I lay my skin out bare For you to see every vein Unfold every roll Meet the aftermath of pain Caress the white hairs dug deep, Waiting, for time’s curse They will try to repel it, To prevent nature’s call Anti-aging creams cannot postpone the growth Of my soul Can’t they tell? The wrinkles in my skin Are soiled ground Don’t they know? I’ve been waiting for a lifetime To finally say ‘Hello’.
love today looks like mountains that I can’t make move or see over like breaking and no space to sit down and put the pieces back together love today looks like rain w/ no peace to lie down and enjoy the falling like the sun building up its walls in reaction to me like myself building up walls in reaction to me...
They pick flowers off of their backs and feed them to me hoping I would grow into leaf, Any use but these motionless roots that just won’t move As it uses up precious soil. I would gleam into the most beautiful and nutritious of fruits If only I knew how to I want to tell you that water leaks right through my soil That birds plummet to the ground after nibbling on my greens That everything that touches me retracts into nothingness And I have no scent That a human could pick up But the insects resent me They think I’m trying to poison them I do not dare try to convince them otherwise Because I do await my precious snakes every night Luring them in with hisses and offerings I want them to mistake me for shelter, To trace my stem all the way down to these stubborn roots How I would love to be coated in so much venom that no amount of water would ever deem my soil habitable that flowers would wilt and die upon being placed on my grave.
Don’t make a home out of me My roof is damaged beyond repairing The cracks in my walls are not enough to let the light in My darkness is unbearable. Don’t familiarise yourself with my corners I rebuild everyday If you stay in one place for too long You may never be able to leave Even when you desperately want to Don’t bring me the world I’ll repay you In disappointments Don’t blame yourself For not being able to fix me I don’t need fixing I have worked my way around my broken edges Learned which turns hurt the most to take And I take them Because scars will heal But you won’t.
Your eyes, So familiar Looked like a window Felt like a mirror So I avoided your gaze Afraid If i stared for long enough I would start to see everything I despised In human form Your eyes, Like a mirror Confronting the deepest sorrows Giving them a voice To speak To exist Anywhere other than the poisoning smoke Of a fire Your eyes, Like a mirror Knew where to look Like cleared throats Masking swallowed words, Collapsing lungs, But they were silent for a reason I didn’t want you to reach that far back Or come this close To the truth, Your eyes, Like a mirror I shall shatter Like I do To everything that makes me see.
I am not one to mistake Neglect for love but I have an empty wooden-box for a heart that the cold shows no mercy So just the thought of another soul having inhabited the emptiness And warmed it up, If just for a little while, is enough to keep this box from freezing and I am not one to mistake love for suffocation, but sometimes The air that slips inside this box, Is too heavy with memories that it just fills it up So when I tell you I have no more space For a new face Even if it comes with the promise of eternity, Know, that I don’t want it, I am waiting for the time When every silent cry uttered Is echoed through the walls inside this box and it is so cold that No soul dares come near it, Let alone look in the direction of the incoming snow, Then, and only then, Would I shatter it myself, having spent eternity, avoiding having it scratched By someone else.
I hand my heart over to the shadows Refrain from breaking it once and for all Head to the abyss To the only place Where I’m warned before I fall It rings in my ears Day and night A promise of an always-empty mind No more aching No more frights No more dull, silent nights I want to jump But there’s so much more So much joy I cannot ignore To get there, I must leave the heights And get through another silent night.