im trying so hard to hold back the tears...
if i cry my friend will know somethings wrong with me
i dont want him to know im torn to pieces...
this *****.
i didnt want this to happen....
now youre out of my life.
****
i ****** up
i shouldve kept my mouth closed..
why!
why does this have to happen to me?
i can never get a break from this pain...
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this

when will i be able to actually be happy?
i wont have to hide my real feelings anymore?
ugh i hate this