Whether or not I was "asking for it"
Shouldn't matter

"I'm dying to see you *******."

Then die.

i am numb
and i guess
that is progress

My throat is closing
My eyes are blurring
My mind is racing
My hands are shaking
My chest is burning
My stomachs dropping
My mascaras smearing
My heart is breaking
My soul is dying
Though I keep screaming
And I keep crying
they never notice