I could've just laid down if
I wanted to
ignoring the bells that echoes
inside my head
Let the earth swallow me
among withered leaves that decay
beside me
Let the world dry out
as if all lamented things
belong to me
I could act as if
my heart is an icy winter water,
never to beat, never to warm at all
Granite skies would drift above me,
haunting me in my night and
summer days
But in the thunder that frightens me
A swift lightning would pass me by,
a crack of gold in my darkest night
The flood crashing through doors,
through all the breathe that I've lost
I would learn to hold every air that I touch
All the celestial mass throbbing in my chest
The distant rumble of supernovas
that tears me apart,
and black sunshine that shines on my face
Even if midnight splatters beneath my eyes,
with all the stars that glimmer
that badly wants to fall
Even if half of my shadow is blown to nether
I would suffer everyday, and in my pain
I knew I could feel
I would die everyday, with all lamented things
and in all my deaths
I have learned to live