was born in 1982
i was born in 1982

i love you happy birthday
you came when i wasn't looking
you came when i was feeling lost
you came when i needed you
you came when i couldn't love myself
you came when you were losted
you came when the timing was right
i wouldn't change a thing
i will not leave you for another
love is real
we found each other when  we both didn't know it
you make me happy
you love me
i love you
you protect me
i protect you
you may be younger than me but doesn't matter you'll all i need
hope you have wonderful birthday
loves alots
happy birthday

Good girl

I am smart
I am petty
I am loyal
I am trustworthy
I am good listener
I'am caring
Iam loveable
I am honest
I'm a good girl

In darkness you feel almost alive for no one can see your pain
but in the light you can see your pain but for no one can see your alive.

A woman's cry
Found someone to love maybe for a long time
Everything looking fine
One day changed
Loving hands put marks are you
Makes you wanna cry
So you forgive for other try
Few months go by
Loving hands leave marks
You sit and cry thing why
You finally had enough
So you leave without saying goodbye
Years go by
So you give other try
Same thing came a rise
Trying to **** you out for a time
Making you less of a woman
Calling you names out of angry
Your wondering why
Now this time you fight back
But  you never died
You want to cry
People controlled it
You lived it
You felt it
You wont do that again
So again you leave but this time you say goodbye

I loved you before I met you
I loved you before I seen you
I loved you before I loved myself
I loved you when you said I love you
I loved you when we said I do
I loved you then and still do
I love you

I love you
I was lost and unloved
I was crying at night
I was crying in day
I was felted left behind
The longer I wanted the longer I hide
Sun shine
It rained
My Heart didn't wanna
The one day I found you
And my life changed
You make me smile
You make me laugh
You make me happy
You made me live again
You make me safe
You make me beautiful even when I wanna cry
I love you until the day I die.

Love has no time
A heart has no time
Life has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die
The sun shines
The rain does fall
Beauty is showed in random places
Fire burns longer then the sun shines
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for the living
Arms hold tight
Feet walked far
But love has no time
A heart has no time
A lie has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die

You know what I'm thinking about me too
I'm not sure when you cry
But you do know that you are going to be founded by me
I want you to know that
You dont have to go
Stay with me for a long time
I can promise you this I will never forget u
I found out that I was there when you cry
I'm not going anywheres

good for those who loved this time of year and want to celebrate it
the tree is up
the lights are up
the gifts are wrapped
the food is cooking
the drinks are flowing
the pets are sleeping
the family is talking
the friends are visiting
the snow is falling
the stores are closing  
the weather is freezing
time of year to be happy  
this time of year is when you don't want to celebrate it wants to be alone
the tree is nowhere to be found
the lights aren't up
no gifts wanted
no food cooking  
maybe some drinks
the pets are there for you
the family not around
the friends not talking
the snow is here
the stores are closed
the weather is  making it hard for you
time of year to be depressed

Happy birthday to my Holly
Happy birthday to my best friend
Happy birthday to my sister form another mother
Happy birthday Holly
Happy birthday to my maid of honour at my wedding
Happy birthday I love you
Happy birthday hope you have a wonderful day and night
Happy birthday to my Holly
Love you

I write for it brings me peace
I write for it has no time
I write to be happy
I write to he sad
I write to tell
I write an write
I dont need a reason
Its none of business
I keep to myself
I feel no rush
I want it go away
I can pretend so well
I maybe a actress you will never tell
I lie to cover your feeling
I lie to cover your wants and needs
I want to sleep and let it all come out in my dreams.

on a october day the wind was blowing
and leaves were falling down off the trees.
all different colours , some were red yellow and orange
as the leaves were falling down they were coming down in a wave like motion
the leaves covered the ground couldnt even see the stones that were on the ground

day time put  on a show
day time make them laugh
day time make them talk
day time run around
day time sleep
switch
night time alone
night time sad
night time lonely
night time no one around
night time sleep for now

Darkness
Days go by
Nights come and go
Wanting to stay in bed
Wanting to sleep
Wanting to feel again
Wanting nothing from no one
Wanting nothing but to be hold
Wanting someone tell I'm not worthless
Dreaming of you like a fool
Dreaming of a life that will always be a dream
When crying no one around
Cutting was my only way out
I can do better
I know I ******* can
Why why why
Why do my demons want to play now
Angles fighting for me but my demons are winning.

my sweet angel girl
my heart
i miss you
i miss your laugh
i miss your jokes
i miss your smile
my sweet little girl
when i'm upset i think of you
your my sweet baby girl

Because Jesus lived I …
Am forgiven
Have hope
Can face tomorrow
Am made new
Can love freely
Have peace in my heart
Am not afraid
Can trust god’s plan
Am alive in Christ
Have a future
Am set free
Have strength to carry on
Know I am loved
Am a child of god
Have a purpose
Can forgive others
Am no longer defined by my past
Belong
Can rejoice
Can walk in freedom
Am healed
Can live without shame
Can face my fears
Can live with joy
Am being transformed

The air is cool
The sun is out
The night is near
The people are walking
The cars are driving.
The campers are booking
The aminals are out
The waterfall is beautiful
The time is momerable
The dogs are barking
Oh look summer is coming

Random thoughts

Random house cross country is it really good
Why must people will be so sad
Time for sleep in a bit
I dont have the time
Where are we
Night to day
Day to night
Moonlight is a great way to love you
Morning will be fine for you but not me
I cant remember when we were talkin bout him
Just know that you are not going anywheres
Laying down watching a little girl who would love to see her dad
Spirits are the same as yesterday
The wait until he comes bck to her
But you do not have to go
Sadly I think so.

Days go by I sit I stand I lay
Days go by I talk im quite
Days go by I hurt I'm sad
Days go by I cry I laugh
Days go by I wonder I know
Days go by I sleep iam a wake
Days go by I eat I don't
Days go by I play I don't
Days go by I wish I don't
Days go by I want to live I don't
Days go by I feel like I should run away I don't
Days go by and I say love is true but it's not
Days go by days go by.

My teddy bear

Hes strong
Hes funny
Hes so so werid
Hes my protector
Hes my friend
Hes my life
Hes my world
Wouldn't change anything about him
Even if time stand still
He can be annoying at times
He can be lazy from time to time
I love him
Hes my little teddy bear

They say there ways light at the end of the tunnel sometimes  i feel like i see the darkness more than the light but when i sit an think about it the light its always there to guide you through the darkness and you don't feel afraid no more

ou are...

My sunshine when it's rain...
My cure when I feel pain...

I'm the bus...
You are the plane.

You are...

the clean when I am dirt...
my shoulder when I hurt...

I'm the ****...
You are the squirt.

You are...

summer in the winter...
You are a needle when I have a splinter...

I am the ink...
You are the Printer.

You are...

Spring when it pours...
umbrella for my sores...

I may have a key to open the stores....
You can prevent the wars.

You are...

A dragon to my fairy...
when I am with you life ain't so scary...

I my have to pray to the ****** Mary...
to keep you...

don't wan't **** to get hairy.

You are...

everything to me...
everything i think about...
everything I dream about...

i will love you forever...
long after I'm dead....
forever.

thanks for loving me. <3

love was in the air for us
love placed us
love was showing fear but hidden
under was love for us
our love is warm no change in that
mind set right forever
until our dying day

lonely but not
sad but not
happy but not
glad but not
love but not
hopeful but not
sleep but not
life but not
death but not
thoughts but not
talking but not
angry but not
bad but not
good but not

A smoker will smoke a cigarette
A smoker will smoke ****
A smoker will smoke what they find weather its  clean or *****
A smoker will enjoy the taste
  A smoker will smoke for anxiety , depressed , sad and nervous
sometimes even when happy
A Smoker doesn't care if they cause a fight their nicotine is their fight
  I have no idea why I wrote this poem it just pop in my head .

I wish heaven had visiting hours
I wish heaven had a bench
I wish heaven had a phone
I wish heaven had visiting hours so I could visited for hours
I wish heaven had a bench so I could sit with you for hours
I wish heaven had a phone so I could talk to you for hours just to hear your voice
I wish I had more time
I wish god would turn back hands of time.
I just wish....

i watch you walk
i watch you talk
i watch you listen
i watch you sit
i watch you  just being you
i don't know why i do the things  i do just to watch you
but all i know is i could never leave its like a drug and drink just for awhile you feel nothing but then when its gone you feel unwanted so i watch as you do the things you do just know ill never leave you all lone.

A face so beautiful
Look in the mirror
Skin so nice
Tears run down
Weak heart cuts
Voice wants to stop
Scars are remind
Stood in distances
Catch a simple kiss
The touch of taste.

Will you remember me when I'm gone
Will you remember me when I'm a live
Will you remember me when I was there for you
Will you remember me when the sun goes down
Will you remember me when moon shines
Will you remember me like the flowers do
Wi ll you remember me like the animals do
Will you remember me like  my Angel's do
Will you remember me like my demons do
Will you remember me like rain does
Will you remember me like my tears do
Will you remember me at all

A poem I wrote
You came to me in a dream I did not you it was you
More and more each day goes by your what I need
Rumours flaming
Iditos dancing
Jealously is ugly world
More and more is spended with you I'm always happy
I'm never sad I'm always glad
You're near but never far
I wouldn't trade you  for anything
Wouldn't want to
Being with you changed my life
A loving hand to hold
A loving heart to know
Cuddling
Sleeping I dream
Throught the days
Throught the nights
I love you
Tina lombardo

behind these brown eyes there tears that fall almost every night
behind this smile is tears that fall almost every night
behind theses brown eyes is pain no one knows about
behind this smile there is pain no more no ones about
behind these brown eyes is a world no one knows about
behind this smile is a world no one knows about
behind these brown eyes is soul that wants nothing but to shine
behind this smile is a soul that wants nothing but to shine
as i sleep i dream
as i sleep i think
as i sleep i feel no pain
as i sleep i see no tears
as i sleep all i see is nothing

FAT
YOUR UGUY
YOUR BEAITHFUL
YOUR CRYNG
YOUR SMLING
YOUR SAD
YOUR HAPPY
YOUR DEPRESSED
NAME CALLING
BEING BULLIED
YOUR HIDING
WANTING TO STAY INSIDE
YOUR ANXIETY  WAKENS
YOU TRY PILLS TO LOSE THE WEIGHT
JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE ALONE
FOR IAM TO A BIGGER WOMAN WHO DEALS WITH THESE THINGS ALL THE TIME

depresstons is not something someone can talk about
but someone wants to listen
depression is not something that everyone has
but everyone wants to get rid of
depression is not something someone can get rid of so easily
try to go for help  
depression is not something someone can pass down
smile and everything will be okay
depression is not something that wants to stay but does
smile and everything will be okay
depression is not something that stays away
take pills
depressions is not something  that people want
but do
depression is not something you  say
but you do
depression is not something you want to live with
but some do
depression  kills kills kills

If heaven had a place where i could go to visit you i would go in heartbeat
just to hold you again
to talk to you again
to kiss you again
to hug you again
to say i love you again
so i'll just sit here staring up at the sky knowing that  one day i'll see you again.

I see things
I feel things
I know things
No one listens to me
No one hears me
I see things
I feel things
I know things
Going somewhere
Siting somewhere
I see things
I feel things
I know things
Laying somewhere in bed of flowers
No time to cry
I see things
I feel things
I know things

IF I WERE IN CHARGE THE WROLD
if I were in charge of the world
I'd cancel homeless
I'd cancel hungriness'
I'd even cancel ****
if I were in charge of the world
there would be money every where
there would happiness around the world
there would even be free food every day
if I were in charge of the world
you wouldn't have to steal to survive
you wouldn't have to died
you wouldn't have to cry all the time or wonder why
if I were in charge of the world
a person who is loved
and sometimes tries
would still be allowed to be in charge of the world