How pretty she is
To grow from seed
To sprout from the dirt
Into vines that bloom
And bare sweet fruit

Salicylic acids, tannins and defenses
Utilizing the rhizosphere
That’s surrounded her since birth
To blossom; to bloom
Into something she is proud of

With no one to tend to this loving seed,
Herself has created a life,
Unbothered by invasive weeds

How thankful I am
To tend to her, to know her, to love her
No longer she has to produce those defenses
As I am tending to the blossoms
So that they may bloom, and bare tasty fruit
Without fear
No invasive creatures will ever
Haunt her roots again

Endlessly and powerfully
My love will always persist
My love will always exist;
That kind of love doesn’t go anywhere

When you cry for me
You do not cry because I’m not there
I’m always here, there is no place that far
That I wouldn’t run to to hold you
Even in death, I am always with you

When you miss me, you remember me
You search the valleys of your memories
Until you find me
That’s where I’ll be waiting for you
In visions I’ll comfort you

The taste in the air,
My arms wrapped around you
My kiss on your cheek
The wisps of your hair caressed by wind
My laugh in your ear as we share this moment
These details in your memory keep me alive
May they comfort you

Visit me anytime,
I will be right here
As you continue to live without me,
Do not live in fear
I taught you how to change the world
Go do it, just like you changed mine

A veil of fear
Floats around my face
Aimlessly
I was some starry eyed child
Never taught self control

The fear of aging
And living through this day in age
Consumes me
And wanders aimlessly
In my brain
But still seems to stop me in my tracks

The things I’ve done
Remind me not only
That I am imperfect
But that I am aging
Growing into a starry eyed woman
Who learned that she can change
Because when you stop growing
You are dead
And I am full of life
I have nothing but time

And even so
Even if this veil of fear
Floats around my face
There are things I can only
Learn with time
There are things that only
Come with age
And I am aging all the time
I am growing all the time

So in that time
I will throw the veil from off my face
I am not afraid to age
I am not afraid to change

Familiar sights, I'm covered in bites
and the ants crawl
and the night falls.
Spring comes, lights aspire
King set fires
October, the time of falling
Time has no meaning, it is tainted
and our lives are truly painted.

Haunted by ghosts of past lovers and lives
But she holds her hand in mine
And holding her now
While time seems to slow down
The sound of her snoring and deep breaths
Comforts the part of me
That I’m too afraid to dissect
I’m not afraid to show her who I am

Haunted by ghosts of past lovers and lives
Slowly we are forgetting the sins and
All the things we did to deal with these
Past lovers and lives

I was made for hopeless dedication, for love that feels like poetry. And it exists because I carry it with me. It's heavy and I can't put it down.

Why would I choose you?
And flatter yourself under my skin
With visions of
What you think I should worship you?
Why would I choose you?
You’d never know the words
***** poets do to you
You’re not the only one
Don’t flatter yourself
With something you can touch
But will never understand