I now know the truth,
the lie that festered in my mind,
brought to light through my eye,
that life is full of nigh,
of questions which remain unanswered,
and prayers with no reply

A life which lacks accommodation,
that thirsts for chaos and causation,
the universe with no remorse,
feeds happily on our life force,
we reach out for succour yet are met with not an utter

The nature of the world we know stays messy and obscure,
we endure the daily war of terror and eyesore,
searching for an inner peace we know we cannot reach

And unfortunately for me,
there is no escape from what you come to know

Don't go to the bathroom.
Don't grab the scissors.
You'll be a disappointment.
You said to yourself that you're done with depression.
Like I can control it.
What was I thinking.
Blood dripping
Tears falling
Looking at the sun going down just like my happiness.