"I could be given all the attention in the world and id still be waiting for you to come back"

im trying so hard to hold back the tears...
if i cry my friend will know somethings wrong with me
i dont want him to know im torn to pieces...
this *****.
i didnt want this to happen....
now youre out of my life.
****
i ****** up
i shouldve kept my mouth closed..
why!
why does this have to happen to me?
i can never get a break from this pain...
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this

when will i be able to actually be happy?
i wont have to hide my real feelings anymore?
ugh i hate this

Cuando yo dije "te amo"
I meant it.
Cuando tu dijiste "te amo"
You didnt.
Odio que me mientan.

Giving you up,
You belong to the world -

not with me.

the world keeps turning;
with each turn,
I
in turn
turn away from you
and your awfulness
your ways
your rejection of me.

you enjoyed stumbling
recklessly falling and breaking;
whatever remained of my love
- my awful, broken love.

with each sunset -
I see you - setting with it
being the darkness that is my discomfort
the pain that lingers on
eating bits of me.

you are clumsy -
a person of the world
- I
well, I
- a person of the boundaries
of the tortured soul
that clings on the sanity
that is, love

the world has you -
I have nothing - nothing
that is you.

- nothing of you;
******.
The world has you - not I.

They say that poems
are made to touch
the places your
hands can't reach
and well i guess that
makes your smile a
poem

You stab me in the back with a knife,
and I apologize for bleeding on it.