Its one in the morning As I lay here in my bed
Wishing you could just see the thoughts that go through my head
While trying to ignore the fact that I have once again been crying
All because I can feel that whatever we are is dying

There is a heavy weight in my chest
And I'm dreading having to get up in a few hours in order to get dressed.
But I'll say nothing about how I feel
Until we get to share another meal because that was the deal.

He believes he is not ready
Yet he doesn't see how much shes adores him
He says he couldn't afford a relationship
Though he doesn't know she would be fine staying exactly how they are
With the late night phonecalls randomly and there letting each other know when they'll be unavailable
She loved how he seems to remember the small little things from their conversation
She loves how he has the same interest as her
But she cannot say she loves him though. Because that takes much more time to know.
She knows she adores him with her whole heart but never tell him

People do not understand that love is unconditional

I do not fall in love with someone completely on purpose nor do I fall in love.
I start a friend ship just like I'm taking a bath.
I carefully turn on the water and check the temperature before climbing in.
But then I begin to daydream, forgetting all about how high the levels are rising
or how the temperature feels.
until I am completely submerged in water that scolds me.

And when it all ends my skin is red and sore and I've cried out my heart because it hurts.

I remember the first time my soft hands held yours which were like a rose.
How your thrones pricked at my skin causing me to bleed.
And how I feel in love with that feeling because I thought it was love
I stayed with you despite how you told me I was nothing but a pesky ****

It wasn't till you do rudely poured poured poison all over my soil and grew so tall you hid me from the sun
That I finally decided our graden bed was to small for me

Now it's been a couple years, and I no longer shead tears for you.
The scars you left on my hands, now faded out, and covered by flowers I began to sprout

From sitting in the back together
To not being able to look at each other
It was your insecurity that lead us here
Or maybe it was the pressures from your peers

Those were your promises to keep
But instead, you'd rather make me weep
So no more long car rides
Or trying to save your pride

For you are nothing new
Just something that makes me blue
Goodbye little gas station boy
I no longer wish to be your toy

Arms streached out
I take a step back
May my body lay about
All dressed in black

To all that would weep
Death is cold
So remember to count your sheep
And pray you dont get old

Thank you for trying so hard
Even when your so broken
You keep on trying to love
And your always so open
Even when I've wished you'd stop
You keep beating