It's poem time, it poem time;
Every day now I must have a poem time
I must brush the cobwebs off my lips
Blow the dust off of my pen
And with every sunrise there must be
A poem time to define what's me.

why is it,
i wonder,
that we create so much hatred
to fill the world
in a an attempt to erase
the joy, the happiness, the light?
is it just
human nature?

Questioning
the reason for the madness
The world keeps spinning
but we’re frozen in silence
And every day we scream
“We want to end this game!”
But the higher-ups don’t listen,
they don’t know our name
And so I’m standing here,
surrounded by the flames
Wondering why I still bother
playing all these games
All around me, the voices cry
We’re still waiting for the day
That the flames all die
But the fire cannot die,
because then out lives would end
And it’s not that easy
to begin again.

i have been gone
but now i am back
the monster is hiding
ghosts flinching away
because sun is much too brightly shining
and they are eternally frightened of the day
yes, i have been gone
but now i am back
and i am not haunted anymore.

There’s a lot of heartache here,
so much that I feel like
I should leave a little note
Every time I show someone
this page.
I’ve been trying too hard
to find someone,
and that has led me down
a frustrating path.

I’ve got ghosts that aren’t really dead.

Like a typical teenage cliche,
my emotions simmer under my skin
surge through my veins
scream for release
I'm begging for release
I am FRAGILE
Handle me with care
If you drop me I might explode
Into a million pieces of
a once-whole girl.
*Not so whole anymore

The smell
of you
lingers
in my nose,
Your warmth
had stained
my heart—
I cannot wait
to be near you
again.

She walks as though
there are clouds beneath her feet;
Her heart is the same color
as her name.

Why must you be so far away from me,
my love?
The Fates pull you away,
but I will never let go.
As the snow outside sparkles,
reflecting the soft, silver moonlight,
I gaze up at the stars through my window
and think only of you
Oh, I wish I knew
when it is that I will see you
I wish there didn’t have to be so much uncertainty
But life is a compilation
of uncertain moments
And we must learn to wade through
the wide ocean of fear
so that our fingertips can touch
and I know that you’re still here.

Why does there seem to be
a sudden chain of sadness
taking lives?

I worry
that depression
will wipe out
the world.

But I will still plant
my bright yellow flowers
because hope can never die
And neither will you, or I -
not today.

Do not be ashamed of what you feel,
for you are human.
Your feelings are completely normal,
and I have felt the same.
We both have something
that drags in the mud behind us,
But I believe that we
can help each other relieve
those weights.

The winds beat relentlessly on my window, as if to say, "Someday, we will carry you away." Perhaps I will just let them take me...

White sorrow stained
my midnight blue heart
Unreasonable, no truth behind the pain
“Just normal feelings,” my mother tried to explain
But is it really normal
to feel like my heart is being torn apart?
Is it really normal
to spend every day suppressing a scream?
Mother, dear,
these are not normal feelings,
these impulses to bleed and die.
They are curses sent down
from an unknown hand
They are chemicals staining my blood
I swear I can see the colors on my razor blade
These feelings are certainly not normal
they are a cruel disease
And my cure is waiting behind the shadows
I take his hand, and I fly.

All I want
is to write a love song for you
but all I can think about
is trying to stay strong for you.
There is a monster under my bed
who likes to crawl into my head
and he’s making it hard for me to think
happy thoughts
And I’m trying so hard
to think about you
because it’s the only thing
that will get me through
And all I want
is to write a love song for you
because I want you to know
that I’m fighting for you.

I think I’m lost,
I’ve gone too far

I pushed myself
so far below
I can’t see the stars

Only him,
I stare straight at him,
And that’s not
the right thing to do.

I need to swim up
on my own,
I need to save
my only home

We cannot drag
each other down,
and we can’t let
the other drown

I have to find
the strength somewhere
so I can make
the right repairs.

And with you goes a piece of me...
lost as long as you are gone.

Hush, my love,
Please don’t cry;
I’m just as scared as you are
To say goodbye.

I used to solve my problems with blade and blood.

My room smells like
spaghetti
in a peaceful meadow.

the sun shines bright

the waves are easy and calm

the breeze is warm,
it caresses my face

yet, in the distance,

somehow,

I still hear the rumbling
of the never-ending storm.

So tell me
Why is the sun falling?
Why has the moon lost its glow?
Why are the stars all fading?
Why has the Earth ceased to turn?
What is the reason
That we've come to see world's end?
What have we done to deserve this
Apocalypse
There is no attack of the undead souls
There is no rampant disease
There is the sky,
It is melting
Coating us in shards in light
And scraps of dreams.
So tell me why
I cannot cry
When I see this, our fate,
so rapidly approaching.

All the poems I have written
for those who sat in my heart,
they linger here now
as painful memories.

You are here
to give them new life,
and they have never felt
more true.

Ah...
Talking to you again, seeing you smile, hearing you laugh
is like
stepping into an old library
that was once a favored childhood hideout
Taking a deep breath
and letting the warm scents and memories wash
over me and remind me
How it feels to be content.
Memories stain the paper
and I smile as I read.

the tiny girl
   whose smile was broken
   by the mockingbirds
   and whose mind is cracked
   because no one understood her fragility.
it’s amazing that she’s still sane.

the boy
   who came home from school
   with bruises and broken teeth
   and screams still echoing in his ears
   that said he deserved to die.
it’s amazing that he’s still capable of love.

the girl
   who was abused by her father
   and tortured by her peers
   and haunted the halls of the hospital
   because she was afraid to live.
it’s amazing that she still lives.

let me tell you these stories,
   and then you can tell me again
   how your life ***** so much
   just because you can't go to prom.
   please, tell me again.
i would just love to hear about your “pain”.

Take a breath
breathe in the smoke
Invisible vapors
They choke you, infect you,
they catch you unaware
You don't know
that you're already dead.

Hey,
are you still there?
Or have you run away
like all the others?

Hey,
I’m feeling pretty bad today,
I
I just wanna say that
I wish everything would disappear
so I can stop feeling so gray.

It feels like this time of year
is just the worst for me
even though it’s supposed to be
happy and bright
My soul feels black as night
and I can’t take it anymore
I can’t bear this anymore
I
I wish I could fly away
I wish that you could stay
but who even are you?
I’m speaking to a ghost,
to someone I wish could be real
Someone to hold me tight and
remind that things will be okay...
How can anything be okay?

Everything is back to how it used to be.
Everything is a mess, a shamble, a waste of time,
It feels like this year didn’t really go by at all
I still feel exactly the same
How can I still feel this way
I was supposed to be better, supposed to get better,
Everything is supposed to be better now!

It’s hard to believe in change
when my failures stay the same.
And no one seems to see
just how much I’m struggling...
I just want everything to be okay.

Let me fall into the deep
brown of your eyes
and keep falling
because I know you’ll always catch me
just before the end.

Ouch! Open wound
Every touch stings
Like me, like me
I’m an open wound
Every touch stings
Ouch! Doctor’s gotta cut,
Because infections do no good
Like me, like me
I gotta cut
Because infections do no good
Ouch! It’s healthy again,
But hurts like torture
Like me, like me
I’m healthy again,
But I hurt like torture
It’s just a scar now,
shiny pink reminder of pain
*Like me, like me
I’m just a scar now,
Shiny pink reminder of pain.

I'll admit,
I hunger for attention -
but I avoid the spotlight for fear of
embarrassment.
I crave acknowledgment,
a mild fame,
but then I shy away.

No one ever notices.

I swear I can see the universe in your eyes.

Desite the recent peace I’ve felt,
I can’t help but notice
a shade looming over my shoulder,

Waiting.

Here I stand
Knife in hand
Red-stained metal
It's not blood, I swear
It's jelly, it's jelly, red red jelly,
I swear, I swear!

I found a flower today
in a bed of dead soil;
The only flower growing,
defying the harsh weather.
I stroked its petals,
I whispered to it softly;
"I am proud of you
for surviving and being you."

Shard of ice

Stuck in my heart

Forever it grows

Trying to tear me apart

I shiver and shake

Earthquake of cold

Cracks spread across skin

Heal into silver lines of old



I don't know why

I'm frozen

I don't know why

I've grown cold

I don't know why

I can't stay warm

I don't know why

I am ignored



Silver skates

Leave red lines

Gaps that spew red

Brand pain into my mind

Numb is broken

Only by this pain

But still there is

Absolutely no gain



I don't know why

I'm frozen

I don't know why

I've grown cold

I don't know why

I can't stay warm

I don't know why

I am ignored



I only know

That I will die

I only know

That I will die

I only know

That I will die

I only know

That I will die!



I don't know why

I'm frozen

I don't know why

I've grown cold

I don't know why

I can't stay warm

I don't know why

I am ignored

I am ignored

(Frozen)

I can't stay warm

(Frozen)

I've grown cold

(Frozen)

I am frozen

This new exploration
that you're opening me up to
is fascinating and terrifying
and certainly a thrill.
Yes, you do know how to set
a pure girl's heart a-thumping;
You certainly know how to show her
the ways of the night, of sinning in the dark.
It's frightening, for sure,
to be opened and consumed by you,
but such a thrill! Oh, thank you,
for showing me this pleasure.

It's
hard
    to watch
        as
time
     simply

*disappears.

My cheeks are still warm
from the blush you left me,
and I can’t get your smile
out of my head
(Not that I’d want to)
I worry that I’m falling too fast,
but my heart is a force to be reckoned with,
And it’s set a course to you.

It seems that I am never safe
from the darkness inside my head

Every time I let down my guard,
I fall and start to drown

I struggle to pull myself back up
out of the water

It's harder every time to swim
It's harder to find the strength to live

But still I force myself
to return to the bloodstained beach

To where my heart sits waiting for me,
arms open to keep me warm

For I cannot betray my heart,
this which has given me hope

My heart which connects me to a hundred souls who would surely weep

I cannot break free from these souls,
for fear of breaking the souls

I must swim, I must survive,
I will keep my heart, my love alive.

Where is my home?
A year later,
the answer
is still
unknown.

I skip over
the days,
always running away
from the end.

This house fits
like an old, hole-ridden glove,
uncomfortable but soft.

I need space,
but cannot stand
the emptiness.

But with him,
there is no silence.

There is sound
all around him,
and every touch
feels safe.

I want to leave
this house behind,
but I am scared.
I do not belong,
even tonight they want me to.

But I cannot breathe
in this little green house,
and I cannot grow.
This family is not really mine.

Who is?
He is.

I’ve got black widows
in my head,
hiding in fallen trees
and dead leaves.

A sad house now,
A sad house appears to frown
It’s missing something,
Just like she’s missing something:
A piece of her heart.

I know,
I know you’re there.
I know that you’re waiting
to sink your fangs
into my brain
and leave me crying
from the sudden pain.

I know that you’re lurking
right on my shoulder,
claws on my neck
and tongue in my ear.
“Soon, I’ll return.
Soon you’ll be
with me again, my dear.”

I shudder at his embrace,
but it is so familiar
that I cannot help
feeling safe.

what can wake me?
my true love's kiss
what can shield me?
my knight in shining armor
what can save me from the dark?
*my soul mate, bright and strong

Falling down
dead
Wrapped in
gray
Losing sight of
light
Letting go of the
day
A flash of
electricity
Nine thousand volts
straight to the heart
Wake me up
Make me see
Return me to
life.

You put the smile back
onto my face,
the warmth back
into my heart,
the life back
into my world.

I’m watching that first big wave looming closer and closer.

A single tear slips down my face.

It’s coming.

stardust
  woven
through
  my
bones,
  forever
a
  reminder
of
  the
fires
  we
were
  born
from

But, my love,
I am just so
tired.

Depression is a foul beast
Unpredictable, unknowable,
filling the room with his stench.

He knows you have no weapon,
no way to destroy him,
only to self-destruct.

But every shadow has a light,
every monster has a heart,
every cloudy day has a sun.

Use your love, your happiness, your joy,
Use the optimism as your weapon
and fire it straight into the heart of the beast.

The other soldiers will hear the shot
and they will know that you have won
and they will find hope.

as I look to the sky,
I begin to realize
that the depths
of the seas and stars
hold my heart
so tightly close

and perhaps
that's why
I'm slowly losing
the will
to breathe