As I watch you walk away I feel my heart break into as many pieces as there are stars in the sky. I feel the color drain from my face draining from my soul. Color fades from my world. I embrace the monochromatic prison of my life. Only to long for a glimpse of color. I find it in drops of crimson as I write my pain across my skin. I like how the blade dances glinting as it glides across it’s canvas. I’ve written a novel of sorrow each chapter longer than the last. I write of my sorrows not only from you but the pain that you helped me carry now weighing me down like a shackle. I write as an escape from my prison of black and white. I smile as I pick up my pen to write the final chapter of my master piece. I cry because I can’t find the right words to end with. So I sit staring at my empty cage yearning for escape clutching the key but fearing the freedom.

I loved a girl with the moon and the stars that shone in her eyes. She could smile her way into my heart. Her kindness took me by surprise. I didn’t know where to start. So we started with lies. I drove us apart. I didn’t think she’d see through my disguise. she broke my heart. But I can’t stop loving her eyes.

We haven't met yet
but some nights I can't sleep without
wishing for your embrace
gentle hands on my body
easing my aches softly

I'll here your whisper
when I'm on the brink of waking
and my heart will race
thinking you're next to me
waiting for those precious moments
where it's only us.

I miss you
I don't talk to you anymore death
I've stopped cutting
I stopped looking for an out
But I can't stop missing you

I think I love the hurt that comes with
Long-Distance
or
Rushing relationships
or
Losing friends
or
breaking hearts
or
thinking about you.

I love you,
My one and only.

As I lay here questioning anything and everything I long for your embrace. Because if I fall to pieces tonight no one will be here to put me back together again. When you held me in your arms you unconsciously held me together. As I sleep I’m afraid that a peice of me might slip away. Leaving me wide awake stareing at the ceiling like the void. I know that if I close my eyes and let go into that blissful fog of sleep. That I might just let go entirely and plummet into the etirnal darkness of oblivion. Oh how peaceful that sounds.

The night fades and light sneaks into the sky. Slowly creeping, sneaking into the cracks of the world. Waking it with  its warmth. Bright hands reaching out to greet the earth in a brand new day. Softly shaking the world awake. Greeted by blinking eyes and yawning mouths. Slowly the day fully emerges cradling everything with open hands.

You?

If you could be someone else
And face the day a new
Would you still dislike yourself
Or be a perfect you
If you could change who you are
To be all that you dreamed
Would it actually satisfy
And be all that it seemed
Perhaps we should accept ourselves
Instead of trying to change
Laugh and smile as who you are
And not just rearrange