I think it's time I had a reset
It wasn't something I didn't foresee yet
Deep breath, reset.

It really hurts to play the part
I kept on running from the past you
I guess I didn't really have too
And I miss the clouds up high

Skyscrapers I am running
And I miss the sounds of the night

Saying that I could be something to you
or maybe I'll be nothing
I've nothing to prove

It all hurts the same way

Bubbie you don’t understand
I don’t want my world to end
I spend all my serotonin on you
This past few months I keep pretending
That I’m serenading you

Say whatever you want to say but my breakdowns keep holding me from saying the truth

I did everything again just to ****** it up again
I spend all my serotonin on you
I have to use substance so that i can keep imagining me and you

Please sit down, you don’t understand
I spend all my serotonin on you
You’re trying to forget about me
I’m trying to keep you in my head

I did everything I can but somehow I ****** it up again
I spend all my serotonin on you

I’m tired of playing pretend
I want to see your smile again
And now I can’t get a word in
So please understand
I want to do everything I can
I spend all of my serotonin on you

My spirit is disturbed by you
Because you treated it so well
So throw me a lifeline
Is it all sci-fi to you?

Gorgeous like cypress
How do I serve you
I’m under your spell
Be my devotion

Waiting for an omen
Drowning in an ocean
Floating to the moment

The pain
Pain
Pains
The big pain
I'm in pain
I don't know what it is but it's pain
I can feel it
Coursing through my veins
Pain
It hurts
I can feel it
Should i love it?
Accept it?
The pain
What do i gain?
More pain?
I don't care.
There's always pain
Forever till the end.

I like the way you draw

Every stroke into those sketches

As if the passion inside of you

Could never been so deep

I like the way you paint

As your hand dances and stretches

With every touch of color

The world will ever need

I adore you

In the table taking big shots
Making my eyes get blurry so I can't see
Making it more seems I don't wanna be alive
There's a hole in my being and you keep putting your hand in
Testing the waters like we always did

Is this the part where we hit up?
Always spend it on a *** talk
I don't wanna talk with a feeling
I don't wanna sit with my feelings

Come right at me and I can tell where this is headed
I wake up with you and I know where it'll end up
I don't need you like I did every winter
Always taking me way too long to recover
You keep remembering my hands around your neck
And I keep replaying it in my head

Your smell made me weak in the knees
If I keep thinking it's a game maybe I'll figure it out
Now the ringing is too loud

So **** that
This isn't an attachment
It's a trauma response
They said I need a therapist
Making up for the past again, and again, and again

I'll be honest, seeing you is a contest
And I don't wanna do it anymore

Crying my eyes out
And you keep showing me you're an empath
I'm sorry if I didn't like that

Hey Mom, I fell in love with a girl over the internet and I punch myself after she broke up with me gonna hang up because I'm getting late, to face the world that hates me.

No news is good news I swear
Can you tell that I'm a ******* from over there?
I'm broke and my shoes don't have any soles

but I'm over it

Everyone's falling in love and I'm at home getting high
20 something I'm still waiting for luck
Kinda wish something happen

but I'm so over it

Sorry for venting, I just can't wait for the ending
I hate to complain, putting it all on display
Yeah, my bed is still on the floor

but I'm really over it

i've lived
in a short time
all of it
for a moment
i am
but i am

ALWAYS CATCH ME PICKING SIDES
******* HATE THESE TEARY EYES
OVERDOSE WHILE TELLING LIES
ALWAYS TEARING UP MY ******* HAIR
DOING THINGS LIKE I DONT CARE
ALWAYS LOOKING FOR MORE DESPAIR
I DONT WANNA ******* CARE

i have no more direction
**** all these perfections
i have no more direction
and i'm so ******* scared

ALWAYS CATCH ME PICKING SIDES
******* HATE THESE TEARY EYES
OVERDOSE WHILE TELLING LIES
ALWAYS TEARING UP MY ******* HAIR
DOING THINGS LIKE I DONT CARE
ALWAYS LOOKING FOR MORE DESPAIR
I DONT WANNA ******* CARE

go pull up stare at the scene

Everything is the same
They say tomorrow is another day
But tomorrow is just an ordinary day

They say life is a wheel
There's always up and downs
It makes me sad because a wheel is a repeating pattern
A pattern you cant remove

Except when it explodes
And cant function anymore

A wheel of life is all i see
Everything around me is a wheel
That still rolling

And it seems that i am one of them
And i hate to see me
Being one with society

When the television dies
He cries
For no one is talking anymore

His sanity is slowly becoming sand
From the ocean full of wonders

Slowly drying up the tears
He awoke to the sound of endless rings

The petrichor scent
Reminds him of the past that he’s life is a lie

Because all of his friends are dead
When the television dies

Me and My Friends
Are not the type who ignore the smallest problems
Hidden in the world of fools
We hide our emotions but we all feel the same thing that one of us has a problem that no single person can resolve we cant let them out because we know it might broke us or sometimes everyone around us we spent our time chasing our desires but always end up in the same direction

Me and My Friends
we’re not the type of people to leave the room
because in this new age we know that all of us are connected even though we're all apart

Me and My Friends
We never get in trouble
But we are a troubled bunch

A man wakes up get up and get dressed

To go outside is what this man had in mind

To see all the beauty this world come around

To pursue a dream to see all beauty in this world

But then he wakes up realizing it was all a dream
He cant get up stand up and get dressed
Because he already saw what the world is
It's cruel violent forgetful and full of greed
No motivation to move around
No motivation to go outside
He does not care about himself anymore
He cried inside
For he thinks there's no hope anymore

Because to get up stand up and get dressed
Is the most difficult thing to do

I think I'm out of luck
They left I'm so shaken up
Indecisions embracing
Incisions embroidered
So undecided
Is that how I walk?
I think I've lost myself
Went on a separate way
Feelings were never the same
I held onto you
With nothing to prove
nothing to prove
We held on longer
but now you're out of reach
said you'll hold on
but is it necessary to let go of me?
all the time I left wasted
how can I regret it?


this endless sea


The season continues
and it's hard to grieve
When the night comes fast
and I keep looking at strangers
I don't know how to cope
Close your eyes and pretend it's them
It's a lost cause
I wanted you to know
There's nothing to prove
But I keep on changing
I had a choice and I put a tie on it
Still feeling I'm still waiting
Hold that regretting

this endless sea
this endless sea
this endless sea
this endless sea
this endless sea
this endless sea

This thing is a no hope, close case, long road, and I'm pretty sure things have changed
Started getting that feeling that the time got stabbed and everything is bleeding out
Watched the color turn into yellow morphing into black and grey
The light's leaking
It's confusing how I see it now, can't afford to waste anymore because Every step gone forth is always a step back
and you can see it on my face
Do I still hold for longer?
It's not fair when you're out of reach, said you'll hold on
but is it necessary to let go of me?
all the time I left wasted

how can I regret it?
how can I regret it?
how can I regret it?
how can I regret it?
how can I regret it?
how can I regret it?

You wanted light
To all of this darkness

You wanted hope
To all of this hopelessness

You wanted to be saved
But no one is saving

You wanted you
But you are fading

Seeing you was so bittersweet I almost died
My heart skipped and It kept screaming, why?
I almost thought that I could change the past
I almost, but that would never really last

Whatever you wanted
Forever wanting
I hope you notice and could come around

Silence keeps me frozen
We didn't make a sound
So I hope you notice

I still can't find out
Replaying those few days over
Hoping I figure it out

I might act distant, but I swear that it's not over
Thinking about you all the time
But I need to know
Do you still care if I'm still breathing?


Am I insane
For thinking, we could've made it?
I think we could've made it

I'm back at where I started
I give up

You can say you hate me
But I'm giving it all up