Is like walking on a edge
You could
F
     A
            L
                    L
of the edge.

Or

J
U
M
P
Straight down.

Either way it kills you
When you land

Moonlight.
shining in the distance,
Illuminating the sky .

Starlight .
dancing all around,
Createing pictures in my mind.

The Man in the Moon
watching
listening
As i tell my Tale
Full of despair

I tell him my story
he understand

  Stars fill my eyes
reflecting the story of my life

When you look at me I seem fine.
you tell me your day,
I tell you mine.

While at school that's how I act.
Smile on my face.
Knives in my back.
I'm not fine but I won't tell you that.

I'll keep pretending when I'm with you.
So I don't put stress on you.
I can't hurt you like you have me.

You don't see them I hide them under my pack,
pushing them farther into my back.
as I tread slowly,
weights of incurties slowing me down.

But I still smile toward you,
so I don't want to hurt you.
And,
that my dear is my biggest fear.

At first glance i look
off in a trance.
Looking in the distance,
not noticing your subtle glance

When i see you i smile back.
Forgetting what i was looking at

You turn away embarrassed,
with nothing to say

So I'll just go no about my day.
With words unspoken.
Thoughts unsaid.

Even though one word.
Even if not very imporant.
Could have saved me back then.

But insted i drown in a flood of my own thoughts.

envy,
gluttony,
greed,
avarice,
lust,
pride,
sloth,
wrath.

Does this say
Lesbian?
Gay?
Trans?

None of these are defined as sins.

then why treat us as if we aren't human?
Just because of our love interest?

God said to love.

Then why do you hate us?
We did nothing wrong.
He made us this way.
In HIS image.

So why must you judge us...

As you watch the sea,
The waves crash into you,
Your slowly drowning,
But nobody notices.

There's a boat in the distance
Friends
Famliy
Everyone you know
gather and watch you

Some ask if your ok,
If you need help.

But you're too proud to accept it.

Im fine you answer.
Evey...
Single...
Time...

But you are drowning
You want help
But its to late.

Your gone.
And you are one with the sea.

And everyone else wishes
You had

But now you can't...
Your gone...

The sea,
How pretty and blue,
what a sight beautiful just for you.

As the waves crash on to the shore,
what more is there to adore?

The waves slowly bring in the tide,
up to your feet.

The water feels so good at first
then leaves your feet cold.

You wade deeper and deeper
As comes in the high tide

Your thoughts...
The sea...
Slowly drowning you.

An anchore appears around your ankle.
Its slowly weighing you down.
You swim for it is just a lightweight.

Then another on your wrist.
The chain cuts into you.
Oh no what to do.

You swim as hard as you can.
But you can't escape it.

Your anxiety...
Your fear...
The weights...

You can never escape it.

To think i loved you,
To think i thought you loved me too.

I thought you cared when i cried,
But those were all lies.

I tried to give you my heart,
You played me from the start

I am just like a doll to you
You get me thing and dress me up,
Just to mess me up.

I'm done being your play thing
I'm no longer your toy.

What do you see
when you look at me?

A girl
A boy
A little toy?

What do you see?

My heart
My brain
My face?

Who am i to you?

A sister
A brother
A lover?

Why do you see things that aren't me...

You see me smile
So i must be fine.

You see my laugh
So it must have been funny.

I smile to keep from crying

I laugh to keep from telling my true feelings

If i keep pretending will you even notice?

Will you really see "Me"?

You go out
But rather stay in

You try to talk to people
But are frightened by them

You lie to yourself that you're alright.
But yet your haunted by thoughts late at night

Anxiety has done this to you.
What will you do to stop it?

A cut,
a sliver,
made with silver.

A mark,
a scratch,
What's the catch?

The addiction
The fear
What have you done here

The blood
The pain
And what have you to gain

Your gone
So long
Maybe i'll see you again.