Hello, can you hear me now It is not like I am in front of your face speaking to you I'm not just rambling on about my life I am telling you all my feelings yet you don't listen You swat my words away as if the words were a fly I told you everything that I was going through All my stories that I feel deeply for I told you You took that for granted and wasted it away Told me that it was like a friendship Well if a relationship is to last It needs to be with a dear friend I look at you like and I see the best thing in the world Now I look at and I see heartbreak and pain I see myself wishing I could have you again But that is not going to happen
I cannot just pretend that I do not hurt I cannot just turn my head when I can't look at you I have to see you I have to make sure you are still here I cannot force you to stay and make me happy I cannot force this weight I carry onto you You don't know what I feel everyday You keep telling me that it isn't my fault Yet you told me that it was a friendship Yet I never acted more with us Now I sit here and cry every night Now I lay here and look at the picture of us I still wonder if it will ever be the same between us I still wish that we could be together Just want to know that why you don't blame me Just want to know that I can still be able to have you But I know that I can't have you But yet I still blame myself everyday
I told you that I didn't want to be hurt again I told that I wanted years not months You didn't listen and still hurt me You decided for months instead of years Now I sit in my dark bedroom during midnight Now I sit there and cry myself to sleep How did I not see that it would end soon How did I not care to notice you didn't like this Where can I go to find happiness again Where do I go to have trust again No where is good enough for me Not my family or my friends I know that when I speak to you I am happy I know that my depression worsens after I start talking to you But I can't seem to stay away from you I try and force myself away but it isn't enough Now my heart feels like it is being shredded in the center Now I feel broken pieces in the core But you just laugh it away and make up excuses But I have to keep seeing you You call me friend which is what you want You never thought to ask what I want Every time you call me Friend Every time my heart is being stabbed by pain Now I am here crying away Now I am here failing apart Because of you and your words Because I had fallen for you and can't get up.
Can you eat something that isn't there? Can you touch something that doesn't exist? Can you feel something that isn't real? Can you love when you know it isn't true? I can not bring myself to believe in you I can not tell myself that it isn't true But I can tell myself no and to not follow my dreams Dreams are made to be broken if you can't love
I found out that I can be happy I found out that I could be able to quit hurting myself I can eventually find true inner peace One thing that I have got to do first Get out of this horrible place I know my parents don't want me here anymore I should just move out while I still can have dignity But no I am not allowed so I guess I have to wait
I came home today It was the same as always. Always yelling, always hating Always calling each other names. I came home today and there they were My mother and step father fighting as always My step father never hits my mother Which is why I should love him more Than the pig that is my father. But sadly I don't love my family. Since the fact that they don't love me. My mother even told me that I wasn't her son. I am adopted After 16 years of living at home and thinking I was blood To soon find out that I am a nobody That hurts in ways I do not understand. I came home today to find that I still live in a place where I can hate.
Not really a poem. Just wanted to get this out of me.
You turn to me for support I give you my shoulder to lean on My words that I say to you Are of giving you love and hope Telling you things get better I turn to you for support But all i get back is that We were never together as friends I wasn't truthful with you But I gave you all my secrets.
I Empty My Heart Out To You I Give My Life Meaning With Thoughts So Blue I Can Feel In My Chest Oceans Crushing The Test Of Having Someone So Great Bring Me Alive That Just Ends It All With A Single Reply .........ok..........
How Can You Tell Me That I Am Happy When Be It As It May, I Smile Every Day. I Smile The Pain Away, And Seizing The Day, Even Here As I Lay, It's The Pain I Feel, I Say. Do Not Tell Me I Am Happy.
I haven't been on recently, and for that I am truly sorry.
Hang me not I will undo the knot. Lay me in a cot As I boil in a ***. Teach me not to lie When you cut my pie. I have nothing but my tie As I get high. From telling you How Perfect You Are Yet you talk me down and drive away in your car.
Wake Up To Dawn Work All Day Long. Morning Dew Is What Is New. Sun So Bright Birds Take Flight. Grass Sways In The Wind Until It Is The End. Dark Clouds Coming In Time To Sleep Again.
Life is screaming out at you to end your life. But don’t do it. Be that rebel and rebel and live. Life ***** you away when you are down. Destroy your feelings. Don’t let them take your feelings from you. Be yourself and do whatever you want. Destroy others by not acknowledging them.
People say ,"You scared the hell out of me". I think, There is a Hell inside of all of us. Either we want to get out Or we haven't got in yet. Hell inside of us are the voices that tell us negative thoughts. That are screaming at us to do things. Are the disturbing thoughts that float around our mind. We have Hell Inside Of Us.
Blood drips from the blade just as it does from the wrist. Splatters as it hits the floor. The tears stain the face. The blade is the words hurting her heart. The blood is the laughs that surround her at school. The tears are the bruises from home. Her wrist is her final goodbye.