I tried my best, I did my best
Not to fall in love with you
Not to picture our hands intertwined pointing above
Not to think of our lives together that could have been
Not to dream of you laying next to me after a night of love and sin
Not to break down and wish I could start again.
But I guess my best. Couldn't win.

"One of these days I'm just going to sit down, put a pen to my head, pull the trigger and blow my brains out on a piece of paper."

"I just go for a walk down to my local pier when ever I'm depressed. I hop the fence, go to the very end and stand on the edge for a while. Sometimes I just stand there for hours just looking forwards. Know that if I jumped, I'd die and nobody would find my body for a long time. But I usually just step down and walk home, but sometime when I have a lot to think about, I just stand there, looking out to the darkness of the sea and night, not looking at anything really and I just wait. I wait for the sun to come up just behind me so I can see the first shed of light hit the ocean. Every time I see how just one ray of light could bring a sea of black and darkness into an endless plain on blue and life, it makes me feel better. I don't know why."

“Go ahead..Say what ever you want about me. I’m serious! I don’t care. It’s funny actually. Because I don’t even have to say or call you anything to get my satisfaction.. Because I know that no matter what you say to me, call me or what ever you’d do to remind me that I’m ****…You still kissed me..You still held my hand..You still fell in love with me..And I know that those facts **** you off and eat away at you everyday..And I love that.. I love that it does that to you.. Almost as much as I loved you."

i’ve never moved houses
but it’s the classic “it never felt like home,”
so i built one in myself i built a home
and i take it everywhere i go.

“Every life is just a simple stepping stone to the next one..
So don’t worry.. We’ll all do better the next time around.”