The angels wept
with no single conspiracy
The demons crept
with woeful jealousy

White lies
Made of broken cries
Mournful eyes
Morphing to despise

Looking at the world with a broken lens
As another innocent ends

I sit and think
The future
The memories
The present
The past
I sit and think
It's forever lost

I lied when I said:
I don't like myself
I don't love anyone

for

I loved myself with you
I love you

then

Everything changed in an instant

It was like being impaled
or torn into two
My heart instantly mailed
by the words of you

I reject it
I need it not
It just gives me problems
The pain I'd rather not go through

Nightmares are beautiful
a daily damaged dream
with no single clock
yet feeling time ending

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

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