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May 2016 · 384
Friends or More
Camron Elliott May 2016
Hello, can you hear me now
It is not like I am in front of your face speaking to you
I'm not just rambling on about my life
I am telling you all my feelings yet you don't listen
You swat my words away as if the words were a fly
I told you everything that I was going through
All my stories that I feel deeply for I told you
You took that for granted and wasted it away
Told me that it was like a friendship
Well if a relationship is to last
It needs to be with a dear friend
I look at you like and I see the best thing in the world
Now I look at and I see heartbreak and pain
I see myself wishing I could have you again
But that is not going to happen
May 2016 · 372
Can We Work?
Camron Elliott May 2016
I cannot just pretend that I do not hurt
I cannot just turn my head when I can't look at you
I have to see you
I have to make sure you are still here
I cannot force you to stay and make me happy
I cannot force this weight I carry onto you
You don't know what I feel everyday
You keep telling me that it isn't my fault
Yet you told me that it was a friendship
Yet I never acted more with us
Now I sit here and cry every night
Now I lay here and look at the picture of us
I still wonder if it will ever be the same between us
I still wish that we could be together
Just want to know that why you don't blame me
Just want to know that I can still be able to have you
But I know that I can't have you
But yet I still blame myself everyday
Camron Elliott May 2016
I told you that I didn't want to be hurt again
I told that I wanted years not months
You didn't listen and still hurt me
You decided for months instead of years
Now I sit in my dark bedroom during midnight
Now I sit there and cry myself to sleep
How did I not see that it would end soon
How did I not care to notice you didn't like this
Where can I go to find happiness again
Where do I go to have trust again
No where is good enough for me
Not my family or my friends
I know that when I speak to you I am happy
I know that my depression worsens after I start talking to you
But I can't seem to stay away from you
I try and force myself away but it isn't enough
Now my heart feels like it is being shredded in the center
Now I feel broken pieces in the core
But you just laugh it away and make up excuses
But I have to keep seeing you
You call me friend which is what you want
You never thought to ask what I want
Every time you call me Friend
Every time my heart is being stabbed by pain
Now I am here crying away
Now I am here failing apart
Because of you and your words
Because I had fallen for you and can't get up.
Apr 2016 · 313
Untitled
Camron Elliott Apr 2016
Can you eat something that isn't there?
Can you touch something that doesn't exist?
Can you feel something that isn't real?
Can you love when you know it isn't true?
I can not bring myself to believe in you
I can not tell myself that it isn't true
But I can tell myself no and to not follow my dreams
Dreams are made to be broken if you can't love
Apr 2016 · 352
I Found Out
Camron Elliott Apr 2016
I found out that I can be happy
I found out that I could be able to quit hurting myself
I can eventually find true inner peace
One thing that I have got to do first
Get out of this horrible place
I know my parents don't want me here anymore
I should just move out while I still can have dignity
But no I am not allowed so I guess I have to wait
Apr 2016 · 531
I Came Home Today
Camron Elliott Apr 2016
I came home today
It was the same as always.
Always yelling, always hating
Always calling each other names.
I came home today and there they were
My mother and step father fighting as always
My step father never hits my mother
Which is why I should love him more
Than the pig that is my father.
But sadly I don't love my family.
Since the fact that they don't love me.
My mother even told me that I wasn't her son.
I am adopted
After 16 years of living at home and thinking I was blood
To soon find out that I am a nobody
That hurts in ways I do not understand.
I came home today to find that I still live in a place where I can hate.
Not really a poem. Just wanted to get this out of me.
Oct 2015 · 1.9k
Self Harm - Haiku
Camron Elliott Oct 2015
Here I Slice My Wrist
But To Me, It's Like A Kiss
Vein Is What I Missed.
© Camron Elliott 2015
Oct 2015 · 306
Painful Fears
Camron Elliott Oct 2015
I can feel my heart shatter
When u act like nothing happened
Whenever it really does matter

Y turn your back on me now
When u said u felt that way
Just go as I get a towel

To wipe my face from the tears
As u laugh away with your peers
And I am here with all these fears

I told you all of these little things
But yet it didn't stop this pain
I am here wishing for fangs

To rip my heart out of my chest
As I am here choking the sobs away
I just wanted love but I failed this test

Now u see me here alone, quiet
But u save your breath with me
But I for one am not defiant

I stay away like you said
But I can't help but long for you
When I apparently misread

All those messages keep going on in my head
But I save them to myself
Until I am dead

Now I push people away
Cuz I'm too afraid of getting hurt
But it doesn't matter now, okay

I choose to either trust or not
But I choose not cuz of the mishaps
But it's not like I fought

For the chance to find out why
I couldn't understand your lies
But now I have to lie

To others who ask what's the matter
Cuz u were too embarrassed by the truth
But u ended our chatter

And I just sit here dumbfounded
By what u said to all those people
For which I thought we were bounded

Cuz of the way we talked to each other
So I was all happy for no reason
But why do I even bother

When I can just fall to the ground
But I have to try and empty my thoughts
Of you Cuz I need to go around

But I can't since u stand in my way
I can't say to others what happened
Since I am not okay
© Camron Elliott 2015
Oct 2015 · 371
Support Me Not
Camron Elliott Oct 2015
You turn to me for support
I give you my shoulder to lean on
My words that I say to you
Are of giving you love and hope
Telling you things get better
I turn to you for support
But all i get back is that
We were never together as friends
I wasn't truthful with you
But I gave you all my secrets.
Sep 2015 · 312
Emptiness
Camron Elliott Sep 2015
I Empty My Heart Out To You
I Give My Life Meaning With Thoughts So Blue
I Can Feel In My Chest
Oceans Crushing The Test
Of Having Someone So Great Bring Me Alive
That Just Ends It All With A Single Reply
.........ok..........
Sep 2015 · 421
Painful - Rhyme
Camron Elliott Sep 2015
How Can You Tell Me That I Am Happy
When Be It As It May,
I Smile Every Day.
I Smile The Pain Away,
And Seizing The Day,
Even Here As I Lay,
It's The Pain I Feel, I Say.
Do Not Tell Me I Am Happy.
I haven't been on recently, and for that I am truly sorry.
Jul 2015 · 789
Storm - Haiku
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Dark Thunderous Clouds
Storm Over Nature's Forest
With Kindness And Grace.
Jul 2015 · 795
Boiling Rage
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Hang me not
I will undo the knot.
Lay me in a cot
As I boil in a ***.
Teach me not to lie
When you cut my pie.
I have nothing but my tie
As I get high.
From telling you How Perfect You Are
Yet you talk me down and drive away in your car.
Jul 2015 · 493
Inner Thoughts - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
We strap ourselves to our thoughts and don't get up.
Jul 2015 · 356
My Sanity - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Like A Balloon Swept Upward
By Shear Force Of Wind.
Jul 2015 · 345
Possibilities - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
One Day You Are In,
The Next Out,
What Next.
Jul 2015 · 777
Your Fault - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
You Said You Loved Me,
Then You Left Me Alone.
Jul 2015 · 317
How - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
How Can You Love,
All You Do Is Break Hearts
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
You Left Me Out Alone,
In This Big Scary World.
Jul 2015 · 425
Grow Up - 11 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
When You Find Your Future,
Then You Can Talk To Me.
Jul 2015 · 355
Lies - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Your Voice Cracks,
You Face Me,
Lying To My Face.
Jul 2015 · 794
Perfect - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
If Only You Knew His Thoughts,
He Is In Love.
Jul 2015 · 329
Failures - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Our Failures Are Challenges To Others,
Reasons To Strike Again.
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
You Inhale Smokes With Money,
I Set My Future Making Money.
Jul 2015 · 413
Get It Together - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Don't Listen To People's Stories,
You Can't Listen To Yours.
Copyright © 2015 Camron Elliott
Jul 2015 · 283
Madness - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
You Say I Talk To Myself,
It's My Mind Speaking.
Copyright © 2015 Camron Elliott
Jul 2015 · 440
Morning Dew
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Wake Up To Dawn
Work All Day Long.
Morning Dew
Is What Is New.
Sun So Bright
Birds Take Flight.
Grass Sways In The Wind
Until It Is The End.
Dark Clouds Coming In
Time To Sleep Again.
Copyright © 2015 Camron Elliott
My First Rhyme Poem.
Jul 2015 · 340
Night - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Night Time Is Dangerous,
Night Time Is Where Nightmares Begin.
Copyright © 2015
Camron Elliott
Jul 2015 · 346
24/7
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Why Wait For 11:11
When God Is There 24/7
Jul 2015 · 506
Fireflys - Haiku
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Bright Fireflys Dance
Giving Light To This Dark Night
Let Them Light The Night.
Copyright © 2015 Camron Elliott
First Haiku
Jul 2015 · 816
Anger - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Blood Boils Under The Skin,
Rain Falls, Soothes The Skin.
Jul 2015 · 298
Pain - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Drink To Forget The Pain,
Forget To Drink Pain Away.
Jul 2015 · 350
Sanity - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
Wake Up,
Find Yourself In Your Mind,
Hang On Tightly.
Jul 2015 · 798
Welcome - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
People Welcome You Into Their Lives,
Then Why Won't You.
Jul 2015 · 292
Problems - 10 Words
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
How Can You Push Forward,
When You Just Step Down.
Jul 2015 · 269
Afraid - 10 Word
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
People Are Afraid Of What
They Simply Do Not Understand.
Jonathan Kent Quotes. Man of Steel.
Jul 2015 · 371
One Life - 10 word
Camron Elliott Jul 2015
You Only Got One Life,
No Redo's, Make It Count.
May 2015 · 620
Destroy
Camron Elliott May 2015
Life is screaming out at you to end your life.
But don’t do it.
Be that rebel and rebel and live.
Life ***** you away when you are down.
Destroy your feelings.
Don’t let them take your feelings from you.
Be yourself and do whatever you want.
Destroy others by not acknowledging them.
© 2015 Camron Elliott
May 2015 · 607
Hell is Inside of Us
Camron Elliott May 2015
People say ,"You scared the hell out of me".
I think, There is a Hell inside of all of us.
Either we want to get out
Or we haven't got in yet.
Hell inside of us are the voices that tell us negative thoughts.
That are screaming at us to do things.
Are the disturbing thoughts that float around our mind.
We have Hell Inside Of Us.
Copyright © 2015 Camron Elliott
May 2015 · 414
Death by a Loved One
Camron Elliott May 2015
Blood drips from the blade just as it does from the wrist.
Splatters as it hits the floor.
The tears stain the face.
The blade is the words hurting her heart.
The blood is the laughs that surround her at school.
The tears are the bruises from home.
Her wrist is her final goodbye.
Copyright © 2015 Camron Elliott

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