if i had known
how much your wide,
chapped Lips and fervently whispered
Adorations would hurt me,
i think i still would have kissed you
in your room that sunday Night.

Please  
I'll put my mask on of "happiness."
When you see me put this mask on,
Pull it off and ask me what's wrong.

If I lie to you,
Which I probably will,
Slap me.

When I slap you back,
Pull my hand back,
And wrestle me to the ground,
Force the truth out of me,
Then console me with hugs and kisses
As the tears begin to fall.

You're like the flu,
everyone wants you,
maybe just to skip school or work,
but really,
your gonna make us regret having you.
We'll try to get rid of you,
but you'll just threaten us,
tighten your grip.
Everyone knows who you are,
you don't care
about anyone,
you strut in here like you own the place.
You'll take control, seize our minds,
as we'll struggle under your grasp.
And when you finally go,
you'll always leave behind a trail...

Make-up won't make you pretty,
a smile will.

You told me you had changed,
You would treat me so much
Better than before
With your **** attitude
And your **** "love."

And when I called you a liar,
You didn't deny anything.

do not date a girl
who writes.
she will internalize
everything,
carve poems
into your eyelashes
instead of
kissing them,

she will analyze you,
calculate age
from the rings
your coffee cup
leaves
instead of refilling it.

she will memorize
the way your
lips curl around steam,
but not that you
take it
two sugars,
no cream.

she will read your
palm instead of
holding it
against her chest.

she will not
blink
when you leave,
because she is
already
romanticizing it.

My leggings are a little bit loose
maybe it was a virus
maybe it was for you.

I just want your wandering hands
to find bones
to find their way back to me

I'm only hungry for you,
and when I stand up I'm dizzy for you,
see stars for you

not food.
I want to taste your lips again
lick the skin of your stomach

I want you to tell me you love me
for me to love you too
and for me to be beautiful

then you can mean what you do.