I can’t do everything in one lifetime.
I want to be a writer— a poet, and yet I’d like to explore the stars, discover planets.
I’d like to act in every big-name movie, but I’d also love to sing my heart out in meaningless songs that others can’t quite comprehend.
I’d like to move countries, change my name, forget my old self— but I also want to embrace who I truly am, at my core.
Time.
There never seems to be enough of it.
If only we were given several lifetimes to figure ourselves out, to breathe life at its purest form, and see our souls in the way we know is right.
If only we could glimpse the countless endings hidden in every small beginning.

sadness comes in droplets.
from the sky, from your eyes, they fall.
over and over, time and time again.
wetting the ground, streaking your face
until a puddle grows into a sea.

grains
of sun

untied laces
of snow

urgent shadows
of birds

perfect shards
of stars

they are parceled out
in increments

of wonder
divvied up

in morsels
of joy

Someone listened.
Someone cared.
And I was not alone
With my fears and tears
And emptiness
For one night.

Measure every word,
Every use of punctuation,
Every emoticon and emoji
Down to the smallest gram

Think twice. No--
Thirteen times,
Before opening your mouth.
And dont talk too much or you're self centred

Check every message, comment.
Nothing too harsh
Nothing insensitive
Nothing that might scare them away
Or tarnish their view of you

Write
Delete
And rewrite
Then quickly send before you chicken out

So much more problems out there
Just can't stand this one
Crying at night
Acting all innocent
‘what's with your eyes’
‘looks like you cried'
‘are you okay'

14 years old
Hating school as usual
Not because of the haters
Not because of the bullies
Not because of math
Not because of the teachers
Not because of the rules
Because of them
My friends
Or my friendgroup
If I can call them that
I love them
But I can call them a problem
I just can't stand this one

It's hard you know
This problem
I know there are harder problems
And I know I am overreacting
Just can't stand this one
I can't stand them

So here I am crying
And I know I am not the only one
So I cry a little more
Just can't stand this one