My apologies leave a dry throat with a sting
Another and another fall from a limp jaw
Another from pale lips
And again from bleeding wrists
My apologies are written in blood
And spilling from one last kiss
Soaking into your skin
Sinking through the surface
And my apologies burst from my skull  as the bullet shatters my bone
And regret splatters across the wall
Written in blood is nothing but
**"I'm sorry"

I promise
The only heaven you'll see is
The endless nothing
Of the coffin I put you in.
I promise
You'll be glad to go because the hell I'll give you is the closest to salvation you'll ever come.
I promise
I'll take my damnation with a smile because anything is better than
Living with my life in your hands.
I promise
Your God can't save you now
Because you're already in hell.
Believe me, I lived it too.
I promise
You'll never escape
The burn of my eyes
Or the stings of my hands
Ripping your heart to shreds,
I'm going to hell,
But none of this was in vain,
It's simply what you deserve,
I promise*.

There are no words to explain,
Exactly how you look,
When I can finally see the pain
Lift from your eyes
And there is no way to describe
The feeling I get when you look into mine.
Your flawless warmth radiating through my frozen body, I can feel the smile spread from my lips
To my heart,
Opening my lungs with the melancholy joy you fill me with.
You're perfection that is much too beautiful to walk this earth,
And I'm sorry you must bear the pain that comes with it,
And I'm sorry you've fallen for me,
That you've fallen for a mess.
I'm a joke, I'm garbage, I'm a wasteland,
But though I'm a mess,
I am a mess that loves you like no other mess could,
And there are no words to describe
How I am not sorry
That I have fallen for you.