Left the disaster
Miss your eyes

Picturing your smile
And your hand in mine

Hating the distance
But feeling your presence

You’ve got me addicted and
I don’t know how you did it

Here I am having a break down
When your name appears across my screen
How is it that you always know when I’m in need?
You tell me the words that you know I should hear
Change my perspective and vanish my fear

You’re not what id usually go for,
But you’re what I’ve always needed.
Someone that’ll pull me close when I try waking away,
Someone that lets me know they aren’t going to stray.
Someone that says those 3 words..
And actually means them.
Someone my age ,
Where our relationship is socially accepted
Someone intelligent with an open perspective
Parents that motivate you to try,
Ones that have shown you the way.
Instead of telling you to give up
Because your head is black and grey
I don’t get it.
You’re just everything I always thought id hate
But you’re the only person I can appreciate

You said we couldn’t be friends anymore
I feel the same
Except I meant we shouldn’t be just friends
And you meant we should be nothing at all

I just want to burry myself into her arms
and feel her heart race against me
just once more, maybe in hopes she'll miss it as much as i do

I grasp you for a second
Then I set you free
In that moment you meant nothing to me
Sometimes you knocked me down
Or caused me to lose my balance
Truth is,
Having you around felt more like challenge.
You didn’t feel like fresh air
The type you live for in the spring
But the type you turn on in the summer
for a moment before you leave
Once the season changed
I realized I messed up
I didn’t know the hardest part of wind
Would be knowing you need it to live
But still having to give it up

I told you I loved you because I knew thats what you needed to hear
I told you I missed you because I wanted you near
I told you I was sorry because I saw you moving on
All these things I told you, the real you is now gone