I want to taste the sun on your skin
And I want to feel the spark of passion light a million cigarettes between our lips
There was nothing soft about the way you held me
You squeezed me so tight my bones crumbled into the sea
I wanted to believe we fit together like pieces of a puzzle
But I was the corner and you were all the parts of the sky
You are more beautiful than the milky way
And more terrifying than the Pompeii
Your eyes to me were bluer than the sea
Deeper than the sea
More mysterious than the sea
Your eyes of water started a fire within me
A fire within me so hot it boiled the sorrow in my lungs
And charred the tips of my ribs
I’m burning alive in my own skin
Please don’t leave my fire burning
Put me out please I beg you
Please I can’t scream any louder!
Please help move your hands from my throat
Please my ears won’t stop ringing
Suffocate the passion that chokes my soul
I would rather be empty than burned to the bone
Please the fire is consuming me
You should have never started this fire within me
If you had no intention to manage it
I hope you are happy
There is nothing left for anyone to love
Not unless they like the smell of burning trust
And that old taste of cigarettes on my mouth
You were the sea
You were that ****** sea
That started the fire within me

they say there are forces beyond our control
that reside within us
oh, how their whispers escalate into screams
it's worse than it seems, this need
heart insists, "touch every inch of me,  touch oh touch please,
carress and hold, tender and sweet"
i heard through the grapevine
then diamond rhombi on notebook pages climb
over each restless thought
surrender, this is war, touch oh bleed into me,
i will lose so gracelessly
no, stand up, free yourself now
(there is a force within that knows you can win)

-cj

I burn you down
I will, I can, and I have
I get lost in a frenzy of fire and musk
tied taut between two sleeping masts
sailing ever forward as I slip
arms spread wide,
hoarsely proclaiming a message of my pain,
crucified, on board the navigation to a burnt bridge
for there will always have been a struggle
that, though it contains many words,
must remain silent,
and though I say I will burn you down,
my flames will only consume my own soul.

i looked for You
in the bright summer days,
i looked for You
in the majestic ocean waves,
i looked for You
in the bright red roses,
i looked for You
in the starry sky
and i found You
in the rainy, gray days,
i found You
in the stillness of the sea,
i found You
in the simple white daisies,
i found You
in the dark, empty night
because You hide in
simple beauty.

I put poison in one of these two glasses
But I can't remember which one
And with the way this dinner is going
I really hope it's mine

Drink up.

Saying "I love you" the first time is easy
it's the second time that's hard.