Its so crazy to realize
that my whole life
I was deluded
by others perceptions of me
and I still never changed or shifted
from my internal compass.
That I was brought up to believe
that I as a women
is less than
that I am a women is a" slave "
to the patriarchy
to how men perceive me.
As I deconstruct my old religious ideologies,
I see how the truth was lying right there "hidden" in plain sight,
how they have tried to erase the Divine Feminine
but still we rise like a phoenix out of the ashes.
I knew that religion and I were never a good fit
seems my questions were right after all,
seems my inner knowing was right after all
always
is and will be,
see they try to keep us small ,
so that we don't recognize & realize our power
in who we are as women
equal to men,
and different in our ways
for the dark feminine
is different than the masculine.
I remember when my brother would laugh at me
and mock me
and say that I am fat
& that I am "masculine"
when really I am just powerful
curvy and strong
and a man like him,
who is so deeply wounded
can't see how me as a human being
is just as important as he is
So I will use my voice
to call out
to be the voice for women
to be the voice of my child
that was mutilated in pain
from the men in my life
who could care less
about my screaming.