Ashley: Poems

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Ashley Apr 2018

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I really don't know where I went wrong
but some how, some way I fell for you.
We all love things that **** us over,
but I guess that's what being human is.

don't fall in love that **** is ****** up

#love #heartbroken #confused

Backspace Button

Ashley Apr 2018

Backspace Button

And if I had a backspace button to erase every
word you ever planted in my mind
Every lie about loving me
Every stone they spat that aimed at ebbing away
at my existence
Every kiss I got from poisonous lips
Every snake that slithered into my life and out
leaving despair
I'd erase until there was nothing left
But in life that luxury doesn't exist, but I'm still
the author of this story
So I aim to ink every page after with words,feelings and thoughts that defy those that stained my pages in tears and blood.
Because for every lie, deception and hate that filled pages and left no room, the light inside me that I somehow generated from the desire to overcome, to grow and to be happy will fill a thousand pages more....

we all have **** we want to forget , we wont to undo , never meet or just done right want to pretend never happened, but we cant do that . So its either let it **** us up or overcome it.....

#love #hate #fuckit

Bearly Alive

Ashley Feb 2017

Bearly Alive

She kept herself tucked away and far away from life.
She knew life was far from good but still she tried to stay awake.
Screaming, they were screaming loud and clear " stupid little girl no one cares!"
No one knew what went on in her head.
No one knew why she felt this way.
All they saw was her eyes losing its life and her voice losing its cheer.
They took it all away.
They took her privacy away
And he took her mind away.

Depressed, Alone and Ready To Die

Ashley Jul 2017

Depressed, Alone and Ready To Die

We just kept getting worse and nothing really helped.
Maybe, just maybe we were meant to be like this,
Depressed, alone and ready to die.

death never strays too far from depression.

#drepressed #alone #and #ready #to #die

Depressed Depressed Depressed

Ashley Feb 2017

Depressed Depressed Depressed

Depressed Depressed Depressed
They stay, staining the grass upon which they lay.
Corpse that walk amongst the living,
with beautiful smiles that hide their trimmings.

Is it you or me ?

Ashley Feb 2017

Is it you or me ?

Is it you? or is it me?
Am I the sad one for finding happiness in the rainiest day
Or is it you for only seeing the sky when the sun is out?
If the Sky can cry when the world destroys it with its disgusting fumes,
why cant I when my sadness has engraved itself into my being?
If the Earth can shake in anger, when its people has left it in ruins,
why cant I when my anxiety has masked itself has my closest and truest friend?
If you're terrified of words your friends may say, why cant I be terrified of the noises I hear in my head over and over again?
Your emotions are of this world, mine stem from somewhere your imagination has yet to be.

#sadness #loneliness #depressed

Leave

Ashley Feb 2017

Leave

Sometimes I just feel like,
holding them by their throats
and telling them to leave.

Loneliness

Ashley Mar 2017

Loneliness

You fell in love with *** and drugs,
But overdose on lack of love.
You starved your self to feed your greed,
But became obese on selfish needs.
You threw away all the pride you had,
To lay with him all day.
He held your heart in his hands,
But he never saw how he had broken it.
Loneliness was your biggest fear,
Now you are alone with him.

Being alone doesn't mean your lonely. Sometimes being alone could be the thing you need, being alone with yourself and learning who you are.
#brokenhearted #alone #*** #relationship # sad and depressed # lost

Please love me again

Ashley Feb 2018

Please love me again

Tell me you love me and we will be together again
Promise me please that you wont ever leave.
Because God knows I need you ,
God knows I'm in love with you.
You are the essence of my being.
You are the source of my happiness .
I love you .

I cherished you more than life it self.
I believed every word you ever said.
I need you more than the air I breathe .
I need you more than you could ever believe.
You are who I live for.
You are who I would die for.
You are my life source decorated with skin.

The sun doesn't rise without you,
nor do the birds sing in the morning.
The sky is no longer blue and the stars no longer shine.
This world, my world can not function without you.

And as I lay here empty, cold and alone I think only of you.
The thought of you pollutes my mind,
And every promise you ever made has engraved itself on my heart.
My skin is covered in the words you said.
My eyes only see you,
and my lips beg to feel yours.
Lord God knows I miss you.

Please just love me and put me back together again.

God knows it hurts loving someone who doeent love you back.

#lonely #love #hearbroken #depressed

They all leave

Ashley Feb 2017

They all leave

Tears don't flow anymore
Screams don't sound anymore
I feel nothing
No thoughts
No voices
He has left
She has left
and I am all alone.

Untilled # 1

Ashley Feb 2017

Untilled # 1

tears fall
smiles died
windows closed
slammed doors
empty halls
For You and I

Whispered the Heart

Ashley Oct 2017

Whispered the Heart

You lover her, but don't want to fall in love with her.
Ridiculous isn't it , then again its also human of you.
Thinking you're good enough for her on one side.
Thinking she'd be better off without you on the other.

Loving can be painful.
Falling in love can be heart wrenching.
Trying not to love can be problematic, even disastrous.

Still. its up to you to pick the pain you want to live with.
Or the pain you want to live without.

I give al credits to my friend Gio, for writing this poem and allowing me to share it with the world.

#love

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