I feel your presence in the air
Through and though I’m on my way
Marching forward till the morrow
I’m almost there, love
No walls can hide you
Because I can sense your quickened heartbeats
Matching in time to the harp of drum
I can see you now
Staring out the glistened window
Down, down your golden hair
Fair skin, gold like wheat
Pale like snow
I’m here below
Call out your name
From tired eyes to lipstick coated teeth
Rouged cheeks, turn to see me leave

Cry me a river
until windswept tears pour down your reddened cheeks
This is to the girls who feel everything
The girls who know how it feels to have your heart abandoned and left for dead
Who takes each step with a shattering breath, moving backward instead of towards her goal

Manipulation is the root of all evil
Greedy words to get what you want
Always achieving, hurting other people

Bruising the eye of the beholder
She means nothing to me
When the only thing I care about is you
Betrayal is lost in the abyss we call our lives
I never meant to hurt you
Can’t you see I did this for you
Don’t you know, that I did this to make you stronger
I did this to protect you
This wasn’t to hurt you
I swear I never meant to leave you there alone

You know that I only wanted to protect you
I swear I didn't’ mean to let this happen to you
I am your mother
And you belong to me
How can you hate your mother?
I birthed  and coddled you
Burped and fed you when you could barely stand for yourself
I changed my whole life for you
I let my body go to carry you
So that  you could live
What does it matter if he hurt you?
I loved you
The least you could’ve done for me was to love him too
I am your mother
You belong to me
Listen to me
it doesn’t matter that I chose him
Because you’ve skipped over me your whole life
And I was  your mother

It's ok if i'm
Not your favorite chapter
You have written,
But I hope
You still smile when
You flip back to
The pages I was still a part of

When I was 130 pounds
I was always jealous of my 90-pound mother
One day I told her I wished she was fat too
Instead of telling me I wasn’t
She said “that’s the meanest thing you’ve ever said to me”