Maria

Maria Oct 2018

He saw me again, but differently this time
He stripped down my walls and my lies , made me as fragile as a child
And after a long life battle, He whispered to me
“Come where nothing hurts, and your sins will set you free”

#god #freedom #soul

Maria Sep 2018

Heartbreak hotel for 14 year olds

I’m not checking his Instagram again
Not another time
He has liked other people’s posts
There’s nothing special with mine

We’re not thinking about him
At least we try not to show it
But it doesn’t get easy
You and I both know it

My mum and friends are against it
Again I’m out of my mind
It’s not that he’s bad
It’s just that I’m not like that in his eyes

Next time I walk past him I’ll try not to think
Of the million butterflies that I get near him
Next time I walk past him
I will be prepared
Not run away, not even be scared

Next time, I’ll just forget
That he makes me feel some kind of way
Next time, I’ll forget,
That only he can burn my brain cells in the sweetest possible way

So goodbye my dear
Goodbye to my infatuation
Goodbye to what we could never be
Goodbye to my imagination

Just some ranting about my crush who I’m trying to move on from. *insert loads of sarcasm HOORAYYY

#crushes #hooray #young #him #heartbreak

Maria Sep 2018

No Good in Goodbye

Never thought this day would come too soon
Who knew, that I’d be someday leaving you
With tears in my eyes, I hug you tight enough
I open the present you gave me, with pain in my heart

Every tear is a waterfall,
Everyone asks if I’m ok
My mum tells me I’ll be alright
I just have to wait

I know that the colors won’t be as bright when you’re not around
And the memories of us
In front of me will be found
And I know it will be hard to get over this and start over again
There’s no good in goodbye
I’m still trying to understand

I know we both have some growing up to do,
And in my mind, I would always be there with you
It’s been 2 months, I miss you like crazy
I want you to come, burst through the door and save me

Every tear is a waterfall
Everyone asks if I’m ok
My mum tells me I am alright
But was it really worth the wait?

I’ll miss a lot of things from the other side of the world
Celebrations and birthdays, and I won’t be home
And I hope you won’t forget, the magic that we had
I just wanted to say, you’re my best friend

This poem is about my best friend. 5 years ago I moved from Greece to Australia and saying goodbye to her was one of the most painful things I’ve had to endure. This is for her ❤️

#bestfriend #goodbye

Maria Sep 2018

What I don’t know about love

What I don’t know, is how to unconditionally love,
For a fear that it will never be returned
What I don’t know, is how to really move on
When my heart has been broken again

I don’t know how to stay strong for someone,
When I can’t stay strong for me
I don’t know how to kiss and hug
Because I’ve never gotten the same thing

I don’t know how to love someone, because I still don’t love me
And I can’t always accept people’s flaws
Because I still don’t accept me

I can talk and I can write, but it can never be described
The feeling of love that is always left behind
I can crush, I can adore, but I can never repair
The hurt in my eyes after a broken stare

And the years go by, and my soul turns old
A true love story, is a story not being told
And I grow out of people, like I grow out of clothes
And I change the names of the ones I held close

Because, you see with me it’s like a game
And I can tell you a million stories of boys that left and came
There’s no one waiting for me, so at the end of the day
I pack up my broken pieces, and I make my separate way

#crushes #love #trustissues #imperfection

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