This empty soul of mine,
feels nothing but hate,
I see no reason to cry,
for my emotions arrived late.

I never felt anything,
I didn't want to anyway,
because I've seen what they bring,
that they can haunt you for days.

I'm just a soulless spirit,
wandering this world,
with no ability to **** this,
I won't be saying a word.

I don’t remember anymore
How it feels to not be this way
Maybe this is how I’ve always been
Maybe this is how I’ll always be.

Heart racing
Limbs shaking
Ears throbbing
Stomach revolting
How do I just calm down
And stop thinking of it
When all I can think is what if

I can’t breathe
I can’t stay at ease
I can’t just let things go
Because anxiety won’t let go of me

I stop talking to everyone
I stop going out
Maybe it’ll make me feel better
But anxiety is getting the better of me

I’m losing control
Why can’t you see it
Maybe it’s just in my head
But why does that make it unreal

I am but just a slave to my anxiety
And I just can’t get free.

White canvas
Black lines
No space for color

White is too bright
Black is not dark enough
Oscillate between the two
Less towards the light
And more towards the dark.

Clouds roll in
Dark and scary
Threaten to push me under
Ask them to come join me