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224 · Jan 2016
For You
Sky Jan 2016
All I want
is to write a love song for you
but all I can think about
is trying to stay strong for you.
There is a monster under my bed
who likes to crawl into my head
and he’s making it hard for me to think
happy thoughts
And I’m trying so hard
to think about you
because it’s the only thing
that will get me through
And all I want
is to write a love song for you
because I want you to know
that I’m fighting for you.
224 · Mar 2017
Steal Me
Sky Mar 2017
The winds beat relentlessly on my window, as if to say, "Someday, we will carry you away." Perhaps I will just let them take me...
224 · Jan 2016
White Sorrow
Sky Jan 2016
White sorrow stained
my midnight blue heart
Unreasonable, no truth behind the pain
“Just normal feelings,” my mother tried to explain
But is it really normal
to feel like my heart is being torn apart?
Is it really normal
to spend every day suppressing a scream?
Mother, dear,
these are not normal feelings,
these impulses to bleed and die.
They are curses sent down
from an unknown hand
They are chemicals staining my blood
I swear I can see the colors on my razor blade
These feelings are certainly not normal
they are a cruel disease
And my cure is waiting behind the shadows
I take his hand, and I fly.
224 · Apr 2016
Farewell
Sky Apr 2016
Hush, my love,
Please don’t cry;
I’m just as scared as you are
To say goodbye.
224 · Jul 2022
Spinning Again
Sky Jul 2022
I miss my words,
my poetry and my tales
I miss letting letters spin
from the top of my head

There's so little time,
And so little free pleasure,
It's hard to process my emotions,
and this was lost in the blur

So here's a quick spin
just to see what I've missed,
It's nice to let the letters roll,
let some light shine through the mist.
223 · Jan 2016
Tell It Again
Sky Jan 2016
the tiny girl
   whose smile was broken
   by the mockingbirds
   and whose mind is cracked
   because no one understood her fragility.
it’s amazing that she’s still sane.

the boy
   who came home from school
   with bruises and broken teeth
   and screams still echoing in his ears
   that said he deserved to die.
it’s amazing that he’s still capable of love.

the girl
   who was abused by her father
   and tortured by her peers
   and haunted the halls of the hospital
   because she was afraid to live.
it’s amazing that she still lives.

let me tell you these stories,
   and then you can tell me again
   how your life ***** so much
   just because you can't go to prom.
   please, tell me again.
i would just love to hear about your “pain”.
223 · Feb 2017
lost with you
Sky Feb 2017
And with you goes a piece of me...
lost as long as you are gone.
222 · Sep 2018
Body Heat
Sky Sep 2018
The smell
of you
lingers
in my nose,
Your warmth
had stained
my heart—
I cannot wait
to be near you
again.
222 · Feb 2016
Scars (10W)
Sky Feb 2016
I used to solve my problems with blade and blood.
221 · Oct 2015
breathe
Sky Oct 2015
Take a breath
breathe in the smoke
Invisible vapors
They choke you, infect you,
they catch you unaware
You don't know
that you're already dead.
221 · Feb 2016
Tumble
Sky Feb 2016
Let me fall into the deep
brown of your eyes
and keep falling
because I know you’ll always catch me
just before the end.
220 · Jan 2019
Crashed
Sky Jan 2019
The tide has crashed
over my head—

I had my back turned,
I thought I was safe
but I was wrong.

I’m drowning,
flailing,
unsure of which way is up.

Everything is hitting me
all at once.

I was fine an hour ago.
I was fine.
I was.

But the tide doesn’t care.
Sky Jan 2017
Ah...
Talking to you again, seeing you smile, hearing you laugh
is like
stepping into an old library
that was once a favored childhood hideout
Taking a deep breath
and letting the warm scents and memories wash
over me and remind me
How it feels to be content.
Memories stain the paper
and I smile as I read.
219 · Jun 2024
fallback
Sky Jun 2024
foolishly drawn
into the same trap

it's so easy
to be excited

but suddenly
sink into the cold again

and fall back
on old habits

the silver bite
is too familiar.
218 · Jan 14
Colors I Can Still See
Sky Jan 14
Smoke
clouding
our minds
Filling
our skies with
choking gray
We run
from the flames,
but they're always in sight

Clear skies
feel like
a figment in my mind,
Lost memories
from when I was
still so small
Bright blues
and prismatic hues
to make youth shine

I dream
of embracing
the colors of my past
Magic and joy
to guide me through
the choking storm,
Hope and love
to lead me to
the wonderous future
The LA fires feel like a hell of a metaphor for the state of life right now, and I don't even live near them. Felt inspired to write about trying to maintain hope in all this chaos.
216 · May 2019
Living Ghosts
Sky May 2019
There’s a lot of heartache here,
so much that I feel like
I should leave a little note
Every time I show someone
this page.
I’ve been trying too hard
to find someone,
and that has led me down
a frustrating path.

I’ve got ghosts that aren’t really dead.
216 · Jun 2018
Lavender, Basil, Clary Sage
Sky Jun 2018
My room smells like
spaghetti
in a peaceful meadow.
216 · Jun 2019
New Life For Old Words
Sky Jun 2019
All the poems I have written
for those who sat in my heart,
they linger here now
as painful memories.

You are here
to give them new life,
and they have never felt
more true.
216 · Feb 2015
Frozen (a song)
Sky Feb 2015
Shard of ice

Stuck in my heart

Forever it grows

Trying to tear me apart

I shiver and shake

Earthquake of cold

Cracks spread across skin

Heal into silver lines of old



I don't know why

I'm frozen

I don't know why

I've grown cold

I don't know why

I can't stay warm

I don't know why

I am ignored



Silver skates

Leave red lines

Gaps that spew red

Brand pain into my mind

Numb is broken

Only by this pain

But still there is

Absolutely no gain



I don't know why

I'm frozen

I don't know why

I've grown cold

I don't know why

I can't stay warm

I don't know why

I am ignored



I only know

That I will die

I only know

That I will die

I only know

That I will die

I only know

That I will die!



I don't know why

I'm frozen

I don't know why

I've grown cold

I don't know why

I can't stay warm

I don't know why

I am ignored

I am ignored

(Frozen)

I can't stay warm

(Frozen)

I've grown cold

(Frozen)

I am frozen
216 · Apr 2019
Let Me Be Okay
Sky Apr 2019
Hey,
are you still there?
Or have you run away
like all the others?

Hey,
I’m feeling pretty bad today,
I
I just wanna say that
I wish everything would disappear
so I can stop feeling so gray.

It feels like this time of year
is just the worst for me
even though it’s supposed to be
happy and bright
My soul feels black as night
and I can’t take it anymore
I can’t bear this anymore
I
I wish I could fly away
I wish that you could stay
but who even are you?
I’m speaking to a ghost,
to someone I wish could be real
Someone to hold me tight and
remind that things will be okay...
How can anything be okay?

Everything is back to how it used to be.
Everything is a mess, a shamble, a waste of time,
It feels like this year didn’t really go by at all
I still feel exactly the same
How can I still feel this way
I was supposed to be better, supposed to get better,
Everything is supposed to be better now!

It’s hard to believe in change
when my failures stay the same.
And no one seems to see
just how much I’m struggling...
I just want everything to be okay.
216 · Jan 2019
Untitled
Sky Jan 2019
Do not be ashamed of what you feel,
for you are human.
Your feelings are completely normal,
and I have felt the same.
We both have something
that drags in the mud behind us,
But I believe that we
can help each other relieve
those weights.
216 · Jan 2016
PB&J
Sky Jan 2016
Here I stand
Knife in hand
Red-stained metal
It's not blood, I swear
It's jelly, it's jelly, red red jelly,
I swear, I swear!
idk, this just popped into my head when i was making a pb&j; sandwich this morning XD
215 · Feb 2016
Universe (10w)
Sky Feb 2016
I swear I can see the universe in your eyes.
214 · Jan 2019
Untitled
Sky Jan 2019
Desite the recent peace I’ve felt,
I can’t help but notice
a shade looming over my shoulder,

Waiting.
214 · Jul 2016
Gone
Sky Jul 2016
It's
hard
    to watch
        as
time
     simply

*disappears.
213 · Jul 2018
A Hidden Hunger
Sky Jul 2018
I'll admit,
I hunger for attention -
but I avoid the spotlight for fear of
embarrassment.
I crave acknowledgment,
a mild fame,
but then I shy away.

No one ever notices.
213 · Dec 2020
Try To Swim
Sky Dec 2020
I think I’m lost,
I’ve gone too far

I pushed myself
so far below
I can’t see the stars

Only him,
I stare straight at him,
And that’s not
the right thing to do.

I need to swim up
on my own,
I need to save
my only home

We cannot drag
each other down,
and we can’t let
the other drown

I have to find
the strength somewhere
so I can make
the right repairs.
212 · Apr 2024
moment #5
Sky Apr 2024
droplets
  chasing
one
  another
through
  the
endless
  gray
before
  a
brief
  exchange
with
  grass.
212 · Mar 2016
Hollow Home
Sky Mar 2016
A sad house now,
A sad house appears to frown
It’s missing something,
Just like she’s missing something:
A piece of her heart.
212 · Apr 2016
rescue
Sky Apr 2016
what can wake me?
my true love's kiss
what can shield me?
my knight in shining armor
what can save me from the dark?
*my soul mate, bright and strong
Sky Feb 2017
This new exploration
that you're opening me up to
is fascinating and terrifying
and certainly a thrill.
Yes, you do know how to set
a pure girl's heart a-thumping;
You certainly know how to show her
the ways of the night, of sinning in the dark.
It's frightening, for sure,
to be opened and consumed by you,
but such a thrill! Oh, thank you,
for showing me this pleasure.
210 · Jan 2016
The Shocked Heart
Sky Jan 2016
Falling down
dead
Wrapped in
gray
Losing sight of
light
Letting go of the
day
A flash of
electricity
Nine thousand volts
straight to the heart
Wake me up
Make me see
Return me to
life.
210 · Oct 2017
Still Drown
Sky Oct 2017
It seems that I am never safe
from the darkness inside my head

Every time I let down my guard,
I fall and start to drown

I struggle to pull myself back up
out of the water

It's harder every time to swim
It's harder to find the strength to live

But still I force myself
to return to the bloodstained beach

To where my heart sits waiting for me,
arms open to keep me warm

For I cannot betray my heart,
this which has given me hope

My heart which connects me to a hundred souls who would surely weep

I cannot break free from these souls,
for fear of breaking the souls

I must swim, I must survive,
I will keep my heart, my love alive.
209 · Apr 2016
Open Wound
Sky Apr 2016
Ouch! Open wound
Every touch stings
Like me, like me
I’m an open wound
Every touch stings

Ouch! Doctor’s gotta cut,
Because infections do no good
Like me, like me
I gotta cut
Because infections do no good

Ouch! It’s healthy again,
But hurts like torture
Like me, like me
I’m healthy again,
But I hurt like torture

It’s just a scar now,
shiny pink reminder of pain
*Like me, like me
I’m just a scar now,
Shiny pink reminder of pain.
209 · Sep 2016
Shh.
Sky Sep 2016
But, my love,
I am just so
tired.
208 · Jul 2018
Defy
Sky Jul 2018
I found a flower today
in a bed of dead soil;
The only flower growing,
defying the harsh weather.
I stroked its petals,
I whispered to it softly;
"I am proud of you
for surviving and being you."
207 · Jul 2019
Home
Sky Jul 2019
Where is my home?
A year later,
the answer
is still
unknown.

I skip over
the days,
always running away
from the end.

This house fits
like an old, hole-ridden glove,
uncomfortable but soft.

I need space,
but cannot stand
the emptiness.

But with him,
there is no silence.

There is sound
all around him,
and every touch
feels safe.

I want to leave
this house behind,
but I am scared.
I do not belong,
even tonight they want me to.

But I cannot breathe
in this little green house,
and I cannot grow.
This family is not really mine.

Who is?
He is.
206 · Jan 2016
The Tired Subject
Sky Jan 2016
To write about
the subject of
love
is a difficult thing to do.
So many metaphors
have already been used,
yet we somehow find ways
to pull more out of the sky.
Songs about love songs,
and poems about love poems
increase the level of difficulty.
How can anyone
truly describe
the swell of the heart
the embrace of comfort
the thrill of companionship?


They can’t.
206 · Oct 2018
Wave
Sky Oct 2018
I’m watching that first big wave looming closer and closer.

A single tear slips down my face.

It’s coming.
206 · Sep 2018
Fulfilled
Sky Sep 2018
You put the smile back
onto my face,
the warmth back
into my heart,
the life back
into my world.
206 · Nov 2016
soul
Sky Nov 2016
Don't you see?
You give me
life.
205 · Jun 2018
(Un)filling
Sky Jun 2018
I'm so tired
of this feeling -
this
emptiness
that plagues my soul.
It seems that it is
impossible for me
to be
satisfied.
There's a hole in me
and nothing can fill it,
but I try to shove
drugged smoke
and uncertain emotions
deeper
and
deeper
into myself
to feel just a little bit better
for just a few minutes.
205 · Jan 2019
Untitled
Sky Jan 2019
I’ve got black widows
in my head,
hiding in fallen trees
and dead leaves.
205 · Sep 2015
Untitled
Sky Sep 2015
I'd tell you who I am, but
I'm not sure that
I know anymore

Am I
(a) a friendly girl
(b) an emo(tional) girl
(c) a freak
(d) someone who will die young
?

I
don't
know

Is there an option
for (e) all of the above?
204 · Aug 2019
He Returns
Sky Aug 2019
I know,
I know you’re there.
I know that you’re waiting
to sink your fangs
into my brain
and leave me crying
from the sudden pain.

I know that you’re lurking
right on my shoulder,
claws on my neck
and tongue in my ear.
“Soon, I’ll return.
Soon you’ll be
with me again, my dear.”

I shudder at his embrace,
but it is so familiar
that I cannot help
feeling safe.
203 · Mar 2016
Weight
Sky Mar 2016
Brush away the guilt
That I know is weighing you down;
You have set me free, you see
You have allowed me to live again.
203 · Sep 2018
Solo
Sky Sep 2018
"Love will come when it comes,"
but what if I need it now?

I'm so tired of being left alone.
201 · Sep 2015
War
Sky Sep 2015
War
Depression is a foul beast
Unpredictable, unknowable,
filling the room with his stench.

He knows you have no weapon,
no way to destroy him,
only to self-destruct.

But every shadow has a light,
every monster has a heart,
every cloudy day has a sun.

Use your love, your happiness, your joy,
Use the optimism as your weapon
and fire it straight into the heart of the beast.

The other soldiers will hear the shot
and they will know that you have won
and they will find hope.
201 · Oct 2024
Safety Souls
Sky Oct 2024
This safe space
has my heart ready to burst–

More warmth and affection
than I've ever possibly known

Suddenly pouring over my soul
to bathe me in light and love

A soul mate and a kindred spirit
to show me boundless joy

Surely, this unfolding is just
a silly little fairy tale,

Too good to be true?
I'm reminded every day that it's real

I grow and thrive here,
in the light of friendship and love.
The people in my life now have shown me more life and love and joy than I ever imagined. I'm so happy and so grateful for them.
201 · Sep 2018
Stepping Stones
Sky Sep 2018
Would you hate me
if you knew
how I've been leaping
from heart to heart
like stones in a pond -
they all crumbled under my weight
and left me to drown.
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