Nsmith15: Poems

391 · Jun 2019

1/5/18

Nsmith15 Jun 2019

1/5/18

Laughing so hard it hurts,
     Climbing into cold sheets,
         Finding a new song,
           Hitting all the words to a rap,
               Swinging on the swing,

383 · May 2019

6:11pm

Nsmith15 May 2019

6:11pm

As idiotic humans we ruin everything we touch including each other...

381 · May 2019

MeanLess quote

Nsmith15 May 2019

MeanLess quote

“Tragedies and silence has the same
address”

356 · Mar 2019

Untitled

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Untitled

Wherever you are,
Whereas you go,
Always be sure to
Sparkley

Forgotten that this poster was on my wall.
To all you amazing writer

#love #the #sparkle #in #your #heart

312 · Apr 2019

Random post

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Random post

”be myself ”

Been telling myself that for
        E
            I
                G
                     H
                          T
Y
   E
A
      R
S
And it hasn't work.

What do you tell yourself to fit in?

306 · Jun 2019

Maama

Nsmith15 Jun 2019

Maama

Mama bore a girl with a gun for a year

Teeth dripping lead,

And lips bleeding red,

Lashes curled for war

tongue waxing lyrics

Of both beauty and battles

295 · May 2019

random quote

Nsmith15 May 2019

random quote

”But who could love me?
. When am out of my mind”

Love
Mental Illness

295 · Apr 2019

Random

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Random

The world is a crazy place but sometimes
Every now and then I feel different
From everyone else.

266 · May 2019

6:13pm

Nsmith15 May 2019

6:13pm

She wear black but her mind is colourful

257 · Mar 2019

Summertime

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Summertime

Summer,

I got your letters,
                           I hadn't taken you for granted or wasted the
                            the sunny days.
I never regretted
                            you being around
Just wish you
                             Stayed forever,
I have now an

                              Honey brown
Shade and the
                               Sharpest mind

Know to my tutor.


I embrace everything about where or what you're doing by making the college and school closed
            Now we're allowed to hang out with our lovers or ex.

Thanks, summer for making me have the opportunity to relax in my mini pool with 50 loud, drunken neighbour.
See you around   the next 3 month

Felt board,
All my friends are outside playing in the park while being stuck staring at the blank teddy bears

242 · Mar 2019

Tale 2 of mum and daughter

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Tale 2 of mum and daughter

Dear 8 years old me,

                 Sorry,
                        I fail you by not giving you
                          Hugs or storytimes

Sorry,
      For away fixing others when they never
    Said   thanks , your hand were shaking.
                     Sorry, for not letting you heal
       Sorry, for just letting you seal the wounds of someone else, while yours were
Bleeding.
                   There were days where I was smiling. So sorry for forcing you to make painful laughter just so that
       No on had to worry about us.

I'm sorry, for that sleepless night, when you cry to be let out....

I'm sorry i never gave you a chance
To tell yourself that you are beautiful
.                         That you are smart
                           That you are o

I miss my 8 year old me.....

Love yourself

234 · Apr 2019

Daddy don't understand love

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Daddy don't understand love

Daddy said love was all about red and white Rose, expensive dinner, ...

Truth is love is giving her half your fries when she wasn't hungry
Waking up a 4 pm, to her snoring and
Referring to shoving her off the bed.
Trying to embarrass one another, in public love, is full of stupid fright and tearful memories that make up for why I love her.
Love is just tiptoeing through life with your best friend

Random post

#stupid #fright

231 · May 2019

“eternity”

Nsmith15 May 2019

“eternity”

His
      heart
               Is
                   afraid to pursue love but
hidden in
                 a
                    moonless sky.

                 In search of “eternity”
                        his heart
                              discovers
                                            her.

227 · Jun 2019

10:32

Nsmith15 Jun 2019

10:32

I have a problem
  I don’t know how to fix it.


  Life is life but what about risks?

  I sometimes want to get hurt or die,
               Just to see if they will cry.

If people will care,
         or go on with their incomplete lives
               or if they will come clean away theirs lies.

          To say they’re sorry,
         to apologise,
            is something I don’t even think they would try.

             So what if I died?
        would you really care.

         The darkest secret
                hidden inside,
      may not be what I hide
            every night.

                     so remember this when you look to the sky,
              for I love you and I just wanted to say goodbye...

Sad unfixable

224 · Apr 2019

Messy quote

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Messy quote

Why cut yourself when you can be in

L O V E!!!

”oh yes love”

220 · Jun 2019

Pity your mask

Nsmith15 Jun 2019

Pity your mask

I might know the ending of my time,
but pity for you is all I’ve got, since I wake knowing that I’m dying, but you wake pretending that your not.

212 · Apr 2019

”your love is designed to be...

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

”your love is designed to be...

Your love is wild, Your love is wild for me
It isn't shy, It's unashamed
Your love is proud, to be seen with me
You don't give Your heart in pieces
You don't hide Yourself to tease us
Uncontrolled, uncontained
Your love is a fire, burning bright for me
It's not a spark, it's not just a flame
Your love is a light, that all the world will see
All the world will see
Your love's not fracture
It's not a troubled mind
It isn't anxious
It's not the restless kind
Your love's not passive
It's never disengaged
It's always present
It hangs…

Unconditional

203 · Apr 2019

Keep going

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Keep going

The ones who was or are STRUGGLING.
The ones whose days continue to be worse.
The ones who believe that they have lost
EVERYTHING.

I SAY
KEEP GOING

because I promise you not, that CHANGE is around the corner. Time always heals
                         FORGIVENESS will grow in the most TOUGHEST and DARKEST
                                       ENVIRONMENT.

Every Action has a CONSEQUENCE,
But there always a LESSON too.
          You shall look back on all these
MOMENTS and feel so PROUD
             Of yourself .

We made it THOUGH!!!!!

Look how far we have came

#struggle #worse #days

201 · May 2019

A.U.T.I.S.M

Nsmith15 May 2019

A.U.T.I.S.M

If am so smart and gifted with a wonderful mind...
  Then why do all the children run away
Why dose the adult whisper
  Why dose all the  sharp  leers feel like a
       Insult,
                  Is  it because of this confusing grimace

            Is it because of my flapping hands

Is it because of my indifference shadow
Am truly sorry that is not dark and dull like the others....

            But  am not sorry that it more colourful and warmer than your beam
Am not sorry for being neat
Am not sorry for being me
Am not sorry for be unique
Am not sorry for being god new creation
        Am not sorry that god got bored of the same faces the Same colour the same voice...

Am not sorry if this doesn’t make sense......

193 · May 2019

Random post

Nsmith15 May 2019

Random post

Cracked the rage with both hands
Light a sack of cards
smell it strong flames burn your eyes
Written at 8:21

191 · Jun 2019

mr clowen

Nsmith15 Jun 2019

mr clowen

Shielding our imperfection into a twist
                                                                      Of concealing veils

                        As to MR.clowns

                                                         HE was long, mis-shapen and forlorn
                                              All his wifes ran away without a smile,

                                 But full of a gaze unhallowed eyes of stone

184 · May 2019

Night owls 6#

Nsmith15 May 2019

Night owls 6#

Me, jealous of you?
Bless you’re delusional
heart...

180 · May 2019

Notes

Nsmith15 May 2019

Notes

Love is an atmosphere that seek out knowledge and truth

179 · Jan 2019

Expectations is our friends

Nsmith15 Jan 2019

Expectations is our friends

She find it strange that her eyes are met with a endless staircase

The world around him doesn't freeze or turn monochrome around everyone but herself

Yet our heart sill drop when she walk into our room, Our focus is a far distent off. We get it everyday were our eyes out met with his you tilt your head and smile with you head filled of brids

He understand when you laugh to yourself.

Her stomach needs a million butterflies, when your around
When you smile it illuminates the room and my thought gose wild for a anchor.

Because your love and my words don't have a relationship with expectations to find or have a right diction.

174 · May 2019

Incomplete

Nsmith15 May 2019

Incomplete

Mama
I
molded length with father
held the tears

these battles has star-cross the village with misery

Mama

Pull through the storms
And trumpet that loving yourself is no crime

Mama

Going though the day you do you best to harden the blessings the lord has been holding for you

Mama

Be impatient as impatient
Bring you deceitfulness

Mama shine your smile
to the warmth of the world

166 · Jun 2019

Never gonna grow up...

Nsmith15 Jun 2019

Never gonna grow up...

I miss how boys
                           Wouldn’t like you based

                    on the size of your body,

But...    instead of how fast you could run and how nice you were to their friends.

   I miss  when cussing, drinking  and smoking was weird and not cool...

                     I miss when getting a high
               streak on snap wasn’t a chore

        I miss when our parents would support our choices, and would actually understand us.

165 · May 2019

Daily thoughts

Nsmith15 May 2019

Daily thoughts

The darkest night produce the brightest stars...

164 · Jan 2019

Top secret

Nsmith15 Jan 2019

Top secret

You know,
the part where you're
no longer a caterpillar neither a butterfly.
You don't know why or where your
going.

All you know is that this is,
a revolution for disruption.
Of the spirit,
So surrender children .
This is not the death
Of you .
This is the dying of who we once we're.
This is our rebirth sweet heart.

#rebirth

164 · Apr 2019

Mood

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Mood

“Oh ok”
Actually means
                  My heart has rippled into millions of pieces
                       But I won't bother telling
You
              don't want to waste your time

163 · May 2019

#2 incomplete

Nsmith15 May 2019

#2 incomplete

Need a beat
to Plunge these feelings out
For you
Father
Fat
Her

trumpet your name
I see no patriarch in the pictures that hang Crookedly
Your not smiling
Your not sad
Your not sire

Your just aloof
Your just immortal
Just incomplete to everything

161 · Jan 2019

Untitled

Nsmith15 Jan 2019

Untitled

We don't know why we're like this,
Why everyone leave,
Why everyone lies,
Why everyone forget us,
Why everyone thinks it ok to replaces us or play us
Are we that bad?

161 · Apr 2019

”wow that lovely”

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

”wow that lovely”

If I could pen the finest art
and hallow it to you
aspiring that when we part
you assume my words are true

Trust in my simple actions
even though I may be meek
digest my bound reactions
as for you I truly seek

At most I've been left shattered
fragmented like bate glass
eventually none mattered
for I reached a different class

Sincerity is my passion
if once bestowed to be
my love has not a ration
when you abide with me

No promises to be broken
Depleted, dead, or open

Promise Promise Promise

159 · May 2019

Dad day...

Nsmith15 May 2019

Dad day...

It some serious issue
Do you know
What it feel like to pass the same street everyday full of people with the urge of trying to get your headphones out of your pockets so you seem busy
Feeling like there a big lump in your throat and you forgot how to swallow.
Palms are sweaty
Hands start to shake
You feel like people are looking and feel their eyes judging
Overthinking
Your on the pure of shredding tears
The reality is no one cares what your problems is or who you are.
You know anxiety is stupid but there isn’t anything you or doctor can do to help
You

159 · May 2019

Daily thoughts

Nsmith15 May 2019

Daily thoughts

Why do you get to erase every little trace without my permission

158 · Apr 2019

Random post

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Random post

Happier days are definitely ahead for you..
                                        Struggle has
         e
               N
                     D
                          e
                               D.

157 · May 2019

5:59pm

Nsmith15 May 2019

5:59pm

Brave (feminine ending).adj. meaning
Fierce, ferocious,
Mad tempered

155 · Apr 2019

”why the world so mean”

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

”why the world so mean”

Life goes on
With you
Or without you....

Sad thoughts

149 · Apr 2019

Words fascinate me...

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Words fascinate me...

Words and some more words,

Words have always played a trick on my mind.
How a string of words are carefully chosen and often magically bind together to just from a connection with the readers
          A sentence can cause not only a ripple but a tide of change.
                One can do everything from altering a person perspective.
           There are a million Stars as well as words in this universe
                                I want my words to
                                 fascinate
                                  Others.
    I want to make people investigate them for days on ends

145 · May 2019

A bunch of random words

Nsmith15 May 2019

A bunch of random words

Poison
Electric
Steel
Ghost
dragon
Psych
Fire
Fairy
dark
Water
green
grass
Lying
Normal
lighting
Bug
ground
ice
rock

144 · Apr 2019

Random quote

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

Random quote

It a sad and beautiful world

143 · Mar 2019

Stlov

Nsmith15 Mar 2019

Stlov

Sleeping with strangers

Locking are hearts away

He can't love
She don't understand
Love
He never being loved
She never grew with love
They say that she'll break your heart...

Both youngsters
Living in a movie
They smirk, they don't understand
How you can love
Something that is broken
Inside and out....

Your a patient guy
She full of roaing pain
Sill you be that
"Patient guy".....

137 · May 2019

English experience

Nsmith15 May 2019

English experience

Quote, engraved euphonious as I continue my well-worn path until we reach the daybreak lake.

Punctuation,
Pub,
Pubs,
Puff,
Pun,
Punch,
the era of eternity.

Adjective
eerie the green with red
cause only a foolish drunk would think wear something that doesn't match,

135 · Apr 2019

How to win life

Nsmith15 Apr 2019

How to win life

Rule 1: don't use your heart
Rule2: your brain is your strength to survive.
Love is rare when there so much hate in the air you breathe
No one cares
No one decides
No one knows their fate
Days will go by
People die so new life is enters
Year's and years
People go by being confused about their purpose in life
Nothing to you is clear
Nothing in your heart except fear

Love is a rare combination

135 · May 2019

Crazy lust

Nsmith15 May 2019

Crazy lust

Dear lust
Watch you from afar
Each day you surprised me
Your mischievous smile
Your laugh
You’re independent
No guy can hold you down
Tell you what to do because your the boss of whatever mind-games you’re playing
Your not in my life anymore but sill stuck in my head
You don’t understand how you make world shake
I can’t explain of this
No one understands
I don’t understand
Why...