Is this a momentary passing?
Forgetting what you're missing,
Running and never regretting.
Looking at trees for the first time.
And thinking how weirdly alive they look.
I felt like a newly bought old book.
I kept replaying the same old scenes.
Familiarizing the pain of seeing you leave.
Everyday I lie to forget how miserable it feels.
But then I go back seeing the trees.
How those leaves move as the wind breeze.
How they come alive under the light of a tall post in the dark of the night.
Ironicaly reminding me of hope despite a dark fight.
And all of a sudden I feel my inside smiling.
I look up and saw one star in the night sky shining.
Once again I am humbled to be reminded.
There's one star in the vast of the sky still shining.
That could mean love, hope and happiness all at His proper timing.

I hated games.
But someone pushed me to it.
Now you have the upperhand.
Give me a couple of space, and I'll make sure I'll win this race.

I don't know what to say.
I'm not quite sure why I feel this way.
Today I felt like winning.
But inside I'm dying.
Show me where to run.
Please hide that gun.
I smile while surrounded by the crowd.
Alone, I'm nowhere to be found.
I'm quite sure I must be happy.
I'm quite sure.
I'm quite.

****.*

I need my ****** back.

I think of you and her.
you that was always late.
her that left me in a dying state.
you that I'm still waiting to come.
her that left me scarred and so undone.
I wish pain would just easily subside.
And that you would just come and easily replace her side.

Looking I picked.
Walking you came.
Us together, not a game.

I'm pushing, felt like winning.
You're pulling, pulling me close.

Yesterday we were strangers.
Today were practically endangered.

Your smile tells it all.
How I can basically trap you in a hall.
I can **** you in a stare.
And *love you like no one dare.