I can’t rip through these bindings,
maybe it’s myself I’m finding
That’s in my way

So I just keep on fighting,
The hate inside I’m inciting
It’s in my way.

In my head there’s a war being fought,
Contradictions, self-loathing in every thought.
Don’t get in my way.

In my world, everything revolves around me.
In my world, all that exists is what I can see.
In my world, I wonder who you think I am.
I’d see it your way, but I don’t think I can.

In your world, I just disappear when you forget,
In your world, you can’t feel the things that I regret.
In your world, You don’t know me like I do,
Even if you wanted to, I do want you to.

In my world, I might just walk a path all alone,
In your world, you just might barely hear my sad moans.
In our worlds, we can see the other going,
We have our own minds, our own way of knowing

First, already lost for words,
Second, keeps pushing forwards.
Third, the limits are closing in,
Fourth, Another scrunched paper in the bin.

Start again, the first sentence sounds nice,
The next one… Well, it’ll suffice.
Stop, and realize it’s not even that great,
Forget it, put it away, and procrastinate.

Our everyday blends together
becoming a mess
gathering dust.

Everything’s the same,
nothing ever changes,
nothing happens.

I’ve figured it out,
what life needs,
My Answer.

Life needs ups and downs,
can’t just let it plateau,
That’s what you learn from the EKG monitor

Chewed fingernails, drinking wine,
                                                           ­                      It’s not very hard to see.
Doesn’t take much to find,
                                             That there’s something very wrong with me.
It’s only me, nevermind,
                                                      ­      I guess this is the only way I can be.
Tried to change my ways,
                                                       Clean it up, wear the only suit I’ve got.
Pretending at halcyon days.
                                                       But I melted when the heat got too hot.

Cells and stars, From protozoa to Mars.
Shooting stars like the headlights on cars.

from nothing we’re born,
from nothing we’re torn,

Away to live our little lives,
And why? Not one of us survives.

Death will come to us all. Death is coming and it already has.
That end’s inevitable, what matters is the journey and all that jazz.

I’m just trying to say, in my roundabout way,
Is You Only Live Once, Carpe Diem, seize the day.

Come and take my hand,
Feel my pulse racing.
Can’t you understand?
You’re my everything.

Need to stay by you,
No mistaking it.
Don’t you feel it too?
It’s too late to quit.

I’ll keep on talking,
Confessing all day.
You’ll keep on walking,
walking far away.

Today I awoke
with a broken heart.
Hardly even spoke,
Just felt torn apart.

Tonight I now know,
Better than before.
I learnt to let go,
And to feel no more.

They say there’s plenty of fish out there in the sea,
Shame I’m stuck without a fishing rod.

No, I’m no catch and that’s plain to see, lil’ old me,
Shame I’m so far from blessed by God.

I’m a rowboat among yachts and freighters.
And there’s no strange taste to which I cater.
I’m no master baiter,
or am I?

In the Atlantic they’re shooting me down,
In the Pacific they all only frown,
They say no man’s an island but what about boys?

And God I wish I didn’t feel so very alone,
But I’ve no shooting stars, no luck, a broken wishbone,
I suppose I’ll just drown out all this whiny noise.

Suddenly, a clap of thunder
tore the night asunder,
and ripped through my troubled mind.

Lightning came soon after,
along with frightening laughter,
Which I realized was mine.

I want to do something like I mean it,
but I only ever believe something if I seen it.

I want to say something nobody has ever heard,
but how? Everybody's using the same words.

I want to feel like I'm more than nothing,
but I've never even done anything.

I want to live without any regrets,
but I know what all that wanting gets.

I need to stop only sitting and wanting,
But trying to change is so daunting.

She's perfect
An unrelenting pervert
A taste of lemon sherbet
On her lips
and my eyes
On her hips

Hide behind the curtains
I'm her slave and she's my servant
We come together in the furnace
She plays tricks
On my mind
As she strips

I'm nervous
Her blade where my nerve is
Stimulation keeps me wordless
I'm herbivorous
She's hypercarnivorous
I'm her prey and she's gonna eat me up
But it's okay because we're in love

lust for summer blues
trust in someone's truths
cluster of sunny views
busting out sudden clues
bluster over pumpkin stew
dusting off sullied suits
fussing over dulling shoes
gushing over sunday news

Social recluses, We only met to dance tarantella.
secluded away one night in a dark cellar,
I was captivated as she taught me the steps,
From that moment she had me trapped in her web
Her body was poison to the eyes,
the way she bit her lip had me paralyzed.
As she had me wrapped in her thighs
my hips moved like i had been hypnotized
I asked if she loved me with a sigh
a kiss goodbye was her reply.
This woman will be the death of me
and her name was arachne