Lostling

Lostling Feb 25

Useful

Use me
Hurt me
Abuse me
Exploit me

But please
Don’t toss me away

I'm sorry

#used #worth #replacement

Lostling Feb 25

Crimson Stained Snow

Blades clash, shattering
Unspoken words, a sword falls
Silence, then weeping

Friends from different sides spar together for the very last time

#haiku

Lostling Feb 25

I am Misplaced

I am not the black sheep, so why don’t I belong?
My wool stands out amongst the heard, a speck of dirt on a
pristine
marble
dress.
I am not flicked away, but forced into another’s coat
To match the sea of white.
I am a stranger in my own body,
A mess of shredded wool and yearning
Yearning for my home

“Return to home!” My soul does cry, I want to listen so. But my heart has sheep that it holds dear, refusing to let go.

#blacksheep #belonging #misplaced

Lostling Feb 20

Before Bed

Quiet nights alone
Pen scratching against paper
Finally, day's end

#haiku

Lostling Feb 20

Dissolving

I saw a familiar face in a crowd
Like dye in clear water
Disappear before I could reach it

What used to be a daily sight
Snuffed out like a candles light
Only smoke remains

#friends #strangers

Lostling Feb 20

When you fly away

I could only watch
As the people that helped me out of my egg
Took flight
As my seniors that showed me how to walk
Spread their wings
As my friends who showed me that path to the skies
Left for the clouds
Now, as I watch over the baby birds,
I know that soon, I too will have to leave.

Faces leave like birds in the winter
Except sometimes they don't return

(Another passing out parade is coming up, and I dont know if I'll cry or celebrate at mine)

#birds #pop #seniors #leaving

Lostling Feb 20

TooLoudTooLoudTooLoud

The claps
Explode inside my ears, thundering blanks of noise
The cheers and chatter
Whispers
Mutters
Rush into my ears like seawater, and I can't help but drown...
Static.
Static everywhere, wires zinging and zapping,
Skewer my brain and blend it into froth
Pouring out of my eyes as I squeeze them shut.
And as the frost rushes through my spine, into my lungs,
Curling its claws around my throat,
My screams for silence are just that.

Where you hear commands
I hear abuse
Where you hear applause
Only gunshots ring out for me

(Never touching uniform groups again)

#noise #overwhelmed #hyperacusis