Tears drop, heart aches
Nothing can be done
On my chest, heavy weights
Waiting for the Sun
3 months, as short
Not enough to blow
But 3 months, too short
Not enough to grow
3 months, just long
Enough to learn self love
And 3 months, as long
To bond and long for love
All connections made
Cannot sew in strong enough
All realizations fade
Cannot say I’m as tough
But not a second wasted
Have lived in the present
Much love given and taken
Are all lovely presents
Tears drop, heart warmed
All things have been done
On my mind, love swarmed
Finally, I see the Sun.
I’ve said goodbye to all my friends this week, one a day. It was heart-wrenching af, but at the same time, I’ve never felt this genuine appreciation simply of my existence before. These 3 months have been beautifully weird for my brain. I try to write my journal a lot to help process but the gears in my head are still figuring it out.
Farewell has never been easy for me, but this one is the hardest. What I had with my friends are so special, I doubt I can ever recreate this again in any other scenarios ever. I genuinely appreciate this experience, but sometimes I just wish it would never end. (But still, idk if I would’ve stayed longer, will I give it all the way I did knowing I’m here for only 3 months?)
Anyhow, as much clarity I gain from this trip, as many new questions about myself pops up in my mind. The times to come are going to be even more fun. On days like this I just love my life. And I’m celebrating birthday this year, cause for once, life is meaningful and is worth living.