loving you has caused me the most hurt in my short life, but somehow i can't bring myself to stop.
all of the other pain has come and gone, but you have been a constant since the day you entered my mind.
it hasn't all been bad, loving you. some days my feelings put me on top of the world.
but others i'm at the bottom of the ocean because i am just another fish in your sea of lies.
loving you has shaped me into who i am, but i still don't know if that is good or bad.
if given the chance to do it all again, i hope it hurts you to know i'm not sure if i would let you in again.
i hate this poem just about as much as i hate him sometimes but maybe someone else will understand